Remember how I said I *might* come back...?
Well, I did. I'm weak and could not resist a bit of a nosing around to see how things have changed. And they have...changed. Like a lot.
It's actually a lot of fun looking through my old journal entries and seeing how much I've changed since I first joined. I was barely 18 then, and have changed considerably.
Anyway, I'm excited to catch up with you guys. Hope you're all well!
Well, I did. I'm weak and could not resist a bit of a nosing around to see how things have changed. And they have...changed. Like a lot.
It's actually a lot of fun looking through my old journal entries and seeing how much I've changed since I first joined. I was barely 18 then, and have changed considerably.
Anyway, I'm excited to catch up with you guys. Hope you're all well!
* This will be my last journal. I will be gray shortly. *
I joined this site a little over a year ago and it has been an awesome experience. I've met so many cool and interesting people and I love all of you on my friends list. Well most of you, at least.
To those that have been constant contributors to my journal entries/rants, I thank you. Especially to those that were some of my first friends on this site: KaraLynn, foolycooly, Argentum, Adthrawn, JohnnyT, Seantastic (who made my lips the Oral Sex Group icon picture. That is pretty neat.), Sassafrassal,insomniphobiac, illstabyou. You guys really gave me a sense of community that I never thought was possible on a site with so many boobies.
Other friends I aquired later that stand out in my mind:germ13, Corroded_Heart, xhavokx, stuzzy, sueme, tae, TheDishwasher, Oceanpulse, Fortysix_And_Two, Allied. You guys are all so rad, and I mean that.
And even those who have gone anon or gray, themselves: nikolai, aker, Fatale.
Of course I can't forget the lovely SGs/Limbo girls on my friends list: Asrai, Vuokko, Venla, Foxy, Karina. May this community continue to admire and respect you, like I do, for a long time to come.
If you don't see your name it's probably because you requested my friendship and never bothered to even say 'hi'.
If I just recently accepted your friendship request, I'm sorry we never got a chance to correspond.
As for my reason for leaving this site, well...let's just say it's "personal". I just don't have the money or the energy to support what I've become disenchanted with. Maybe someday I might make a brief comeback, but I doubt it.
Make no mistake, I loved this site for a very long time, and had a lot of fun. Probably too much. I will miss all of you tremendously.
If you feel compelled to keep in touch with me you can do so by e-mailing me at xmotograter13x@yahoo.com or through myspace. I respond to every email or comment I get, I promise.
(Okay kids, now for the hard part...)
For the last time, this is CaptSparrow...
Over and out.
I joined this site a little over a year ago and it has been an awesome experience. I've met so many cool and interesting people and I love all of you on my friends list. Well most of you, at least.
To those that have been constant contributors to my journal entries/rants, I thank you. Especially to those that were some of my first friends on this site: KaraLynn, foolycooly, Argentum, Adthrawn, JohnnyT, Seantastic (who made my lips the Oral Sex Group icon picture. That is pretty neat.), Sassafrassal,insomniphobiac, illstabyou. You guys really gave me a sense of community that I never thought was possible on a site with so many boobies.
Other friends I aquired later that stand out in my mind:germ13, Corroded_Heart, xhavokx, stuzzy, sueme, tae, TheDishwasher, Oceanpulse, Fortysix_And_Two, Allied. You guys are all so rad, and I mean that.
And even those who have gone anon or gray, themselves: nikolai, aker, Fatale.
Of course I can't forget the lovely SGs/Limbo girls on my friends list: Asrai, Vuokko, Venla, Foxy, Karina. May this community continue to admire and respect you, like I do, for a long time to come.
If you don't see your name it's probably because you requested my friendship and never bothered to even say 'hi'.
If I just recently accepted your friendship request, I'm sorry we never got a chance to correspond.
As for my reason for leaving this site, well...let's just say it's "personal". I just don't have the money or the energy to support what I've become disenchanted with. Maybe someday I might make a brief comeback, but I doubt it.
Make no mistake, I loved this site for a very long time, and had a lot of fun. Probably too much. I will miss all of you tremendously.
If you feel compelled to keep in touch with me you can do so by e-mailing me at xmotograter13x@yahoo.com or through myspace. I respond to every email or comment I get, I promise.
(Okay kids, now for the hard part...)
For the last time, this is CaptSparrow...
