Happy New Years!

I'm spending mine right now with my family, watching some novela that I'm not paying attention to and then later on I'm going to a house party.

My internet has been cut so i won't be able to post until next week, this is just from my phone and will most likely not post. But I wanted to write it out anyway.

Just to write that im not great but I'm not bad either and that I wish i felt able to talk about it all. I feel so uncomfortable writing that these words don't always feel like mine and I fear that I might not be saying what i wanted to but then it could just be that when writing you're able to analyse what you write and nothing will ever look right to me.
Anyway for this reason I want to start the year with no more self restrictions, the amount of times I've not joined in on a conversation or got back to someone when i had something to say because I kept repeating it to myself and chickened out. I worried that what I had to say wasn't significant. But unless I believe what I have to say is worth listening to then no one else will because they wouldn't have heard it and then they would know nothing about me except think of me as the quiet girl which really isn't the case. So no more doubting myself and no more worrying about what others think.

Hope everyone has a good new years and look out for my 3rd set on the 3rd. Its my favourite so far although I will cut it down a bit after 90 days. I do hope this is the one.

Xxxxxccc

Happy New Years!

I'm spending mine right now with my family, watching some novela that I'm not paying attention to and then later on I'm going to a house party.

My internet has been cut so i won't be able to post until next week, this is just from my phone and will most likely not post. But I wanted to write it out anyway.

Just to write that im not great but I'm not bad either and that I wish i felt able to talk about it all. I feel so uncomfortable writing that these words don't always feel like mine and I fear that I might not be saying what i wanted to but then it could just be that when writing you're able to analyse what you write and nothing will ever look right to me.
Anyway for this reason I want to start the year with no more self restrictions, the amount of times I've not joined in on a conversation or got back to someone when i had something to say because I kept repeating it to myself and chickened out. I worried that what I had to say wasn't significant. But unless I believe what I have to say is worth listening to then no one else will because they wouldn't have heard it and then they would know nothing about me except think of me as the quiet girl which really isn't the case. So no more doubting myself and no more worrying about what others think.

Hope everyone has a good new years and look out for my 3rd set on the 3rd. Its my favourite so far although I will cut it down a bit after 90 days. I do hope this is the one.

Xxxxxccc