Member: ChadiousXVI

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MAY 22, 2012 @ 02:49 AM


So, amidst the boredom of the day, standing around at work with my thumb up my ass for way too many hours than I needed to, incessantly surfing the web on my phone, checking my FB and SG and what have you, I got to thinking of some of my favorite things, things I miss, things I haven't had for several years now, as well as things I have never had at all...




SPOILERS! (Click to view)


I have never had emotion intimacy. I have had physical intimacy, but never with anyone who ever really CARED about me


Would you kiss me like you mean it?



Oh I have had sex (though not for the last two years), but never truly with passion

I want to run my fingers across your skin




I want to kiss my way down your body, feel your skin on my lips




Down, down, down, lower, lower....





I want to taste you, feel your fingers run through my hair





Do I mean anything to you? I want to see it in your eyes, feel it on your warm skin, hear it in your voice, and taste it on your lips



I want to feel your fingers run down my back



But most of all, I want it to mean something, I want to feel you feel for me the way I do for you




Or, I could just settle for metric tonnes of mind blowing, commitment free sex, orgies, and friends with benefits, that would work too, not that I'm getting that either or know anyone interested, but I would like to experience true affection, and, dare I say it, love... before I get old and fade away



In any case, that is my musing for the night. It's getting late, and I can tell

Comments
Deucomatic

Deucomatic

I'm lost
January 2012

MAY 22, 2012 03:30 AM

I totally get where you're at.

Deucomatic

Deucomatic

I'm lost
January 2012

MAY 22, 2012 04:33 AM

so true, loved the track BTW fucking awesome!

gamerchick28

gamerchick28

Iowa City, IA
January 2012

MAY 22, 2012 03:02 PM

perfect. I loved it. The last one... kissing while biting the lower lip.. I used to do that all the time. The last I was kissed was sadly one of the worse times.

Oh and my guitar lessons are horrific. I borrow a guitar from the person who gives the lessons. I'm not sure what kind it is. The entire purpose of the guitar playing is because I purchased this guitar http://www.jr.com/fender/pe/FEN_0968325021/

I don't even want to touch it without knowing how to play at least one Trio song. Hope you're having a decent start to your week. smilesmile

Perr

Perr

HOPEFUL

I'm lost

MAY 22, 2012 07:57 PM

You will find love. smile

missjaymie

missjaymie

Bremerton, WA
January 2012

MAY 23, 2012 12:58 PM

I hope that you find your dreams, and the love and affection that you deserve. smile

ChadiousXVI

ChadiousXVI

Everett, WA
January 2012

MAY 25, 2012 03:00 AM

Thank you, and I hope so. It just saddens me that, at 29, soon to be 30, I have never had a real relationship, and never felt romantically loved or cared about. I feel so behind everybody else

bete_noir

bete_noir

Western Sahara
April 2007

MAY 25, 2012 01:43 PM

You're hardly behind. Perhaps smarter than most and will know the real thing when you find it....

I'm going to go this summer, next month, I guess. I have so much going on, but it needs to happen soon.
Ar for Dr Who, I just know that once I start I'll be devoted to watching all of it. ..... that could be very counter productive.

bete_noir

bete_noir

Western Sahara
April 2007

MAY 25, 2012 05:09 PM

Who knows about the grass being greener, I just see getting into more serious relationships later (ie not your twenties) as something you can make a more educated / experienced choice.

But I'd want to see the whole series.. lol

CandyMacabre

CandyMacabre

United Kingdom
March 2009

MAY 28, 2012 03:50 AM

I totally get this....I think pretty much the same way..and you're not behind everyone else..it's just called waiting for the right person and not settling for something that isn't truly there, heart and soul xxx

darkkitten

darkkitten

USA
May 2012

JUL 17, 2012 11:10 AM

I had this and lost it. You will find this and when you do it will be amazing. Don't settle, it will only make you miserable. Best wishes Hun

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