yeah
i spent the entire day in the hospital for back pain
ive been in pain all week. like serous im not leaving my room for anything pain
my dads harassing me so much
hes changes the locks on the doors and says i better have all my shit outta the house or he throws it away
hes not paying for my medical
im type 1 diabedic insulin dependant
and i dont have a job because im in pain like 247
im banned from going to my boyfriends house
so hes trying to find a new place
hes broke
but has to pay for all my food and everything cuz no one will
my dads a total bitch
i have no mother
or i wish i haddent
havent seen her in several months.
she dissapperas like that
shes addicted to meth
homeless
and very very paranoid skitofrenic
shes a fucking bitch
ive been punched in the face twice in my life
left hook from mom in my left eye
and i took one to my left eye from my dad several years ago
the only thing keeping me alive at this point...besides insulin heh
is mike my borfriend
hes the only one with compassion and who actually loves me
i feel fugly now
stressed out
and too short of the drugs i need for my sanity

sorry about typeing you a novel there
its just
Hate
i hate so much right now
and ive really actually truely feel like ive dont nothing wrong

thats about it
im gonna try to shoot another set tommrow
its supposto be my 420 set
but i have no weed
i may have to get a forward from someone for it tommrow...
maryanns gonna help me shoot
her cameras the shit
so

my camers gone missing befor i got a chance to sell it for a tattoo gun
shit!
that was like the only thing i owned with any worth




i neeeed muscle relaxers
my back is spazming
and im all stressed out

things need to be better

love you people! so very much! i really do!
~Britty




Later that night

i think i may have a solution
live in nanny/maid!
i could live somewhere for in exchange for takeing care of their old
and doing there house things...choirs arrons..

i applied
lets see