Tue. June 11
So many things I wanted to say earlier and now I'm sort of drawing a blank.
Ok, I'll talk about my workout from yesterday, but keep it sorta brief. I was able to run at about the same speed and time and all that, but I think I got like 0.015 miles further than last time, so I guess that's something. lol. There was like 2 or 3 times that I sorta felt a little like throwing up. I know people say it's not such a big deal if you do, and whatever and I know I would've had time to get to a garbage bin and I wouldn't even be embarrassed, I just HATE the feeling of wanting to throw up and actually throwing up. I know no one likes it, but to me, it feels like a phobia. Also, the feeling of having no control and just heaving and not knowing when it'll stop and trying to catch my breath between heaves, it just sucks. But ya, I was able to keep my stomach under control, but I was mentally feeling kind of out of it. Like, I was doing stuff I wasn't used to and my sweat kept making my vision blurry for almost the whole work out. I still burned a shit ton of cals though, so I guess I can't complain.
Ok, so one thing I have been thinking about is maybe starting to buy my lunches at work again. I know it's better to bring healthy stuff instead of eating fast food, but sometimes the healthier stuff isn't that cheap. I did the math and I can get a 350 cal burger for $1.09 with my discount. I realize there's a bunch of pros and cons to this, but the value is fairly decent. Compare that to an entire container of yogurt (227cals) for $1.99 on sale (normally $2.97). I do realize that there is stuff I can buy and bring with me that is both cheap and healthy, but I might try this for a week see how it goes. On the other hand, since my restaurant has been open 24 hours for the past week or so, I haven't had any McD's at all since I can't take home the leftovers when we close. I'm not like "addicted" to the food, so this isn't a big deal. It's just another thing to be considered. lol
Anyway, just chilling out right now before I head to the gym in a bit. Tata
Just a pic from this past weekend. No biggie. lol
So many things I wanted to say earlier and now I'm sort of drawing a blank.
Ok, I'll talk about my workout from yesterday, but keep it sorta brief. I was able to run at about the same speed and time and all that, but I think I got like 0.015 miles further than last time, so I guess that's something. lol. There was like 2 or 3 times that I sorta felt a little like throwing up. I know people say it's not such a big deal if you do, and whatever and I know I would've had time to get to a garbage bin and I wouldn't even be embarrassed, I just HATE the feeling of wanting to throw up and actually throwing up. I know no one likes it, but to me, it feels like a phobia. Also, the feeling of having no control and just heaving and not knowing when it'll stop and trying to catch my breath between heaves, it just sucks. But ya, I was able to keep my stomach under control, but I was mentally feeling kind of out of it. Like, I was doing stuff I wasn't used to and my sweat kept making my vision blurry for almost the whole work out. I still burned a shit ton of cals though, so I guess I can't complain.
Ok, so one thing I have been thinking about is maybe starting to buy my lunches at work again. I know it's better to bring healthy stuff instead of eating fast food, but sometimes the healthier stuff isn't that cheap. I did the math and I can get a 350 cal burger for $1.09 with my discount. I realize there's a bunch of pros and cons to this, but the value is fairly decent. Compare that to an entire container of yogurt (227cals) for $1.99 on sale (normally $2.97). I do realize that there is stuff I can buy and bring with me that is both cheap and healthy, but I might try this for a week see how it goes. On the other hand, since my restaurant has been open 24 hours for the past week or so, I haven't had any McD's at all since I can't take home the leftovers when we close. I'm not like "addicted" to the food, so this isn't a big deal. It's just another thing to be considered. lol
Anyway, just chilling out right now before I head to the gym in a bit. Tata
Just a pic from this past weekend. No biggie. lol
Sun. June 9
Another entry where I don't really know how to start it.
I guess I'll start with a Ke$ha report. I don't wanna complain cuz I do really like her, but the whole meet and greet was a bit of a let down. Without going into detail too much, there was something missing from the SWAG bag that we were promised would be delivered to everyone's houses (I'll give it a few days and then try to contact someone), the food at the party was lack luster (chips and condiments and mini pitas with shitty humus), I was probably got to meet her for like 30 seconds, tops and it was chilly as balls (but I guess that's not really anyone's fault). Oh, and she was the 2nd last performer; Pitbull was the first. So, on the plus side, that meant I could leave earlier. I didn't end up going to the gym that night. I was tired and cold and just spent my time cleaning my room and then went to bed.
