UPDATE...
So I realize that I haven't been on here in months... A lot of stuff has happened to me sincce then. Once again- I don't have internet access, so Idk how often I'll be able to keep up with this. My year free membership should be ending soon. Once it does, it'll probably be a while before I reapply to be a SG. Sad, I know. So...back in June I started staying in Reno with one of my exs. I turned 21 June 28th. Woot! It was a fun birthday. Got drunk (like any 21st birthday). & yeah, I did end up puking. lol The next day I did E too. Intense... July 12th I officially moved to Reno, NV. I got an apartment with my ex. That didn't work out. (He decided to be a dickface. End of story.) Since then, I've stayed a few different places. I guess you could say I'm technically homeless. I'm still in Reno right now trying to stay here. I've met a few people that're worth staying for. I just gotta find a job & a permanent place to stay. I'd like to get back into modeling. I haven't done any shoots since I moved here. Oh, about a month or so ago I got another tattoo- a chestpiece. It's pretty savage. (Pix maybe sometime?) I think that's about it...

I just had the best 2 days Thursday & Friday.
Thursday was an Aiden show @ the Boardwalk in Orangvale. For my first time being there, that place is pretty nifty. Not a lot of kids came out though (sadly). 3 local bands & then Aiden. They sure put on a crazy show. Will is like a rockstar.

Yesterday was the big A Skylit Drive, I See Stars, In Fear & Faith, Dance Gavin Dance, & The Divine (instead of Attack Attack) show @ the Boardwalk.

SO many little scene kids were there. So was my ex & his new bitch. Didn't even see him the whole nite despite the fact he said he was looking for me. W/e. I grabbed 2 guys' butts that nite. lol One didn't even notice. The other one was all into it. He ended up kissing me on the check before he left with his friends. Damn shame I didn't get his #. I was in the pit all nite in my little dress.

Definitely the best nite I've had in a loooong time.

So lately I've been looking for a photographer to shoot another hopeful set for me on here. The one & only one I have up is from Nov. of last year & obviously didn't get accepted as set of the day. I've been having trouble finding a photographer that was willing to work with my current situation. But it turns out that Gared Hansen (the photographer who shot my set already on here) is willing to shoot me again. I've already got what I think is a great idea for a them. In the next few weeks hopefully I'll be able to get it shot & submitted so in 3 months everyone can see new shit from me. I REALLY wanna be a SG. I'll try to be online more often & be open to people. Ah, excitement!

Short & simple- nothing new is going on in my life. Big woop.

So FINALLY I have the pic of my last 2 tattoos (my hips) up. I also put up 2 more photos in my ügly"album to show more of my...ugliness. Times have been tough recently. I moved from Lodi to West Sac. A hell of a lot better. But I haven't been to be online much. Still don't have a computer or much internet access. I need to find a job. My roommate needs a second one. Need $ to fix his computer. Oh, I also got another piercing- my industrial. So my total's up to 9 now. Woot! I really want to shoot another set. I have an idea already in my head. Just with limited internet time & not being able to find a photographer has been hindering the process.

So...I got a monroe piercing the other day. On the left side. That brings my total up to 8 piercings & 7 tattoos. Addiction? Yes, very much so. Ah, I need to get photos up to show off my new stuff. I'm a sexy bitch. Lol Idk about that...

Woot! I haven't been on my page on here in way too long. Jeeze, sorry about that. I haven't had internet since Oct. Still don't have it right now. Sucks 'cause I can't talk to all the fabuolus people on here. I need to get internet again & submit another set of pix. Looks like my last one got a lot of good feedback, but didn't get accepted. So what have I been doing with my time? Hmmm...not a whole lot really. Haven't been able to model much with the no internet. I had a job for a month, but then it ended. Seasonal shit. I'm single now. We'll see how that goes. Other than that, no excitement for me. Oh, I got 2 more tattoos a few months ago. Hurt like hell, but they're just addictive. Right now I'm in the mood to drink a Sobe...

While I was high...
Dude, I was so stoned. lol Last nite I was tripping balls after smoking. First time ever out of a homemade pipe- a soda can. But I started thinking all these things. It was the first time I was ever high online too. I don't think I was the nicest to some of the people I was messaging. Ha everything was spinning around. I started thinking that I didn't wanna model anymore. That it was too much work & that I was just gonna give up. I wanted to go back to being a bum doing nothing so I could sleep more. But now that it's the next day, Idk if I meant all that or not. I passed out early last nite. Ha I'm such a fucking weirdo. Even when I'm high I worry too much.

Sometimes I feel like a fucking skank. Not in the sense that I sleep around. ('Cause I don't.) But in the sense that I love showing myself off & getting attention. Kinda funny when I have self-esteem issues. People tend to label me as a bitch or someone who's into themselves. Not the case. Those people obviously don't know me. I'm sweet (sometimes). I just don't care to an extent. But all I want is to be appreciated. I'm not worthless. I matter & I should be treated that way.