Goddamnit. Now I've went blank. I think this is why I don't "blog" much. I think of shit during the day and when I get home and sit down at the computer, poof. Mind goes blank. Not that any of those thoughts were interesting or anything. Anyways....

Well, we're winding down another week in this wonderful country of ours. I thought it was a pretty shit week. I've been fighting all week with ING about my 401k. Still have gotten nowhere. Now I have to wait till monday at the earliest to get this shit cleared up. What a worthless fucking company. They rank up there with some of the worst customer service. And I thought Sprint was bad.

And I'm out of beer! Which will be remedied very soon. That's right kiddies, drinking at home on a friday night. Who needs to get a life? *raises hand*

On a positive note, I know my reason to live through the weekend. Iron Man 2. Fuck yeah! I've been waiting. It better not suck or I'm gonna be pissed. It seems like it's been a while since the last good comic book movie. Now if they could just make a new Spawn movie that didn't suck....

I really like this song.


Hope everybody has a good weekend.

So I haven't been around here very much for probably the last two months. I'm not for sure exactly why. Could easily blame it on various nuances in my personality. But anyways....I'm going to try to be on here more. I apologize to everyone that I've ignored.

As for what I have been doing? I've been working a lot. Which is seriously starting to get exhausting. This six days a week shit is really getting old. In the little free time I have I've been doing a lot of drinking. A lot of smoking pot. And actually quite a lot of playing video games. I bought Mass Effect 2 and Bioshock 2 which got me sucked back into that semi virtual reality stuff. That's mostly it. Nothing exciting. I do think I am going to go buy a new bong tonight. This is the highlight of the week. Pictures to ensue if my adventure is successful.

It's good to hear from everybody. I will try not to be such a douchebag in the future.

I need a vacation...........from myself. Oh well.

There is a reason for me typing this.....but now I'm drunk and I don't know what it is. But I feel committed to it now so I'm not gonna delete delete delete..........

I have a confession to make.....forgive me father for I have sinned. I bought an Iphone today. I've wanted one for over two years. I know....I know....I am a shallow whore. I am one of "those" douchebags. But I will not apologize. I am already in love with it. It's like crack. I see now why people buy macs. And does anyone else think that the Apple store is like the greatest place on earth? All clean and white and sterile. Like some peoples "heaven" would be called. And all of the employees devoting every second to pleasing you. Gives a person just that ever so slight warm and fuzzy feeling.

And for those of you who know that I'm married(since I don't really announce it much) I may be getting a divorce soon. It's not really much of a surprise since these events have been in play for quite a while. I have come to terms with it happening, just haven't been sure of the "when". I know that I will have to be the one to say it's over. But I am not good with this. I have been backed into a corner. I hate being the bearer of bad news. Anyone have any advice? Anything will be appreciated.

And to end things.....something funny....because I'm also high





Since I'm listening to this....I have to admit. I am in love with this woman. I too miss The Distillers, but I'm completely sold on this new project. I can't get enough.............

This guy is funny. I needed to laugh tonight and watching this always does it. And if you don't think it's funny, then maybe your the one with the problem...

The eye of a hurricane is the best place to be. Surrounded....yet untouched by all the chaos. The kind of calm that Buddhist monks dedicate lifetimes for. Some of us are searching for that kind of calm. The search goes on. We get irritated or jealous when others seem to find that place. It comes so easy to them. Everything comes easy to them. But theirs is a lie. It's not genuine. But the rest of us struggle....the struggle goes on. Looked down upon for our methods or techniques. United by a common defiance. We will not be snuffed out.

Is it better to live a lie....or to die clinging to the truth?

I'm not for sure. It's late....I'm high....slightly buzzed....pushed through the first assault of exhaustion. Sleep seems useless. At least the night is quiet. Maybe this is the kind of calm that those kind of people search for.....

Who needs a drink? Cause I fucking do. Fuck this day.

And because I'm weird I put this up today. Alcohol and/or weed makes me dance sometimes. And it's a pretty scary fucking site.

Cheers!



I did get some new books at the store today though. That salvages it in and of itself. What are you reading? Tell me tell me.

I saw Crazy Heart today. It was good. Struck a nerve though. I understand those kinds of people. Self destructive behaviors are all I seem to know lately. I would write more but my hand is shaking....

The moon is pretty tonight. Like a perfect half. Have you seen the moon tonight? If not, you should.

As I go outside at night and smoke....watching orion move across the sky...I ponder the direction that life has taken. Westerly, among other ways.

And these videos go in here because Jeff Bridges is actually a good fucking singer. If he were to record an album, I would buy it. The second one is a duet with Colin Farrel of all people. But that irishman sure can sing some country. The third video is of a guy that contributed to the soundtrack that I've never heard of before. But I like his style. Enjoy!

Funny stuff. I could watch this all day.

I just had a new thought. Well, not a new thought, but a thought I'm thinking about at this moment. Does anyone else ever forget that there is actual naked girls on this site?

I mean, how much time do you spend looking at nakey girl pics?

Me? I'd say about 5%.

And that doesn't have anything to do with sexuality.