I was able to run for 30 mins straight starting at 5mph and ending at 5.2. Can't complain about that, but my eating is still pretty bad. I have a lot of yogurt to get through before it goes bad next month, so maybe I'll do a yogurt day sometime next week.
Um... ya.. that's all I've got to say right now. The weight loss pressure is kind of off, but I'm still gonna try really hard to make it to the gym as much as possible next week. Perhaps I've started a habit?
Ke$ha and me : )
Another entry where I don't really know how to start it.
I guess I'll start with a Ke$ha report. I don't wanna complain cuz I do really like her, but the whole meet and greet was a bit of a let down. Without going into detail too much, there was something missing from the SWAG bag that we were promised would be delivered to everyone's houses (I'll give it a few days and then try to contact someone), the food at the party was lack luster (chips and condiments and mini pitas with shitty humus), I was probably got to meet her for like 30 seconds, tops and it was chilly as balls (but I guess that's not really anyone's fault). Oh, and she was the 2nd last performer; Pitbull was the first. So, on the plus side, that meant I could leave earlier. I didn't end up going to the gym that night. I was tired and cold and just spent my time cleaning my room and then went to bed.
I was able to run for 30 mins straight starting at 5mph and ending at 5.2. Can't complain about that, but my eating is still pretty bad. I have a lot of yogurt to get through before it goes bad next month, so maybe I'll do a yogurt day sometime next week.
Um... ya.. that's all I've got to say right now. The weight loss pressure is kind of off, but I'm still gonna try really hard to make it to the gym as much as possible next week. Perhaps I've started a habit?
Ke$ha and me : )
Sun. June 2
Probably should've updated days ago, but I'm lazy. Sue me. lol
Ok, so, my Wed and Thu night workouts were both over 1h45m long. I burned over 1000 cals both night as well. And did 30 mins of running and stairclimbing each both nights. Pretty proud of that. On top, I was able to push myself to do 30 mins of running before work on Friday. It was at a slightly slower pace, but still. Oh, and this happened too... (I'll just copy/paste what I wrote on FB as opposed to typing it out again, lol)
"So, me and a guy at the gym decide to share the bench pressing bench/equipment. He goes first. Puts two 25lb weights on 45lb barbell and does his set. He gets up and starts removing the 25's for me and I say "no, no, leave them" and then ADD another 25lb weight to EACH side. The look on his face. Ha!"
Anyway, like usual, I'm being pretty inactive this weekend. I picked up some apple sauce and cucumbers to add to my big collection of yogurt for meals and snacks next week. And I picked up my "splash pass" so I can go swimming a lot this summer.
So, the week at a glance will be interesting. Really gonna try to buckle down and get some good results. My work schedule looks like it'll allow for 4 days at the gym, but I can probably stretch those into 1.5 or 2 hour sessions (not including the walks there and back). And then Ke$ha is on Wednesday. At this point, my goal for that is to not look bloated and disgusting, but I think I can pull it off. lol. Honestly, the only thing that's really depressing me about her show is that she's only gonna be performing 12 songs. :/ Hopefully the next time she comes, she'll have time to do more. *mumbles*stupid Pitbull*mumble*
Alrighty, I'm gonna see if I can bring myself to make a decent meal plan for next week, so I'm not just eating whatever and can keep an eye on my calories. Laterz.
Fixed/updated this pic. These pics were taken on Halloween. I'm really hoping to be a lot smaller this year.
