Had a mind blowing exp with a threesome last nite. I didnt know you could have an explosive orgasm when you are on x. Only came once but with the force of like 5 orgasms together. I should've taken pictures but I was too high to remember. Next time I promise

Never before have I felt the urge to go to church as I do today. I have been feeling kinda down and need to talk to God and ask for a few lil favors. I have never been so much into church except when I was young cause my parents used to take us. But today more than ever I have the need to go and reach out to God.

God if you read this please make everything go away. Don't allow sickness to cut any life's short. I need to know that everything's going to be fine and that we will be able to live long and healthy lives. I do not wish to die nor do I wish for anybody else to feel this pain that change the way I look at life. Feels as though the clock is ticking. Please make it stop in my head. I don't think I need to know when the end will be. Please forgive me for my sins. Amen.

So this weekend was great, I had sex with three different people. One is a girl I'm dating. She really likes me and loves sex. We do it on a regular basis at my house or in my job. I love fucking her and she loves licking me. She even tosses my salad and I love that shit. The second is my ex girl-friend. She still comes around and from what I see she still wants us to be together but she's psycho. Don't see myself with her in the long run. And finally I went to a all men's bathhouse in Hollywood and needless to say it was awesome. I'm bi so I like it cause everyone was walking around nude. Some good looking men, some old men as well, but just the thought of it makes me get a hard on. I sunbathed in the nude which been wanting to do this for a while. Need to find a nude beach next time and convince my gf to go with me. So while in there I found myself giving head to this guy that was hanging around in the steam room. I just gave him head and jacked myself off. And finally while doing my gf I convinced her to have a threesome with another girl. Now I really need to find a girl who would go for it.

And finally, I decided to move to Hawaii, something to look forward to.

So here I am thinking about what to do with my life. I've been thinking about moving somewhere exotic. I think Hawaii would be pretty cool. I'm a bit tired of living in L.A. I want to see more of the world but I'm stuck here with a business that's not really taking me where I want to be. I need to really make a decision what I'm going to do for the next five or ten years of my life. On the other hand I've been going places meeting people and taking lots of photographs. San Francisco was bad ass, I need to go back by myself and just roam around and take pictures worth printing. I feel as though my photography has been dedicated to please others and not myself. I want to create my own images, my own work and once and for all complete a portfolio I been putting together for a while now.

With the holidays out of the way is time to get back to work. Really want to start my photography business going this year. I'll be going back to school to learn everything I can about studio lighting. Although I would like shoot models in different scenarios indoor and outdoor, I know I have to shoot weddings and events of that type to make ends meet. I need to start working on a tangible portfolio and my website. I really don't want that to take a lot of my time since I know I need to shoot as much as possible and just get as much experience as I can. So wish me luck and If anyone want to send any words of wisdom down my way they would be greatly appreciated. HAPPY NEW 2010.

Lets party.