Over and out.
Hi kids! Sorry for the loooooooooong ass leave of absence. Ive been really busy with my new job and dealing with my dumb-fuck car. My life can easily be described as chaotic right now.
I was saving up my money for a new tattoo, but guess where thats going? If you guessed dumb-fuck car youd be correct. Oh well, shit happens right?
Maybe its payback for the way Ive been using men lately. (Not so much using because that would make me bitter and cruel but I really cant think of a better term, here).
I shall give to you examples:
1. The Dippin Dots boy- Ive only known him a few days, and hes cute, but not my cup of tea. He is however my cup of Dippin Dots. Free Dippin Dots. He gives me free ice cream all the time. Im just naturally charming thats all. Its not like Im blowing him behind his booth. Hey, if someone offers you a cup of free ice cream youd take it, right? Even if you knew they had ulterior motives?
2. If I told you Id have to kill you. Not really, I just dont want a certain person (who I know is reading this) to...read this.
3. The boy who works the movie theatre/boy from school- who I constantly flirt with, knowing hell use his discount to let me in. Dont think I dont realize he uses this on practically every girl he encounters. Im just giving him what he wants. I think. Does that sound vixen-ish enough?
As for interesting happenings in my life, there are a few:
+ Harry Potter book release party- That was crazy fun. I may or may not have dressed up. Ill let you decide. We (my nine year old brother and I) got there at around 6pm and stayed until 1am. By the end there were little kids asleep against the walls in their costumes, while their parents waited in line for the book. It was truly a blast.
+ I went to Sounds of the Underground where I nearly died in a mosh pit. Well maybe thats an exaggeration, but the point is the pits at that event were sick! Just how I like them. It was funny, when the pits started getting really rough all the pretend scene kids scattered to safety. GWAR was there, so I immediately made my way to the front. Anyone whos ever heard the name GWAR will know why. Fake blood galore. Holy-fuckin'-shit, I got so soaked in fake blood that I almost drowned. The base player kept intentionally squirting it right in my face, but that was my fault as I was encouraging him to do so. It was very rowdy and carnal. This one hipster kid wearing a corduroy blazer had no clue. Needless to say his tan blazer quickly turned orange. I went outside when Strapping Young Lad came on because well they are ten kinds of lame. It was then I walked by a booth not paying any attention. I heard a guy say That skirt is hot. I like that. I turned around and the words were coming from none other than Randy Blythe from Lamb of God. I shit you not. All I could say was thanks. Then when they came on stage I made my way up front and at one point he grabbed my hand and held on for what seemed like a blissful eternity. Turns out Im a groupie who knew? (Not really). They were the last show, and they were totally amazing. They got the crowd going nuts. I got hurt so bad in the pit Randy called for. It took up the whole arena. It was glorious. Lots of other outstanding bands were there like Chimaira, Norma Jean, Throwdown, Poison the Well, From Autumn to Ashes, High on Fire, Opeth, and loads more. Very memorable evening, indeed. Although thanks to GWAR my white bra is now pink.
Randy, my love.
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Random shit:
+ I just found out yesterday that I get to go to Ozzfest for free! Yay for friends who work at the radio station.
+ Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was really neato. You should all go see it.
+ My current favorite movie is Shaun of the Dead. Simon Pegg is such a doll, and so very, very talented.
+ Chick-Fil-A threw in a complementary fruit bowl with my deep fried chicken and waffle fries combo. I was almost insulted. As if I eat fruit or anything else good for me. Hey Chick-Fil-A, deep fry my grapes and well talk about a fruit bowl.
+ Our kittens are getting so big! We named them Carolina, Salem and Jack. I should have pics of them up soon.
+ Speaking of pictures, I found my camera from back in November. Here are the results of its development:
Me and my puppykins sharing McDonald's french fries. (More in the Arturo folder).
My mom, cousin Mikey, crazy uncle Eddie, cousin Valerie, cousin Zeb, my little brother Jesse (in a Slayer shirt) and my Grandmaw whom I call 'Marmie'.
(more in my Friends and Family album).
Me. Drunk. Without make-up.
That's all for now, y'all. Hope you're all well and happy and prosperous.
I was saving up my money for a new tattoo, but guess where thats going? If you guessed dumb-fuck car youd be correct. Oh well, shit happens right?