Probably should've updated days ago, but I'm lazy. Sue me. lol
Ok, so, my Wed and Thu night workouts were both over 1h45m long. I burned over 1000 cals both night as well. And did 30 mins of running and stairclimbing each both nights. Pretty proud of that. On top, I was able to push myself to do 30 mins of running before work on Friday. It was at a slightly slower pace, but still. Oh, and this happened too... (I'll just copy/paste what I wrote on FB as opposed to typing it out again, lol)
"So, me and a guy at the gym decide to share the bench pressing bench/equipment. He goes first. Puts two 25lb weights on 45lb barbell and does his set. He gets up and starts removing the 25's for me and I say "no, no, leave them" and then ADD another 25lb weight to EACH side. The look on his face. Ha!"
Anyway, like usual, I'm being pretty inactive this weekend. I picked up some apple sauce and cucumbers to add to my big collection of yogurt for meals and snacks next week. And I picked up my "splash pass" so I can go swimming a lot this summer.
So, the week at a glance will be interesting. Really gonna try to buckle down and get some good results. My work schedule looks like it'll allow for 4 days at the gym, but I can probably stretch those into 1.5 or 2 hour sessions (not including the walks there and back). And then Ke$ha is on Wednesday. At this point, my goal for that is to not look bloated and disgusting, but I think I can pull it off. lol. Honestly, the only thing that's really depressing me about her show is that she's only gonna be performing 12 songs. :/ Hopefully the next time she comes, she'll have time to do more. *mumbles*stupid Pitbull*mumble*
Alrighty, I'm gonna see if I can bring myself to make a decent meal plan for next week, so I'm not just eating whatever and can keep an eye on my calories. Laterz.
Fixed/updated this pic. These pics were taken on Halloween. I'm really hoping to be a lot smaller this year.
Tue. May 28
Just another short entry.
I sorta feel like I’ve thrown in the towel when it comes to my weight. I’m not like giving up and eating everything in site, but I seem to be a little better at shrugging it off lately. Especially since I know there’s basically no way in hell of me dropping basically 20lbs in a week. So, I’ve just been focusing on how I look and feel for the most part. I’m hoping things will kinda fall into place and eventually the numbers on the scale will what I want to see.
Had a good work out last night and tonight. Ran consistently for 30 mins both nights. Hoping to get to the gym tomorrow and Thursday and then try to get a 30 min run in before work. That’d be nice. Honestly, I just need to clean up my eating and I should start seeing better results.
Pic of me from a house party I went to last weekend.
Just another short entry.
I sorta feel like I’ve thrown in the towel when it comes to my weight. I’m not like giving up and eating everything in site, but I seem to be a little better at shrugging it off lately. Especially since I know there’s basically no way in hell of me dropping basically 20lbs in a week. So, I’ve just been focusing on how I look and feel for the most part. I’m hoping things will kinda fall into place and eventually the numbers on the scale will what I want to see.
Had a good work out last night and tonight. Ran consistently for 30 mins both nights. Hoping to get to the gym tomorrow and Thursday and then try to get a 30 min run in before work. That’d be nice. Honestly, I just need to clean up my eating and I should start seeing better results.
Pic of me from a house party I went to last weekend.
Fri. May 24
Not even sure what I want my opening line to be.
Ok, so, I haven't been eating great, I only got to the gym twice this week and I actually ended up with heartburn a couple times this week. That being said, I feel a little smaller. Some of my tighter clothing has been... well, not fitting fine, but noticeably less tight. I guess that really proves you can't go by the weight, you need to go by the inches. I've actually been considering only weighing myself on days when I'm feeling good physically. Not if I'm bloated or maybe had a bad binge the night before or if I'm really sore (and therefore retaining water) from the gym.
Anyway, next week I have a fairly busy work schedule, but I'll still be doing my best to work out as much as I can. Still gonna be working on my 5K endurance, lifting heavy and hoping to up my bench pressing weight soon. I've also JUST started watching The Biggest Loser from the very beginning. I'm on episode 4 of season 1 and so far, I think I can get into this. I'm still waiting for something super inspirational to jump out and bite me, but I do feel slightly more knowledgeable about weight loss and calories and all that good stuff.
Oh, and short story about yogurt being on sale this week. Was $1.99 instead of $1, but anything is better than full price. Went to my local grocery store and all they had was plain and vanilla. Barf. So, my dad offered to take me to the next closest store in that chain and see if they had more selection. They did, but only had 4 blueberry left, so I snatched those bad boys up. lol. I was really tempted to ask if they had more in the back, but we were on a bit of a time crunch, so I'll trying going back in a day or so to see if I can grab more.
