well me and my boyfriend are offically have a boy 
and his name will be Donovan. im really excited, especially since i dont have to return the stuff i already bought. and we go back on the 9th and hopefully we get better pictures of him i've been doing pretty ok with school, i have like 2-3 weeks left cause i took accelerated classes so i can make sure i finish this semester before im due, my grades are from an A to a C, because i'm horrible at my history class. i also had to take my cat jinx to the vet last week :/ he was peeing everywhere and i found out he had a uti, which is weird cause a few days before my doctor told me i had one too, but hes better now but still gets mad at me for giving him his medicine -.- me and bryan (my boyfriend) are doing better after what happend, i still get upset every now and then but other than that we are doing really well.
and his name will be Donovan. im really excited, especially since i dont have to return the stuff i already bought. and we go back on the 9th and hopefully we get better pictures of him i've been doing pretty ok with school, i have like 2-3 weeks left cause i took accelerated classes so i can make sure i finish this semester before im due, my grades are from an A to a C, because i'm horrible at my history class. i also had to take my cat jinx to the vet last week :/ he was peeing everywhere and i found out he had a uti, which is weird cause a few days before my doctor told me i had one too, but hes better now but still gets mad at me for giving him his medicine -.- me and bryan (my boyfriend) are doing better after what happend, i still get upset every now and then but other than that we are doing really well. Well i made a 90.88 on my sociology quiz today, so i only misssed 3 but i have a mid term this week for my history class and im worried about it cause i've been doing poorly in that class. i have to write 3 papers for the final and a mulitpul choice test and post questions on the disscusion board :/ and i have a paper due for english this week, i NEED to desperately catch up on reading for psychology cause i have a test over the 4 chaperts on the 22ed and i need to start on the paper for that class too. so much shit to do >.< but on the birght side im 27 weeks today and i have a doctors appointment tomorrow for a check up, and friday bryan, me, my dad, his mom and my grandma and maybe his grandma are gonna go to my ultrasound appointment to make sure the baby is still a boy, and he got me a surprise and im gonna get it tomorrow or the next day, so im excited cause no ones every done anything for me on valetines day
but i have a mid term this week for my history class and im worried about it cause i've been doing poorly in that class. i have to write 3 papers for the final and a mulitpul choice test and post questions on the disscusion board :/ and i have a paper due for english this week, i NEED to desperately catch up on reading for psychology cause i have a test over the 4 chaperts on the 22ed and i need to start on the paper for that class too. so much shit to do >.< but on the birght side im 27 weeks today and i have a doctors appointment tomorrow for a check up, and friday bryan, me, my dad, his mom and my grandma and maybe his grandma are gonna go to my ultrasound appointment to make sure the baby is still a boy, and he got me a surprise and im gonna get it tomorrow or the next day, so im excited cause no ones every done anything for me on valetines dayMy aunt is in rehab.. AGAIN. shes such a fuck up, i dont know what happened to her. i feel bad for my cousins, additction is a nasty thing for a family. i dont have much room to be critizing her about drugs cause ive tried many drugs and did them a lot, but i was never addicted and i was just being stupid. but this is the 3rd time shes gone to rehab now, and she only went cause she thinks itll get her out of her legal trouble. i hope she gets arrested, that sounds fucked up, but its what she needs, she needs to spend time in jail, more than a few days, but im not sure whats gonna happen with her bench warrant and what ever legal trouble shes in now, i know she has a possible felony for bringing a weapon in to a police station. so she fucked herself pretty bad. i guess we'll just have to wait and see
i wish i could still trust him, cause right now i dont. and i hate it. and its cause that stupid whore had to pop up out of no where. nothing happened but still, its bullshit. i want to cry :/
tired of this sinking feeling that something more is happening. it feels like my adrenaline wont go down from the other night. i know it was a mistake and nothing really happened, so i hope, but thats betraying me in the worst way possible. i want to believe so badly though. not sure what to do 
so I'm going to have to go to the hopital to go see my grandma 
. she has some new genetic disease that they arent sure what causes it and they dont have a cure for it except for blood transfusions. and shes having these weird allergy attacks and they arent sure what causes it, so it makes it difficult for them to go a head with the blood transfusions, plus her type of arthritus makes it difficult also. shes constantly going in and out of the hospital and shes not getting a straight answer from any of her doctors. what ever she has it causes her blood count to lower, and could causes her kidneys to fail, and the medicine they have her on right now is making her depressed and shes not making sense when she talks, and it scares me cause i want her to be ok and she wants to be around for her great grandchild.
. she has some new genetic disease that they arent sure what causes it and they dont have a cure for it except for blood transfusions. and shes having these weird allergy attacks and they arent sure what causes it, so it makes it difficult for them to go a head with the blood transfusions, plus her type of arthritus makes it difficult also. shes constantly going in and out of the hospital and shes not getting a straight answer from any of her doctors. what ever she has it causes her blood count to lower, and could causes her kidneys to fail, and the medicine they have her on right now is making her depressed and shes not making sense when she talks, and it scares me cause i want her to be ok and she wants to be around for her great grandchild.
