Member: CandyCox

CandyCox is a 29 year-old in Independence, KS.

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APRIL 27, 2005 @ 03:56 PM


This just in: one of my guy friends (who shall remain nameless) thinks I'm a FrEaK!! **GASP**

hahahahhahaha. Tell me something I don't know.

Here's part of our online conversation (I found it so amusing, I just had to post it here):

Him: I looked at your suicide girls profile
Him: you're even more fucked up than I thought
Me: hahahhah
Me: yeah
Me: that i am
Me: but i put it all out there
Him: that is true, you don't hide anything
Me: hahah
Me: i'm addicted to that site
Him: I noticed
Me: im addicted to many things
Him: that's not news to me
Me: heh
Me: what do you think of the site?
Him: its a online community of addictive personalities
Him: a little scary
Me: hahahha
Me: look at it however you want
Me: i personally think they're bold, beautiful, and not fucking afraid to be themselves
Me: and that's fucking hot in my book

blush

To all you other *fucked up* people out there like me - just be whoever it is that you are. Don't give 2 shits about what others think of you because it's YOUR damn life, not theirs. You don't have to hold yourself accountable to anyone. If you wanna dye your hair jet black, RAWK OUT in fishnets and high heels, and smoke weed until your face is blue, then FUCKING DO IT!! That's what I do. Cuz that's just me.

I'll be the first to admit that gaining confidence in myself and not being afraid to just be my kRaZy-AsS self has been a struggle - I haven't always loved myself. I grew up with a lot of self-loathing, insecurity, and a fear of standing up for myself. It hasn't always been easy for me. As I've gotten older, I've gained a better sense of myself. I've been developing a tougher skin and a more confident attitude. I've learned to not give a shit about what others think of me. What you see is what you get! RAWRRRR

LOVE IT OR LEAVE IT, BABY! whatever

In the end, learn to be happy with yourself and your life. Cherish who you love and who loves you, and what's really important in your life. Never lose sight of what really matters. JUST FUCKING BE.


"People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lOsT."
- Unknown


Ponder that and make merry.
Comments
StillOrbiting

StillOrbiting

United Kingdom
December 2004

APR 27, 2005 04:26 PM

Pondered and making merry... or at least as merry as one can be with the mumps. skull

Nice to meet u sweetie x kiss

johnsonboy

johnsonboy

Sacramento, CA
May 2004

APR 27, 2005 06:34 PM

Merrily pondering. Being onseself with a venegeance has the added advantage of reducing encumbrances. Also, I rarely have to stand and listen politely to blowhards because, frankly, I just grin and walk away when they start blowing. But people who can say it straight and put it on the line have my attention as long as they want it.

likwid_todd

likwid_todd

San Diego, CA
December 2002

APR 27, 2005 10:51 PM

hello. you've been super busy. just joined this month and you already have a ton of friends. i admire your work ethic. wink

welcome fucked up person. you're among friends.

ARRR!!!

johnsonboy

johnsonboy

Sacramento, CA
May 2004

APR 28, 2005 11:49 AM

technically, I think the Oratrix group calls themselves spoken word. But I've heard so many spoken word acts that say "I'm this, I'm that and I'm going to make you love/hate me," without ever saying anything about The World. Tara and those other gals didn't just tell us who they are, they told a few things about life, true things. Poetry readings in general are stuffy and pretentious. I'm not sure where the line is that divides the two forms. I've done both to some extent.

4M

4M

Regina, SK
November 2003

APR 28, 2005 04:41 PM

Whoa whoa whoa... slow down. You're a freak?? What the hell did I add you to my friend list for?! No freaks allowed! [end sarcasm] I hear ya about growing up and finding your attitude tho. Welcome to my list. kiss

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