Maybe its payback for the way Ive been using men lately. (Not so much using because that would make me bitter and cruel but I really cant think of a better term, here).
I shall give to you examples:
1. The Dippin Dots boy- Ive only known him a few days, and hes cute, but not my cup of tea. He is however my cup of Dippin Dots. Free Dippin Dots. He gives me free ice cream all the time. Im just naturally charming thats all. Its not like Im blowing him behind his booth. Hey, if someone offers you a cup of free ice cream youd take it, right? Even if you knew they had ulterior motives?
2. If I told you Id have to kill you. Not really, I just dont want a certain person (who I know is reading this) to...read this.
3. The boy who works the movie theatre/boy from school- who I constantly flirt with, knowing hell use his discount to let me in. Dont think I dont realize he uses this on practically every girl he encounters. Im just giving him what he wants. I think. Does that sound vixen-ish enough?
As for interesting happenings in my life, there are a few:
+ Harry Potter book release party- That was crazy fun. I may or may not have dressed up. Ill let you decide. We (my nine year old brother and I) got there at around 6pm and stayed until 1am. By the end there were little kids asleep against the walls in their costumes, while their parents waited in line for the book. It was truly a blast.
+ I went to Sounds of the Underground where I nearly died in a mosh pit. Well maybe thats an exaggeration, but the point is the pits at that event were sick! Just how I like them. It was funny, when the pits started getting really rough all the pretend scene kids scattered to safety. GWAR was there, so I immediately made my way to the front. Anyone whos ever heard the name GWAR will know why. Fake blood galore. Holy-fuckin'-shit, I got so soaked in fake blood that I almost drowned. The base player kept intentionally squirting it right in my face, but that was my fault as I was encouraging him to do so. It was very rowdy and carnal. This one hipster kid wearing a corduroy blazer had no clue. Needless to say his tan blazer quickly turned orange. I went outside when Strapping Young Lad came on because well they are ten kinds of lame. It was then I walked by a booth not paying any attention. I heard a guy say That skirt is hot. I like that. I turned around and the words were coming from none other than Randy Blythe from Lamb of God. I shit you not. All I could say was thanks. Then when they came on stage I made my way up front and at one point he grabbed my hand and held on for what seemed like a blissful eternity. Turns out Im a groupie who knew? (Not really). They were the last show, and they were totally amazing. They got the crowd going nuts. I got hurt so bad in the pit Randy called for. It took up the whole arena. It was glorious. Lots of other outstanding bands were there like Chimaira, Norma Jean, Throwdown, Poison the Well, From Autumn to Ashes, High on Fire, Opeth, and loads more. Very memorable evening, indeed. Although thanks to GWAR my white bra is now pink.
Randy, my love.
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Random shit:
+ I just found out yesterday that I get to go to Ozzfest for free! Yay for friends who work at the radio station.
+ Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was really neato. You should all go see it.
+ My current favorite movie is Shaun of the Dead. Simon Pegg is such a doll, and so very, very talented.
+ Chick-Fil-A threw in a complementary fruit bowl with my deep fried chicken and waffle fries combo. I was almost insulted. As if I eat fruit or anything else good for me. Hey Chick-Fil-A, deep fry my grapes and well talk about a fruit bowl.
+ Our kittens are getting so big! We named them Carolina, Salem and Jack. I should have pics of them up soon.
+ Speaking of pictures, I found my camera from back in November. Here are the results of its development:
Me and my puppykins sharing McDonald's french fries. (More in the Arturo folder).
My mom, cousin Mikey, crazy uncle Eddie, cousin Valerie, cousin Zeb, my little brother Jesse (in a Slayer shirt) and my Grandmaw whom I call 'Marmie'.
(more in my Friends and Family album).
Me. Drunk. Without make-up.
That's all for now, y'all. Hope you're all well and happy and prosperous.
We now return you to your regularly scheduled journal update, already in progress
Alright. I've had a weird couple of days.
Weird event #1- I found out my ex is going to my college for the summer. Guess who else is attending summer school there...me. This wouldn't be so weird if I actually wanted to strike up a relationship with the boy who broke my heart then ran away, but I don't. At all. Fuck him.