Alrighty, that's all. Gonna get back to watching TBL now. : )
Not even sure what I want my opening line to be.
Ok, so, I haven't been eating great, I only got to the gym twice this week and I actually ended up with heartburn a couple times this week. That being said, I feel a little smaller. Some of my tighter clothing has been... well, not fitting fine, but noticeably less tight. I guess that really proves you can't go by the weight, you need to go by the inches. I've actually been considering only weighing myself on days when I'm feeling good physically. Not if I'm bloated or maybe had a bad binge the night before or if I'm really sore (and therefore retaining water) from the gym.
Anyway, next week I have a fairly busy work schedule, but I'll still be doing my best to work out as much as I can. Still gonna be working on my 5K endurance, lifting heavy and hoping to up my bench pressing weight soon. I've also JUST started watching The Biggest Loser from the very beginning. I'm on episode 4 of season 1 and so far, I think I can get into this. I'm still waiting for something super inspirational to jump out and bite me, but I do feel slightly more knowledgeable about weight loss and calories and all that good stuff.
Oh, and short story about yogurt being on sale this week. Was $1.99 instead of $1, but anything is better than full price. Went to my local grocery store and all they had was plain and vanilla. Barf. So, my dad offered to take me to the next closest store in that chain and see if they had more selection. They did, but only had 4 blueberry left, so I snatched those bad boys up. lol. I was really tempted to ask if they had more in the back, but we were on a bit of a time crunch, so I'll trying going back in a day or so to see if I can grab more.
Alrighty, that's all. Gonna get back to watching TBL now. : )
Wed. May 22
Gonna keep this short and sweet cuz I'm worn out.
I was finally able to (just barely) get into the next lower weight bracket that I was aiming for, but it didn't last long. The weekend wasn't good for me food-wise and that's kinda carried over into this week. I don't wanna say I've been binging (cuz I haven't really), I've just not been making good food choices for meals and snacks. So, I have put a little weight back on, but I'm trying to "pull up my socks" and really get my ass in gear. My Ke$ha meet and greet is in 2 weeks. At this point, I'd settle for just getting back into that lower weight bracket. At least I know I can do it now. That plateau felt like forever.
Anyway, I increased my squat weight by a little tonight and I did 26 mins of constant running at 4.6mph. Everything felt fine except for after a few mins, my lower left calf got really tight for some reason, but I pushed through and I'm glad I did. : )
K, that's it. Looks like yogurt is on sale at a local grocery store again. Huzzah! lol
I love shirts that both conceal my bulges and show off my boobs. lol
Steaks I grilled over the weekend. I'm very proud of those grill marks on the left one. lol
I got a little naughty last night. hehe
Gonna keep this short and sweet cuz I'm worn out.
I was finally able to (just barely) get into the next lower weight bracket that I was aiming for, but it didn't last long. The weekend wasn't good for me food-wise and that's kinda carried over into this week. I don't wanna say I've been binging (cuz I haven't really), I've just not been making good food choices for meals and snacks. So, I have put a little weight back on, but I'm trying to "pull up my socks" and really get my ass in gear. My Ke$ha meet and greet is in 2 weeks. At this point, I'd settle for just getting back into that lower weight bracket. At least I know I can do it now. That plateau felt like forever.
Anyway, I increased my squat weight by a little tonight and I did 26 mins of constant running at 4.6mph. Everything felt fine except for after a few mins, my lower left calf got really tight for some reason, but I pushed through and I'm glad I did. : )
K, that's it. Looks like yogurt is on sale at a local grocery store again. Huzzah! lol
I love shirts that both conceal my bulges and show off my boobs. lol
Steaks I grilled over the weekend. I'm very proud of those grill marks on the left one. lol
I got a little naughty last night. hehe
Fri. May 17
God. Damn. -.-
Well, I've been eating pretty well and working out pretty consistently and what does my body do to repay me? Has me at a plateau for a few days and then goes up .2lbs this morning. Am I discouraged? Yes. Am I pissed and heartbroken? Yup. Did I say "F it" and have chicken fingers and poutine for breakfast? Mm hmm. Am I going to just give up for a while? Hell no. I continued with my decent eating today, I went for a run after work and now I'm just sitting, doing my nails, waiting to get sleepy and then paying for some results in the morning.
