POSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Check *this* out!!!!!!!

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7820333450116505275&q=shingo

OMFG!!!!

So um... How do I go about getting some readers? SG girls get a billion tons of comments daily. I dont think I'd take anyone's well wishes and/or compliments if I were a girl and did SG. But thats just the kind of person I am, always thinking there is an ulterior motive, a rigght for every reason, a dagger behind every smile. Wether it's a masturbatng middle aged man (woman? *laughs*) saying how lovely I am to a young emo boy/or girl who is complimenting the æstheic beauty of the picture, or how they dig the concept and the emotional drive behind it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not making fun of SG girls or their members in the least. For I am non of the above mentioned, yet I am on this site. But then, I only joined because Posh did the site, and we've been friends for a long time now. Though I've been not the best of friends having fallen of the face of the earth for nearly a year. But what else do you do once you love someone so completly that you're left m u t e. With no words with which to communicate with the outside world using words you hadn't used to tell her you loved her, or loved the way she smiled or squeaked a certain way unique to her. But all of these things are entirely of a personal matter and completely unrelated to the intended purpose of the thought. So I digress into my bittersweet memories of love and lust, though mostly love of the particulars of life... a giggle, a smirk, the little aspects of personality which compose each unique individual and you learn to love with each passing moment. But FUCK I keep going on D:



Regardless of all the things stated above, I don't know how about getting anyone interested in reading this journal without resorting to sending messages to anyone expecting them to think I'm someone interested in acquiring some sort of notice in which to bring in some sort of merit for me keeping this thing alive and active.

I love you, but I hate you. For loving you so deeply that I can't stop though it hurts my heart daily, the though of knowing but now being with you my dear readers (whom might well be no one, yet nothingness is equally embraced in love and hate.)

Good bye.

Posh has a new set:
http://suicidegirls.com/girls/Posh/photos/Warcraft+Dreams/

Every time I see her beautiful... everything? I kick myself in the ass for not having hooked up while I was so close in Toronto. Stupid, stupid, stwepid man....

Posh said on
October 14, 2005 @ 2:41PM

alex, i miss you.

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Posh.... L****(No names on here right? lol) Momma cat... Once your life settles down from all that's going on I have got to come visit somewheres

Anyway beautiful as always geeky+nerdy+beautiful woman = Puddle of Alex mush

This link rocks your FACE

http://www.submarinechannel.com/content/pause/musicvideos/mainMusicVideos.html

All the videos by SPike Jonez, Michael Gondry and many more...

I r in love

I had a dream... it was more like a nightmare really. But you were in it, and although horrible things were going on all around us, I wasn't scared. Some sort of alien attack was going on, half of Puerto Rico was on fire. I was running away not really knowing where. I wound up near you though. And despite all the bad things going on you weren't scared either. For us two it seemed business as usual. Someone else was with us, dunno who it was. He or it was a crazy kind of creature, he kept being attacked by the alien things that seemed to grow out of the ground and you and I would keep saving it.

Then we were at your house and you looked at me and asked me how could you makeup for standing me up. So I asked you to close your eyes for 30 seconds (doesn't that sound just like something I really would do?) but we were on the porch of your house except it wasn't. It was more like the porch of my old house where I used to live. And you were like "ok" but we moved inside. Once indoors you were like "aiight boy" and you closed your eyes and I moved in to kiss you. But then you opened up your eyes quickly and moved away and said "that's it" and I was like WTF!!! I said 30!!! that was 1!!! and the thing that always seemed to be around us agreed with me. So you smirked and went "ok" and closed your eyes and we kissed. To describe how it happened we were on a couch and you turned to me and we both leaned in, it was open-mouth but lips only and it was very tender and passionate. I can't say it felt real, or anything since I never kissed you that much or passionately. But the feeling of it in the nightmare that wound up being a dream was linked to my memory of the best kiss I've ever had.

There were some other aspects of the dream you would have found interesting. Like the part were you got attacked by some alien thing and you had all these super-powers and you were beating the shit out of it in a video game-like manner doing combos and stuff on it.

They say that dreams are real only as long as they last. Couldn't you say the same thing about life? So maybe to me this was real, and really did happen in another infinite singularity of life that I visited while I slept. I feel kind of sad that even now the memroy is fading away from me. Slipping through my mind's fingers like the sands of time.

I don't really know why I said all this or why... I guess I didn't want to lose this, but didn't want to post it in the journal.

Luv u babe

Anyone that will suck my dick is a good person.

So funny cuz it's wrong

I found this to be pretty neat

Dumb question time, how do I add my favorite suicide girls? I only figured out how to add fave pics not girls

Testing, testing... is this thing on?