Weird event #2- I surprised myself and said 'yes' to his invitation for lunch, after one of my lovely friends pointed him in my direction. (I would have run, but the books I was carrying were too heavy.) I seriously did not want to go, but for some reason I did. He was pleasant. The guy is funny, and I could see us being friends just as we were before we ever started a relationship, but I sensed that he wants more. Tough for him, I say. Fuck him. He shattered my heart after taking my virginity, and not even to my face. He dumped me via AOL Instant Messenger. I mean what the hell is that? Even though he paid for my lunch yesterday, fuck him. I almost made-up an imaginary, taller-and-thinner-than-him, martial arts master of a boyfriend to make him jealous. Ok, I did. Yeah, that made him squirm, kinda.
Weird event #3- On my way to school yesterday a little old man was standing in the middle of the road, with his pants down around his knees. My god-sister and I stopped to ask if he needed assistance of some kind, and he said no. We then pulled up to the nearest driveway and asked if they were missing a grand paw. They said it was their neighbor and he did that all the time, and that his daughter who lives with him was at work. Odd. If that were my daddy, Id at least buy him a belt and a reflector.
Thats all for the Weird World of April at least for now.
Now for random rants and ramblings:
~ My cat had kittens! Three. One boy, two girls. No names yet. My mom wont let me name them; she says Ive named enough of our animals. Her loss, cause Im damn creative/original with the naming process thing.
~ I watched two episodes of M*A*S*H last night, at the same time. It was on two channels. Twas sweetness. I love that show. (Which is why I have a dog named Hawkeye Pierce.)
~ I want to make passionate, politically satirical, geek love to Jon Stewart. Many times.
~ Im seriously considering the University of Auckland in NZ for school next spring.
~ I cut my hair again. Looks too Betty Boopish.
~ Depressed? Lie on your floor flat on your back and listen to some George Jones. He Stopped Loving Her Today for real, yall. Doesnt exactly *cure* depression, but its an outlet.
~ If you dont admire Richard Pryor, slam your face into the nearest hard surface.
Well, Im going to go make a sammich. I loves me some sammich. Until next time
Alright. I've had a weird couple of days.
Weird event #1- I found out my ex is going to my college for the summer. Guess who else is attending summer school there...me. This wouldn't be so weird if I actually wanted to strike up a relationship with the boy who broke my heart then ran away, but I don't. At all. Fuck him.
Weird event #2- I surprised myself and said 'yes' to his invitation for lunch, after one of my lovely friends pointed him in my direction. (I would have run, but the books I was carrying were too heavy.) I seriously did not want to go, but for some reason I did. He was pleasant. The guy is funny, and I could see us being friends just as we were before we ever started a relationship, but I sensed that he wants more. Tough for him, I say. Fuck him. He shattered my heart after taking my virginity, and not even to my face. He dumped me via AOL Instant Messenger. I mean what the hell is that? Even though he paid for my lunch yesterday, fuck him. I almost made-up an imaginary, taller-and-thinner-than-him, martial arts master of a boyfriend to make him jealous. Ok, I did. Yeah, that made him squirm, kinda.
Weird event #3- On my way to school yesterday a little old man was standing in the middle of the road, with his pants down around his knees. My god-sister and I stopped to ask if he needed assistance of some kind, and he said no. We then pulled up to the nearest driveway and asked if they were missing a grand paw. They said it was their neighbor and he did that all the time, and that his daughter who lives with him was at work. Odd. If that were my daddy, Id at least buy him a belt and a reflector.
Thats all for the Weird World of April at least for now.
Now for random rants and ramblings:
~ My cat had kittens! Three. One boy, two girls. No names yet. My mom wont let me name them; she says Ive named enough of our animals. Her loss, cause Im damn creative/original with the naming process thing.
~ I watched two episodes of M*A*S*H last night, at the same time. It was on two channels. Twas sweetness. I love that show. (Which is why I have a dog named Hawkeye Pierce.)
~ I want to make passionate, politically satirical, geek love to Jon Stewart. Many times.
~ Im seriously considering the University of Auckland in NZ for school next spring.
~ I cut my hair again. Looks too Betty Boopish.
~ Depressed? Lie on your floor flat on your back and listen to some George Jones. He Stopped Loving Her Today for real, yall. Doesnt exactly *cure* depression, but its an outlet.
~ If you dont admire Richard Pryor, slam your face into the nearest hard surface.
