Hi everyone - I'm back to say that I will be cancelling my account. I no longer have the time nor the same interest in keeping up with this journal. I used to be such an internet junkie, but I have weaned myself slowly away from my computer addiction. I work all the time now, and the time I do have (about 3.5 hours during the afternoon), I spend doing other things that need to be done. I still enjoy SG and the lovely photosets, but I feel that it is time to leave. I've been apart of SG for about a year, and I've loved my time here and all of the internet friends I've made.

If you'd like to keep in touch, I'm on myspace: Kit's page. I'm not sure yet if I'll keep up with a journal there or elsewhere. I really don't like myspace much, especially it's awful layout. I find it annoying, so I might update on a different journal site. I haven't decided yet.

Take care everyone!! I'll miss you.


Time to move on...

Going on hiatus... many things going on right now that I need to take care of... sorry I haven't been around that often, but I need to get my life in order...




**Special note: Hey, Brian Fleming, if you're reading this, could you please call my cell or email me at KitEighan@gmail.com... I really want to get a hold of you and your cell phone isn't working... very important...

~*~*~*~ HAPPY ST. PADDY'S DAY!!! ~*~*~*~

I love the drama of the sky here in Kansas.



The moon is like a dollap of cream buttering the clouds at night. I love how the moonlight illuminates the clouds' edges.





The clouds right before a huge thunderstorm are amazing! Big, fluffy, tinted a rosy color ever so slightly. Just beautiful. I've never seen anything like it.

Some sketches/drawings I've done recently...

We have the strangest weather going on here in Kansas... or rather, it's strange to me because I'm used to Cali weather. All day it was around 70 degrees with a ton of wind, and then a crazy thunderstorm hit the town as night fell. The clouds radiated in a soft pink and purplish light (like nothing I've seen on the west coast) and then burst periodically into white plumes of light as lightning tore through the sky. It was so close to our house, I almost thought we'd be toast. It was like the gods were shaking their fists of fury at us all at once, it was a frantic display of flashing light and angry bellowing. I do love me some thunderstorms!! I never saw shit like that in Cali. Such a striking and dramatic sight, I can't wait for more.

In other good news: I'm pretty sure that I got the job that I wanted working as a Case Manager for Four County Mental Health Center. My interviewer has been checking my references, I filled out pre-employment paperwork, and the only thing left is to complete my drug screening test... which I hope isn't a problem. Considering that I smoke weed on a regular basis, I took some Goldenseal and drank tons of water all day today. Goldenseal is a natural root packaged into little capsules that's supposed to "cleanse" my system of any traces of pot, or so my boyfriend claims. He took it once when he had to drug test for his job and it worked for him, so I'm crossing my fingers that it'll work for me too. It would REALLY SUCK if I'm denied the job because I don't pass the drug test. It's so lame that weed is even considered a problem - I personally never let it get in the way of what I need to get done. Let's just hope it works out and I finally land a "grown-up" job complete with a salary and full benefits!! I'm so excited!

I went from this:




... to this:





Nope, I'm still not used to it. The ocean still haunts my dreams. I keep listening for the rumble of the waves, but all I hear is the swish of prairie grasses. The leaveless trees lining the street outside my house look craggly and haggard, like skeletons of ages past and guardians of the future. I can't wait for Spring to arrive so the trees will turn green and lush and the town will awaken from this wintry stupor. I hear that it's beautiful here in springtime and it gets warm and sunny, with occasional rain storms.

I have to leave for work soon... ickkkk, I HATE working at Sonic burger. I hope I hear back from the Case Management job I interviewed for last week. It would actually utilize my Psych degree, and I would get paid a lot more. I'm keeping my fingers crossed! Good news: I FINALLY found my cat!!! Zoe came back last night, meowing and pawing at the door. I'm soooo happy that he's back...

Stolen off my friend Colette's myspace page... I'm bored and I don't feel like writing a "real" journal entry today... so here are my riCOCKulous answers to finish the sentence...


I love ... my boyfriend, my family, my friends... sunny, warm days, ART, poetry, alternative fashion, anything red, the list could go on and on.

I don't understand ... what I was thinking when I decided to move to the MIDWEST

I lose ... besides my mind? Everything else. I'm very scatterbrained.