Um, I think that's all to report right now. My work schedule for next week only has me working 3 days, so I'll definitely be making it to the gym probably like 4 or 5 times. Oh, and starting to train for the breast cancer 5K in October. I started at 4.5mph for 20 mins, then 4.6mph for 21 mins, then 4.7mph for 22 mins and tonight I ran for 27 mins, but cuz it was outside, I dunno my speed. But I was consistent and actually probably could've gone for longer. : )
Ok, that really is it for now. I make no promises for the weekend, but I'll do my best. Laterz.
All sweaty from my 22 minute run. Also, those of you who say I already look good can see how wrong you are. lol
God. Damn. -.-
Well, I've been eating pretty well and working out pretty consistently and what does my body do to repay me? Has me at a plateau for a few days and then goes up .2lbs this morning. Am I discouraged? Yes. Am I pissed and heartbroken? Yup. Did I say "F it" and have chicken fingers and poutine for breakfast? Mm hmm. Am I going to just give up for a while? Hell no. I continued with my decent eating today, I went for a run after work and now I'm just sitting, doing my nails, waiting to get sleepy and then paying for some results in the morning.
Um, I think that's all to report right now. My work schedule for next week only has me working 3 days, so I'll definitely be making it to the gym probably like 4 or 5 times. Oh, and starting to train for the breast cancer 5K in October. I started at 4.5mph for 20 mins, then 4.6mph for 21 mins, then 4.7mph for 22 mins and tonight I ran for 27 mins, but cuz it was outside, I dunno my speed. But I was consistent and actually probably could've gone for longer. : )
Ok, that really is it for now. I make no promises for the weekend, but I'll do my best. Laterz.
All sweaty from my 22 minute run. Also, those of you who say I already look good can see how wrong you are. lol
Tue. May 14
Today has been going pretty well so far and it's times like these that leave me worried that I'm gonna mess it up.
I weighed myself this morning and it was the same number that my friend's scale said I was on Saturday, which is awesome. I then had a good breakfast and headed over to the gym, where I burned 1003 cals in 1h33m. I came home, cleaned up and put all my workout and food info into myfitnesspal and, so far, I'm still pretty well under my calorie intake allowance. I'm just worried that since I have the day off, I'm gonna eat a bunch of bad food and ruin all my progress. Obviously, I don't want that to happen, but it sometimes feels like I can't control myself.
Anyway, there's still another several hours til I go to bed. Just gonna try to still with chicken, yogurt and water tonight. And find something to keep me occupied; either cleaning my room or taking care of my nephew. Don't wish me luck, wish me will power. lol
Today has been going pretty well so far and it's times like these that leave me worried that I'm gonna mess it up.
I weighed myself this morning and it was the same number that my friend's scale said I was on Saturday, which is awesome. I then had a good breakfast and headed over to the gym, where I burned 1003 cals in 1h33m. I came home, cleaned up and put all my workout and food info into myfitnesspal and, so far, I'm still pretty well under my calorie intake allowance. I'm just worried that since I have the day off, I'm gonna eat a bunch of bad food and ruin all my progress. Obviously, I don't want that to happen, but it sometimes feels like I can't control myself.
Anyway, there's still another several hours til I go to bed. Just gonna try to still with chicken, yogurt and water tonight. And find something to keep me occupied; either cleaning my room or taking care of my nephew. Don't wish me luck, wish me will power. lol
Mon. May 13
I have both good and bad news to report.
I guess I'll start with the bad. I know I've put on a bit of weight, but I was too chicken to get on the scale today and find out exactly how much. I shouldn't be too surprised though; I ate pretty badly on Sunday. Waffles, nachos, honey roasted peanuts, etc. I also didn't do very well on Saturday and I had a bunch of chocolate today too. And my hockey team (Toronto) is now out of the playoffs. Not overly surprised by that, but we did come pretty damn close. There's always next year.