Well, Im going to go make a sammich. I loves me some sammich. Until next time
. Make that Just one more exam left, thank the gods. English. Haven't studied yet. Should probably start studying soon, but Milla is so gorgeous, and I can't look away. *drools profusely*
Anyway, Im updating my journal...incase you havent noticed.
-Im still poor. However, Ive started a new business here at mi escuela. Its good pay. Im pretty sure its not a good idea, but Im doing it anyway; Im writing papers for people who seek a guaranteed A. Ive done about five so far, and I have two in the works. I charge $10 a page. Word is getting around, and so far everyone has gotten As on their (my) papers. I cant decide if Im proud of this, or if Im just exploiting my amazing smartness oh well, until I decide I have a somewhat steady income. Im debating whether or not Im going to tell my therapist, as Im not sure if this is stable behavior you know, risking getting expelled from school so I have pocket change. This is not a moral issue for me. Trust me; my morals arent exactly the standard. My theory- its not cheating until you get caught.
-Milla is so pretty.
-Did I ever tell you guys that I had a blast at the Green Day show on April 20th? I dont think I did. It was amazing, mainly because Billie Joe has enchanted me since I was around eight years old, and I finally got to see him live. Fantastic show. Screw the haters.
-Went to a Black Label Society show not too long ago. By far the most beer-soaked Ive been in quite some time. Worst mosh pit injury Ive sustained as of yet; some idiot pushed me like six feet to my right and then a bunch of people started stomping all over my poor leg. It fucking hurt. For like two weeks. And I loved it. I love moshing.
-My family also threw a surprise party for me, or tried to. Since Im smart like a fox, I figured it out almost a week before. I really hate surprise parties. Ever since I was a small child its been a phobia of mine. Anyway, I finally got my mom to cave in, and after lots of tears because she really wanted to surprise me, she told me when and where. I felt bad that I made my mommy cry, sort of. So then I asked if there would be cake. She said yeah. I asked what kind. Chocolate with white frosting. Um no, I say. Its double chocolate or nothing. More mommy tears. Oh and ice cream, too, I said. At this point Im really feeling like a jerk, but like I said, I hate surprise parties. And if there was going to be a surprise party for me, I would have to plan it. I think I might be a control freak. My momma thinks that too because she called me a bitter fucking control freak.
It went off without a hitch. My mom is the only one who knew I planned the whole damn thing. I had this urge to crush their smiles by saying, I knew it already, and I planned the whole damn thing! I didnt though. I think I might be kinda mean?
Other than the fact that I hate surprise parties and people planning things behind my back, I had a good time.
Well, I must be off. My study group will be here in about an hour and I have papers to write.
Anyway, Im updating my journal...incase you havent noticed.
-Im still poor. However, Ive started a new business here at mi escuela. Its good pay. Im pretty sure its not a good idea, but Im doing it anyway; Im writing papers for people who seek a guaranteed A. Ive done about five so far, and I have two in the works. I charge $10 a page. Word is getting around, and so far everyone has gotten As on their (my) papers. I cant decide if Im proud of this, or if Im just exploiting my amazing smartness oh well, until I decide I have a somewhat steady income. Im debating whether or not Im going to tell my therapist, as Im not sure if this is stable behavior you know, risking getting expelled from school so I have pocket change. This is not a moral issue for me. Trust me; my morals arent exactly the standard. My theory- its not cheating until you get caught.
-Milla is so pretty.
-Did I ever tell you guys that I had a blast at the Green Day show on April 20th? I dont think I did. It was amazing, mainly because Billie Joe has enchanted me since I was around eight years old, and I finally got to see him live. Fantastic show. Screw the haters.
-Went to a Black Label Society show not too long ago. By far the most beer-soaked Ive been in quite some time. Worst mosh pit injury Ive sustained as of yet; some idiot pushed me like six feet to my right and then a bunch of people started stomping all over my poor leg. It fucking hurt. For like two weeks. And I loved it. I love moshing.