People say I'm ... "weird," artsy, charming, and spunky

Love is ... madness. But there's always reason in madness... (a slightly re-phrased quote by Nietzsche; the full quote is: There is always some madness in love. But there is always some reason in madness.)

Somewhere, someone is ... fucking their brains out while I'm sitting here doing this pointless survey.

I will always ... be young at heart.

Forever is ... too damn long, and quite frankly, the very idea scares me.

I never want to ... be forgotten or to die alone.

I think the current President is ...


and a



When I wake up in the morning ... I think, "fuck I have to work at damn Sonic Burger again."

My past is incredibly ... dramatic like a soap opera. I have too many stories to tell.

I get annoyed when ... things don't go my way.

Parties are for... FUN!! and for meeting new people and getting together with old ones.

I wish... that I would wake up, realize that my entire life had been a dream, and start over. haha.

My dog(s) ... Jaci is currently living with my folks in California. She's a perky, playful pup.

My cat(s) ... Zoe has RUN AWAY and has been MISSING FOR 5 DAYS NOW!!!!!! I'm sooooo fucking upset.

Kisses are the worst when ... the other person is a bad kisser. I once dated a guy who kissed like a lizard. Like the visual?

Tommorow I'm going to... go to fucking work. ARGGG!!

I really want ... my cat back.... and to one day RULE THE WORLD!! Bwahahaha. Or to at least rule Kansas. Doesn't seem too hard. haha.

I have low tolerance for people who ... lie or cheat their way through life. Or who are just plain mean.

If I had a million dollars ... the first thing I'd do is go on a much-needed vacation around the world (first stop: ITALY!!!). Then I'd give some money to my family, move to San Francisco to attend art school, and perhaps buy a house. Damn, that would be fucking nice.





(((EDITED TO ADD))):

A PHOTO OF THE SEXY SIREN VIVID!!!!!!



Isn't Vivid just too HOTTT for words or what?!?! Damn, do I love your new hair, girl! YOU'RE ON FIRE!!!

((((( POOF!! )))))

...and just like that I'm back.


It's been a while since I last updated. When I moved into my quaint house here in Kansas, I wanted to take a break from the internet for a bit, and start getting settled down in a new place and a new pace of life. These past two weeks living "country-style" have been an interesting experience for a southern California city girl like me...

I can't even begin to describe how small Independence, Kansas is!! It's sooo incredibly different from what I've been used to growing up on the west coast - big cities, busy lifestyle, lots of noise, the inevitable crowds and traffic jams, countless places to go and to see, a faster pace of life in general. Now every morning, I'm surprised to wake up to freezing weather (although this was a mild winter for Kansas - the lowest it got was the 30s), "Little House on the Prairie"-style homes complete with front porches and large yards, a flat landscape dotted with trees, lakes, and farmland, and absolutely no traffic in sight down the main road into town. Yes, indeed, I've landed myself smack in the country - where cows are plentiful, drivers are fucking slower than the cows, "ain't" is synonymous with good grammar, and it's not uncommon to have a huge delivery truck of hay (yes, hay) block your path in the intersection (it happened to me just the other day, haha). I feel like I've gone back in time like 50 years. Maybe I'm just fucking spoiled.

Most of the stores in downtown Independence closed down a while ago, and the empty storefronts and buildings are quiet, yet haunting reminders of a more bustling, thriving time. Businesses have come and gone through here like whispers. When the Super-Walmart moved into the area, it drove most of the locally-run (usually family operated) stores out of business in a hurry. Now only skeletons of the past are left. No Starbucks or Targets or huge commercial plazas or generic shopping malls in sight. Ohh, nooo. That would be too corporate America. The most "exciting" places here are the Big Cheese Pizza, the local bowling alley, Turbo's and couple of other bars known for toothless hick wonders, the Sonic burger drive-in, and the gigantic Walmart of death (oh wait, there is corporate America here in Nowheresville, USA - you just can't escape it, now can you?). Yep, that's about as exciting as it gets, folks. I'd have to drive about an hour to Tulsa or an hour and a half to Wichita if I wanted to visit a big city.

