i just got a demo in the mail from a band called "eyes like knives" and they aren't what you might expect with a name like that... they remind me of the pixies mixed with echo and the bunnymen and guitar solos you might hear on smashing pumkins louder songs.... i know that isn't the best way to describe them maybe interpol intstead of echo and the bunny men... anyway you should check them out if your into any old alternative stuff cause it's really original and good....
other than that i got my estate check and my unemployment check yesterday so i'm rich...not. i got 1497.50 from my dads estate and 203 for unemployment so i'm going to get some thai food yum... i had to give my mom 1000 for property taxes so really only got 700 but thats ok.
i got two christmas presents early from my sister bonnie cause i picked them out... i got a super tall cd/dvd shelf which induced me to clean and rearrange my room now it looks all cool as hell minus the carpet and drop ceiling and the kitty litter ick... she also got me a dj crate for my records it's so stylin after i decorated with the stickers i've been collecting for the past couple years... yesterday i was so productive at home that i went out and chilled with the ladies... ok so yeah they knitted scarves while i ate french fries and talked shit while inhaling more than my fair share of second hand smoke (cloves ick) eeehh it wasn't all that great but it was nice to not be the hermit for the night...

so the other night my uncle calls me up to talk about my fathers estate and the money i will be recieving from the sale... i would be getting 1500 but he said they were going to take 300 out of mine for storage. the storage was for this van that i was going to buy from my father but it died before i got the money... he said not to worry about the money for it cause it died... so i never paid my dad for the use of the van... i geuss he put it in storage somewhere. at first i said ok to the 300 i didn't care... but 10 minutes later my sister brenda calls and talks to me and she asks if i'm ok with paying that even though dad said that i didn't own him anything... i geuss i hadn't really thought about it thoroughly. but the more i thought about it the more i realised i was being scammed into paying something that should be paid by all the siblings. brenda was going to have to have to pay for something too so she was going to have to pay 500, again my dad said don't worry about it... so why are we suddenly being scutinized? the answer is simple the person who wants the money now... my sister burdette. she wants the money now for christmas even though the taxes haven't been taken out... and she is bringing up things that don't involve her to weasel as much money as she can... instead of paying her share to things my dad wrote off she wants us to pay for the things he wrote off for us... why? because she will get two hundred more dollars... fucked up aye? and she is using other people to speak for her so no one will call her on her shit. tis the season to greedy.

i spent the morning sending emails to bands i neglected for the past few weeks i'm sorta sick of dealing with venues i wish i had my own basement to do shows in... i hate the cold i wish i could afford to go south but being laid off is cutting into my bank account i should call unemployment but i don't feel like dealing with those fucks... i wanna ride my bike to the equator maybe get a sailboat and chill in the caribean. maybe i should join green peace and do something anything to get out of the cold... maybe it wouldn't be so bad if i had someone to stay in bed all day with...

so last night i read chuck palahniuk's book "diary" yes, the whole thing... it was so good... it made me think about art, magic, reincarnation, psychology and being immortal... pain may be our ties to the divine... i have my own ideas on the divine. perhaps i should write a book....

i finally figured out how to use photoshop CS. damn! it seemed to take forever i felt like stabbing myself in the eyes. well now you can look at my outdated pictures in all there glory... perhaps i'll find another girlfriend who is good at photography... then i'll update them. weeee! look it's a flying pig ---> -brian xvx

so last night i had a show it went o.k. it might of done better if i got a chance to flyer prior to going to philly but i was waiting for a forth band to get on the bill.... oops my bad. anyway there was dancing and i rode people piggy back... speaking of pigs clay brought his pet pot bellied pig to the show it was awesome only in wisconsin could i imagine a pig at a punk rock show... it was adorable (for a pig)
some days i wish i broke even on every show but i think that in a small scene it's nice to have tight knit shows were it's ok that you lose money so long as everyone is having a good time too...

so yesterday i got up to go to work and i called in to find out what job site i was supposed to go to and all i got was the ansewering machine so i laid on the couch for two hours waiting for my boss to call back and when he finnally did, it was to say we are done for the season... woo hoo i'm laid off, time for unemployment checks and a paid vacation.
fuck yeah! i wanna go to florida or someplace warm for winter... someone, anyone hook me up....

so howie is hookin me up with a copy of photoshop so soon as i get the hang of that program i should have all my pics up and non-stretched out... then we can start the fun...
last night at the opening of the clinton memorial building clinton said, "am i the only one who see's that george w. bush and kerry are both good men they just have very different view points?" well bill, no, your not the only one to see they're one and the same. i just have to say that it depends on what your definition of good is... apperantly our country is deaf, blind and retarded. that's right folks, we live in a hellen keller nation... if you still believe we have had a "good president" i suggest you read howard zinn's book "a peoples history of the united states 1492- present" democracy is the flawed thought that someone can speak for all of us. it's bullshit, no one can speak for me but myself. if there were one man i would like to see as president it would be russ feingold. he's the only one to vote against the patriot act. i'm glad he is our senator... all in all there is no "good president" the political process has ensured that by the way politicians have to raise millions for their campaign's big business rules our government not us... if we vote a new guy in he is still in the big businesses pocket book... your vote is now rope or guilotine... you may as well take your ak-47 (that you can now purchase because of the assault weapon ban not passing) and do some white house drive by's a few wallstreet drive by's another trade center bomb... whatever it takes to let people out of their free range cage... ok that's my soap box rant for the day.
thank you, now go fuck shit up!!!
-brian xvx

so today is a new day. i got a debit card so i could meet up with my homies on here and hopefully meet some new ones. i detest debit and credit cards so yeah i'm a pinko commie bastard, but really i think debit cards atm cards or whatever is a scam. the overdraft fees, atm fees, fuck'em mine is for online purposes only. them shits ain't getting anything if i can help it that's my rant....

so uhhh yeah soon as i get the hang of this site i will be fixing my pic and perhaps adding some more i may have to pirate (yarrr!) a photoshop program or get techie up in hee-ah... right now i ain't got a peg leg to stand on though... if you wanna help i'm down yo!
so greeting and salutations to all the prospective new homies. no need for a single file line chaos is welcomed here...or some other cliche' line i'll be glad to meet all of you starting .................. NOW!.......... ok i'm a dork but don't fuck with me or i'll decorate your lawn..... ha ha