As for the good news, I DID have a pretty good weigh in on Saturday morning. My fat percentage was down a bit. And even though I felt pretty bloated, I was able to fit nicely into a pair of my jeans on Sunday. And yogurt went on sale FOR A DOLLAR and it was the fat free kind where an entire 650g container is only 227.5 cals. Wooooooo! I picked up 8 containers and I'll probably pick up a handful more before the sale finishes. lol. So, besides the chocolate today, I would actually consider my eating today pretty good. And the batteries for my heart rate monitor came and it looks like that was what the issue was, so I got to use it again today. : ) Um, I think that's just about everything, so I'll leave it at that.
My schedule this week allows for some pretty decent gym time. I went tonight after work even though I have tomorrow off and will most likely good then. I'm gonna try to keep in mind that it's better to go to the gym whenever possible cuz there's always potentially something that could throw a wrench in your plans and then you don't end up going at all. Did that make sense? I dunno. I'm sleepy. Ok, night.
New shirt I bought. I love shirts with open shoulders like this. : )
I have both good and bad news to report.
I guess I'll start with the bad. I know I've put on a bit of weight, but I was too chicken to get on the scale today and find out exactly how much. I shouldn't be too surprised though; I ate pretty badly on Sunday. Waffles, nachos, honey roasted peanuts, etc. I also didn't do very well on Saturday and I had a bunch of chocolate today too. And my hockey team (Toronto) is now out of the playoffs. Not overly surprised by that, but we did come pretty damn close. There's always next year.
As for the good news, I DID have a pretty good weigh in on Saturday morning. My fat percentage was down a bit. And even though I felt pretty bloated, I was able to fit nicely into a pair of my jeans on Sunday. And yogurt went on sale FOR A DOLLAR and it was the fat free kind where an entire 650g container is only 227.5 cals. Wooooooo! I picked up 8 containers and I'll probably pick up a handful more before the sale finishes. lol. So, besides the chocolate today, I would actually consider my eating today pretty good. And the batteries for my heart rate monitor came and it looks like that was what the issue was, so I got to use it again today. : ) Um, I think that's just about everything, so I'll leave it at that.
My schedule this week allows for some pretty decent gym time. I went tonight after work even though I have tomorrow off and will most likely good then. I'm gonna try to keep in mind that it's better to go to the gym whenever possible cuz there's always potentially something that could throw a wrench in your plans and then you don't end up going at all. Did that make sense? I dunno. I'm sleepy. Ok, night.
New shirt I bought. I love shirts with open shoulders like this. : )
Wed. May 8
Finally got back to the gym tonight.
It felt good and the week off didn't seem to affect my strength all that much. I still wasn't able to use my heart rate monitor though. I hope the replacement batteries get here soon.
Anyway, it seems like one of the upsides to being sick is that for the first few days, I was more concerned with getting better rather than stuffing my face. After that, cuz my nose was kinda plugged up, I couldn't really taste much, so there was no point sitting around, eating sweets. I've also started keeping food and exercise diary through myfitnesspal.com. I find it's been fairly decent so far, but it's obviously not a super exact thing. I'll see how long I can keep it up for though.
Still not feeling 100% back to myself, but I'm getting there. And I'm definitely much better than I was last weekend.
Finally got back to the gym tonight.
It felt good and the week off didn't seem to affect my strength all that much. I still wasn't able to use my heart rate monitor though. I hope the replacement batteries get here soon.
Anyway, it seems like one of the upsides to being sick is that for the first few days, I was more concerned with getting better rather than stuffing my face. After that, cuz my nose was kinda plugged up, I couldn't really taste much, so there was no point sitting around, eating sweets. I've also started keeping food and exercise diary through myfitnesspal.com. I find it's been fairly decent so far, but it's obviously not a super exact thing. I'll see how long I can keep it up for though.
Still not feeling 100% back to myself, but I'm getting there. And I'm definitely much better than I was last weekend.
