How and why is the weather
How and why are you
How and why do you stop listening
How and why do you cry
You're ever-changed and you and me are entwined in this
How and why didn't you drop the ball
was it all too encompassing?
How and why is it
that you thought this was all there is
You're ever-changed and you and I are entwined in this
How and why did you let yourself believe something you were told
and let that become the best of you
How and why are you still letting these things happen
didn't you know something could have been done?
We're still alive, we're still alive
Will you try? Won't you try?

So, it seems as though I'm slowly being gargled by the high standards of society as I start my new job at the local airport. I'll be getting up at the crack of 3am to get ready for the 1 hour drive to my 6.5 hour long shift which starts at 5am. I'll be driving there, not in my shitbox of a car, but a brand new 2008 Chevy Aveo which is apparently low cost on gas and headaches.
After work, I'll be heading off to my sweet lover that I've been blissful with for the past 8 months.
My only concerns are fictional. My only depression is that I think too often of how lucky and spoiled I feel.
There's no more room for drama in this life that I've set up. Only the simplistic repetition of the things that work.
I think I'll meditate so I don't get bored.
The irony.

I think you'll like these:

The Veils - Vicious Tradition
Acid Bath - New Death Sensation
Anathema - Emotional Winter
Foo Fighters - Razor
Depeche Mode - I Feel You

As much as I hated art school and though college was a complete waste a time, and is also the largest source of my current debt, I has brought me to learn a new method of drawing. You spread charcoal on paper and instead of using graphite pencils to draw in lines, you do it all with an eraser. It's sculpting on paper and it's wonderfully easy for me to do. Make something beautiful and simple in half the time a normal sketch would take me.
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Rabbit Skin Glue is the trick to make that canvas tight like a drum, not too many people know about it but it's what many of the old renaissance painters used. Of course, now with the technology for chemical synthesis, they've found that the glue is the cause for some of the cracks found in the old paintings because of the way it absorbs moisture. But, some artists like to use it regardless because not even the synthesized tightening adhesives do the trick quite as right. Though, this is for people who make their own canvases, if you use it on pre-made canvases that have already been tightened, the frame will warp and the painting will be ruined. So it seems I've found the hard way.
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Most people who'll be likely to read this know that I do and can paint and sketch, but what you probably don't know is that I used to have fun dwindling in computer manipulated artworks. I don't have a whole lot of these pieces just because the phase didn't last too long, but most of that random art on here that isn't in my folder comes from that time.
Here's just one of the pieces.



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Having a lady friend has somehow made what I consider to be good habits gain more occurrence. Within these habits comes indulging in my artistic endeavors and so, I've been putting more effort in just drumming, cooking and drawing. I suppose hard things are made easier when they have a purpose other than yourself. Strange how that works. Of course, there are always those times of doubt where I wonder whether or not I'm better off alone seeing as I work best as a creature of solitude. Then again, I think it's a healthy thing to have doubt in a relationship as well as love.
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I went to Toronto several months ago and watch some of my favorite bands and visit relatives. I saw Explosions in the Sky and met with them later when the show was done. Excellent bunch of guys though I think I freaked them out considering I was behaving like a mad Japanese girl after chasing down celebrities. I'm still a little embarrassed. Anyway, that was definitely the highlight of the festival, if you love these guys on your computer, they're performance was tenfold that of anything that can be reproduced in mass production. Björk was wonderful and kind of fruity in funk. Apparently Torontians aren't huge fans of her, but I sure as hell was. Excellent show and all around everything. The supposed highlight of the entire festival was The Smashing Pumpkins who've been one of the great inspirations in my life, blew ass monkeys. Over processed bullshit. Billy was trying too hard to recreate The Pumpkins by having a blonde and an asian replace D'arcy and James. I say create some new tastes because I'm tired of Chef Boyardee.
While I was in the mass of people trying to see Björk, I started chatting with a strange couple. Apparently the girl is the singer in a band. She gave me one of her cd's and told me to write her. I never did and been regretting not doing so since. But, anyway, her band's name is Tearwave.
Here's a few of the beautiful sounds I heard that night.
Have a listen.

Tear Wave - Lotus Flower
Explosions in the Sky - Memorial
Explosions in the Sky - Welcome, Ghosts
Björk - Hunter
K-OS - The Rain
Blonde Redhead - Doll is Mine
Other Musics:
Porcupine Tree - Heart Attack in a Layby
Autolux - Capital Kind of Strain
King Crimson - Neil and Jack and Me
Stars of the Lid - Humectez la Mouture
Foo Fighters - A320
The Goblin Market - Ditra Flame
Mors Syphilitica - Primrose
Arovane - Goodbye Forever
Echo and the Bunnymen - Nocturnal Me
Gordian Knot - Rivers Dancing

This one is for Solipsis who is the inspiration behind this method of blog
Dead Can Dance - The Carnival is Over
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I posted this piece in the art group forum, but I thought I may as well post it here too. I want to get some opinions on it. I know this picture is posted in my photo album, but this picture is much larger so you can get a better idea of what it looks like in person.