Wow, so many choices of fun... *note the sarcasm.* I feel so spoiled. I'm such a spoiled little city girl. I'm so used to modern conveniences. There's absolutely nothing to do here. How do people live here for as long as they do?? I can handle it, after all, it's nice to have some peace and quiet for a change, but I could never see myself staying here permenantly. Towns like this are too stagnant for my taste - I like being in more stimulating, bustling places, even if they are crowded and noisy. I feel like that's the pulse of progress and innovation. Towns like Indy don't seem to know the meaning of modernity. Wow, this is definitely a fucking change for me... a slow and simple experience. Maybe it'll do me some good to slow down for a while.


Now for the obligatory assault of pictures from Kansas!!

I'm getting nervous about moving. I'm leaving Saturday instead of Friday now. I still have so much to do... I've never driven across several states before!! I'll be passing through Arizona, then New Mexico, then Texas, next Oklahoma, and finally arrive in Kansas. I just got my car tuned up, but I'm hoping it doesn't break down in the middle of the desert somewhere. Tomorrow I'm holding a moving sale to get rid of my furniture and other knick knacks I can't take with me.

Christopher has everything ready for us out there - he already found a job and a lovely 2-bedroom house near a lake and skating park, whcih he's very excited about. Now I just have to join him.

I had a dream last night about the ocean. I love it so much, it even haunts me in my sleep! It permeates my being. I could hear the loud roar of the surf against the shore while sitting in my courtyard last night - it was amazing. I know in Kansas I'll hear nothing but quiet, maybe a few crickets here and there. Ohhhh, how I'll miss that sound.

This is my last entry before I move. I probably won't be getting the internet set up until sometime next week, so don't think I've disappeared off the planet! Although I guess I'm disappearing to the middle of nowhere. haha. Take care everyone, until the next time I can write.

Thank you everyone for your wonderful birthday wishes!! My 23rd birthday was lovely and spent with friends, fun, and mischief as usual....

And now, for the shocking news:

I'm moving to Independence, Kansas THIS FRIDAY!! Repeat, this Friday!!

Yes, I’m aware that it’s smack in the middle of nowhere, except of course, for those random wheat fields, cows, and dusty roads. Yes, I’m aware that there’s a whole lot of nothing out there, after all, it is the MIDWEST. Yes, I’m aware that I was born and raised in sunny southern California and have lived here my entire life, being lucky enough to have always been about 15 minutes away from the ocean. I’ve never lived anywhere else, let alone in a snowy state known for twisters and thunderstorms. I’m definitely a Cali girl at heart!!

I know I’m crazy and may very well be missing a few marbles, but I’m crazy in love and you know what love can do to a girl of 23. Go ahead and laugh. I know I’m nuts. I’m moving to the boondocks with my bf, Christopher, because he has a brother and family out there and we want to be able to afford land and a house of our own. Insert the American Dream here, complete with a front porch and a big yard, a little fire-burning stove, perhaps a little dog, and long overdue plans to travel the world. Kansas is certainly not the place I’ve always dreamed of living, but it’ll be a new beginning and definitely a new adventure. Who isn’t a sucker for novelty?

I’ll miss everything about San Diego – the salty sea air, the palm trees lining Newport Avenue, hearing the rumble and tumble of the surf at night, watching gorgeous sunsets over the cliffs, enjoying summer weather in the middle of winter, having the beach within walking distance, lobster fishing at the OB pier way into the night, playing poker with the neighbors and always losing, smoking weed in the courtyard without worries of getting caught, walking along the streets of OB in the dead of night without a care in the world… I haven’t even left yet and I’m already missing it all.

I may be crazy for leaving, but I’m tired of paying an arm and a leg for a 2-bedroom apartment when I could afford to rent an entire HOUSE for half of what I pay now out in Kansas. I simply can’t afford to live here anymore. It’s no longer worth it to me, struggling to survive every month, living off of ramen and the loose change I find in the couch. I’ve gone to extremes to afford the $630 I pay for rent, and well, I’m just plain tired. I’m ready to move. To start over. To explore a new town. To throw it all to the wind and to take a chance on a new life. Yes, kiddos, this one is over and out!! Wish me luck!!