I'LL BE IN SAN FRANCISCO 11TH - 17TH!!
a web design company is flying me out and giving me a project that if they like the end result they'll pay for me to relocate!! cross your fingers for me!
i'm doing a some photoshoots while i'm there both tfcd. i usually only do paid work but if a photographer is talented enough tfcd is an honor because the best photographers usually charge you! plus these won't be for commericial purpose just to build both the photographers and my portfolio.
i'm doing two shoots with david missal. the first one is at the sutro baths, a kind of pseudo mermaid shoot; you know, the fishnet, scuba fins, grimy fish makeup, etc. the second one is a shotgun wedding gone wrong wedding dress and all. thrift store dress, fake blood, empty shells, duct tape all that stuff. maybe at the battery on baker beach.
i'm doing an all day shoot with lighthouse studios. i'm working with photographer tommy on some ideas. there is a tub in the studio so we're going to do a bloody horror/bondage bathroom scene. i've always wanted to do some taking a bath in blood, or washing blood off myself and a bloody knife etc. we're also going to do a scene with liquid latex.
a web design company is flying me out and giving me a project that if they like the end result they'll pay for me to relocate!! cross your fingers for me!
i'm doing a some photoshoots while i'm there both tfcd. i usually only do paid work but if a photographer is talented enough tfcd is an honor because the best photographers usually charge you! plus these won't be for commericial purpose just to build both the photographers and my portfolio.
i'm doing two shoots with david missal. the first one is at the sutro baths, a kind of pseudo mermaid shoot; you know, the fishnet, scuba fins, grimy fish makeup, etc. the second one is a shotgun wedding gone wrong wedding dress and all. thrift store dress, fake blood, empty shells, duct tape all that stuff. maybe at the battery on baker beach.
i'm doing an all day shoot with lighthouse studios. i'm working with photographer tommy on some ideas. there is a tub in the studio so we're going to do a bloody horror/bondage bathroom scene. i've always wanted to do some taking a bath in blood, or washing blood off myself and a bloody knife etc. we're also going to do a scene with liquid latex.
the comforting thing is he really wants to die. he's been sick his whole life having a kidney transplant at the age of 23 and another at 33. robert also has been fighting cancer for thirty years. the sad thing is he's had such a horrible life. my deepest wish for him since he's had to live his whole life in pain is for him to have a peaceful death. but the doctor says it will be a painful one. so regardless of your religion please send your prayers or good mojo for him to die peacefully in his sleep.
when my grandfather was 5 his mother was already dead and his dad said he was going to get a box of detergent and never came back. robert had to eat out of trash cans behind pubs and stores. his spent most his childhood cold and hungry until a family in the neighborhood the bagers took him in around the age of 8 and their son gary and him became like brothers. well, gary died last week and his funeral was a few days ago and it pained my grandfather greatly that he couldn't go to the funeral. my grandfather started working and supporting himself since he was 13 and has had so many health problems i just hope he finds in death what he didn't in life peace.
when my grandfather was 5 his mother was already dead and his dad said he was going to get a box of detergent and never came back. robert had to eat out of trash cans behind pubs and stores. his spent most his childhood cold and hungry until a family in the neighborhood the bagers took him in around the age of 8 and their son gary and him became like brothers. well, gary died last week and his funeral was a few days ago and it pained my grandfather greatly that he couldn't go to the funeral. my grandfather started working and supporting himself since he was 13 and has had so many health problems i just hope he finds in death what he didn't in life peace.
i don't have anyone to go to the bauhaus and nine inch nails show with. so if you're planning on going let me know! ticketmaster prices
it's time for a much needed paradigm shift. i don't know when i should make the transition or what exact paradigm to pick. i'm at steph's house right now on her computer; she's alseep and i'm restless as usual! we are going to kasper's 21st birthday party tonight on the northside of indy. hopefully i'll be able to put on a happy face long enough for the public eye. i'm so anti-social... and too paranoid for my own good. i haven't been feeling well physcially lately and it's wearing on my mind. i've been so stuffed up i have only been meditating once a day instead of the usual three times daily; and not for as long as i'd like.
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i need a date for valentine's day. I HAVE NEVER ONCE IN MY LIFE HAD A DATE ON VALENTINE'S DAY!! this is sooo sad and pathetic. i want to break the cycle this year i'm soooo tired of it. i feel like a loser 