The girl is supposed to be Lexie

Alright, you get one picture...you know, the same one that's been there forever

So I finally finished that painting that I was working on for the past...like...year....and guess what I decided to do with it....I gave it to the girl for x-mas. How peachy. I go through all this effort in trying to finish the damned thing only to give it right away. It's a damned good thing I'm Buddhist and believe in impermanence otherwise I'd probably get pissed off at myself right about now.
Seriously now, the thing is done and I'm hoping I can get some pictures for you guys because I really do like the turn out.
I'm working on something new right now though, you know...something that might not take me as much time to finish but still decent in detail and quality. Course I'm giving that one away too for my cousins wedding social, because she asked.....3 times with many other slight mentions. "No, I have plenty of canvases, but thanks for thinking of me". Yeah okay.

Ever notice how chopsticks are just over sized toothpicks.

Reading Aldous Huxley's Brave New World because that wasn't part of the curriculum in my high school English class, and so, I deemed it as a book that needed to be read regardless of disagreement in writing style or composition. (I have a tendency to not finish books because of this if you didn't know)

Working at Humpty's....you know that restaurant that tries so hard to be right up there with Denny's and Perkins. It's a job, don't mock me. A Job to pay off my past bad spending habits. Ah, it'll be so nice when I can afford food in my fridge.

I got tired of looking at me, so you get to look at a morbid baby statue.
Enjoy

So yes, the loverkins and me talked and looks like this ol chap is going to be unsingle, by definition means not single (meaning having sex on a regular basis). Sure, whatever problems that were there before were misinterpretations on my part...and looks like the weather's fine.

Watch out pretty ladies, this man's not single anymore

Okay, it's been about a month now that I've been somewhat clean off these drugs and I believe I'm comfortable enough to continue on with my normal inebriation however unhealthy that may be. I just find it funny that my friends seemed to have made it out to be a bigger deal than I have when it was just something random and unplanned. I don't even know for certain if it's been a month.
Either way, I'm getting to be tired of all this nonsense of people telling me how I should be living out my life and dictating me over my habits. Even without any drug intake, the subject just keeps being bounced back into my life. Seems everyone's doing some sort of drug to pass the time and those who don't feel they need to dictate to others about theirs. Maybe I need to find better company...or something.

No smoking weed or tobacco
No drinking alcohol or caffeine
I'm going to be drug free for the next couple of months
Now, to see what happens

Well, I quit my old job and now I'm the boss's son, the new supervisor making alot more money than I was before.
Ordinarily, I would never take a new job because of an increase in wage, but in this case, considering all of my debt, this change is necessary. Not to mention I'm leading crews of people now and I have a feeling this is going to somehow help me gather leadership skills. Always a good thing to have.

I sold two of my artworks and gained 50$....sure, some might say that's real cheap for a painting. But, it was my first time selling any of my work and so, I really just wanted to cover the cost of canvas and paint. Either way, I had a great time just sitting there painting while people come by and watch. Comments were amusing sometimes. I think I'm going to sell more of my paintings just for the experience of it.

I'm coming up with some new ideas for future tattoo's and I figure that by the time I'm 30, I should be covered decently well...but tattooing is something I'm most likely going to be doing all my life.

Moved the room around today and did some general cleaning and organizing, almost forgot how much I actually enjoy doing so. It was important that I did so though, I really needed to make as much room as possible to fit this big digital drum set I bought just recently. In this cramped little room I organized, I have every little hobby of mine within arms reach. Let's just say it's a bedroom, computer room, art studio, green house, drum studio, reading area, tea room all combined into one. I guess when I put it that way, it really sounds as though I have no room to breathe. Oh well.

Alright so, my internet decided to stop being a jerk and now I'm finally able to come and refresh this little blog of mine.

Let's see, I'm going into this all work and no play makes Brody a lame boy...or at least a very tired and frustrated boy.
The only thing that really seems to keep me intact is just hanging out with my friends and this smashing pumpkins concert I'm going to in Toronto in early september.
Fun fun.

Bought some new plants, watching as they bloom. Ordered in an electric drum kit, still waiting. Currently listening to Opeth and off to go buy some groceries...and possibly a new bed.

À dios