-My family also threw a surprise party for me, or tried to. Since Im smart like a fox, I figured it out almost a week before. I really hate surprise parties. Ever since I was a small child its been a phobia of mine. Anyway, I finally got my mom to cave in, and after lots of tears because she really wanted to surprise me, she told me when and where. I felt bad that I made my mommy cry, sort of. So then I asked if there would be cake. She said yeah. I asked what kind. Chocolate with white frosting. Um no, I say. Its double chocolate or nothing. More mommy tears. Oh and ice cream, too, I said. At this point Im really feeling like a jerk, but like I said, I hate surprise parties. And if there was going to be a surprise party for me, I would have to plan it. I think I might be a control freak. My momma thinks that too because she called me a bitter fucking control freak.
It went off without a hitch. My mom is the only one who knew I planned the whole damn thing. I had this urge to crush their smiles by saying, I knew it already, and I planned the whole damn thing! I didnt though. I think I might be kinda mean?
Other than the fact that I hate surprise parties and people planning things behind my back, I had a good time.
Well, I must be off. My study group will be here in about an hour and I have papers to write.
It's raining. A lot. I could go swimming in my front yard if I choose to do so, but alas I will not go swimming without a Fun Noodle.
I don't mind it that much. It's the winter rain I can't handle.
*Note to self: Buy a fucking umbrella...and a Fun Noodle.*
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Florida was fun. My best friend Morgan and her boyfriend were predictably, pathetically gross with the PDA's but other than that it was nice. Stayed with her grandfolk. They are awesome. Meema, Pops, if you're reading this, big ups. I want to live in St. Augustine in a sea of gorgeous Cuban people.
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Zack is a hot boxer boy, but he has a girlfriend, and I'm not wasting my time anymore.
Now I have three new prospects: John, Jon, and David. They are all three emo geeks with glasses, which to me can sometimes be 10 times sexier than boxer boys. What else do they have in common other than spectacles and biblical names you ask? They have no idea that I've focused my attention on them.
Incase you haven't noticed, I'm a bit of a crush junkie. I know...it's a bad habit that I should have left in middle school.
I can't help it. I'm addicted to the chase. I'm like a...lioness with a penchant for lame, diseased gazelles or something.
* "lame, diseased gazelles" being a metaphor for guys with weird fur fetishes, prison records, and/or girlfriends.
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So anyway I have $-66 and no fucking job, how about you?
You know what's humbling, and what I will always remember for when I'm a rich and famous director? Scrounging around for change so I can eat from the vending machine at school.
Seriously. I light up like a Christmas tree when I find nickels and dimes. I get double excited to find quarters. I found fifty cents yesterday and bought a bag of chips. I didn't have enough change for a drink so I just sat near the water fountain. Strangely enough, I feel lucky. That's more than a lot of people have.
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Checked out "A Clockwork Orange" and "Brother Bear" from my schools library. Got a strange look from my librarian like "What a strange pair of films to be checking out at the same time." I've seen "A Clockwork Orange" a bunch of times, but not "Brother Bear." I love Disney movies. Always have, always will. Relaxes me.
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My hair is starting to grow out...really fast. I'm starting to have a mullet. I'd style it like that, but no one around here would pick up on the irony...because they all have mullets. Even the babies.
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My writing instructor said I'm really smart. So there. That brings me to my interactive portion of my journal. Who is the smartest person in your life? It doesn't have to be "book smart" as they say. It can be smart with car theft or...ant farms, anything really. My answer would be my little brother. He knows more about Yu-Gi-Oh cards than any dork twice his age.
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^those are fun to use^
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^see?^
I'm pondering whether I'm going to watch "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" and eat a turkey sandwich, or if I'm going to watch "Lord of the Rings: Return of the King" and eat a ham sandwich......
UPDATED TO ADD:
It's my birthday/1 year anniversary of joining this site which is cool, right? Right. Thanks for all the happy birthday wishes! I will get back to all of you.
I don't mind it that much. It's the winter rain I can't handle.
*Note to self: Buy a fucking umbrella...and a Fun Noodle.*
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Florida was fun. My best friend Morgan and her boyfriend were predictably, pathetically gross with the PDA's but other than that it was nice. Stayed with her grandfolk. They are awesome. Meema, Pops, if you're reading this, big ups. I want to live in St. Augustine in a sea of gorgeous Cuban people.
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Zack is a hot boxer boy, but he has a girlfriend, and I'm not wasting my time anymore.
Now I have three new prospects: John, Jon, and David. They are all three emo geeks with glasses, which to me can sometimes be 10 times sexier than boxer boys. What else do they have in common other than spectacles and biblical names you ask? They have no idea that I've focused my attention on them.
Incase you haven't noticed, I'm a bit of a crush junkie. I know...it's a bad habit that I should have left in middle school.
I can't help it. I'm addicted to the chase. I'm like a...lioness with a penchant for lame, diseased gazelles or something.
* "lame, diseased gazelles" being a metaphor for guys with weird fur fetishes, prison records, and/or girlfriends.
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So anyway I have $-66 and no fucking job, how about you?
You know what's humbling, and what I will always remember for when I'm a rich and famous director? Scrounging around for change so I can eat from the vending machine at school.
Seriously. I light up like a Christmas tree when I find nickels and dimes. I get double excited to find quarters. I found fifty cents yesterday and bought a bag of chips. I didn't have enough change for a drink so I just sat near the water fountain. Strangely enough, I feel lucky. That's more than a lot of people have.
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Checked out "A Clockwork Orange" and "Brother Bear" from my schools library. Got a strange look from my librarian like "What a strange pair of films to be checking out at the same time." I've seen "A Clockwork Orange" a bunch of times, but not "Brother Bear." I love Disney movies. Always have, always will. Relaxes me.
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My hair is starting to grow out...really fast. I'm starting to have a mullet. I'd style it like that, but no one around here would pick up on the irony...because they all have mullets. Even the babies.
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My writing instructor said I'm really smart. So there. That brings me to my interactive portion of my journal. Who is the smartest person in your life? It doesn't have to be "book smart" as they say. It can be smart with car theft or...ant farms, anything really. My answer would be my little brother. He knows more about Yu-Gi-Oh cards than any dork twice his age.
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^those are fun to use^
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^see?^
I'm pondering whether I'm going to watch "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" and eat a turkey sandwich, or if I'm going to watch "Lord of the Rings: Return of the King" and eat a ham sandwich......
UPDATED TO ADD:
It's my birthday/1 year anniversary of joining this site which is cool, right? Right. Thanks for all the happy birthday wishes! I will get back to all of you.
I guess its time for an update. Im still living with my Godmother (although right now Im at my moms house). I hate it. I really, really hate it. Its miserable, but I cant stay here at my moms because it brings me down, what with the dumb-fuck step dad and stuff.
Schools going great though. The Zack guy I mentioned earlier is still in the picture (i.e. we still talk) but he got back together with his girlfriend. Bummer, right? No well yeah it is kinda, but I met a guy named John who looks like Dominic Monaghan with glasses and wants to be a filmmaker like myself, so its all gravy.
Lets see what else is new .oh yeah! My cat disappeared for a whole week, we thought we werent going to see her ever again and then Monday she showed up clawing at the screen door!
Today at school, the band Thornbird showed up to play a live 2 hour show! A bit random if you ask me, considering my school is so small and in the middle of nowhere, but Ill take it. They rocked!! Really nice, talented guys! I thoroughly enjoyed their visit. Gotta love those random surprises in life.
Tomorrow morning I leave for Jacksonville, Florida along with my best friend Morgan and her boyfriend Michael, so wish me and my remaining sanity luck, as well need it dealing with those two and their barf-worthy public displays of affection.
Like always, I apologize for the lack of my presence on the site.
Love,
April
Schools going great though. The Zack guy I mentioned earlier is still in the picture (i.e. we still talk) but he got back together with his girlfriend. Bummer, right? No well yeah it is kinda, but I met a guy named John who looks like Dominic Monaghan with glasses and wants to be a filmmaker like myself, so its all gravy.
Lets see what else is new .oh yeah! My cat disappeared for a whole week, we thought we werent going to see her ever again and then Monday she showed up clawing at the screen door!
Today at school, the band Thornbird showed up to play a live 2 hour show! A bit random if you ask me, considering my school is so small and in the middle of nowhere, but Ill take it. They rocked!! Really nice, talented guys! I thoroughly enjoyed their visit. Gotta love those random surprises in life.
Tomorrow morning I leave for Jacksonville, Florida along with my best friend Morgan and her boyfriend Michael, so wish me and my remaining sanity luck, as well need it dealing with those two and their barf-worthy public displays of affection.
Like always, I apologize for the lack of my presence on the site.
Love,
April
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