Making brownies!!! Yummmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!

Merry X-mas!!!

Not much going on. Just watched Public Enemy and Red Cliff. Public Enemy was a good movie alittle slow at times but still good. I red cliff was cool but I don't like sub titles. Not much else. later

Well that was an interesting day. I got drunk last night at a friends then I woke up at noon watched Ohio State beat Michigan. SWEET!!! Then I had a friend run me back home I then I walked to Family Video and rented a couple movies and COD MW2 then walked home to find out I locked myself out. I called the land lord and didn't get an answer so after hanging out for about 5 hours they called so I'm now back inside. I'm just glad in was a warm Ohio winter day today.

Well I'm BACK!!! Now what?

Last Night...


Last Night went good it was the anniversery of me and my ex's (newly ex) 1st kiss. I bought her a dozen roses and a card just because she still means allot to me. She started crying. For about 2 hours. It was the first reaction that I really got from her since we broke up. It made me feel kind of weird because on one hand I didn't want her to get upset but on the other hand it made me feel like she still cares and that we might work this out. I made her dinner too but I couldn't eat. I don't eat much anymore. I don't think thats good for me but I could loose some weight. Anyway I'm not sure that it really made any difference but it did make me feel alittle better plus I got to hold her in my arms again so that felt really good. Maybe there is some hope for us but maybe not I'm not sure. I'm just not ready to give up though.

What do you think?

Ok Women are confusing as hell. They want to just be friends but they still have other feelings and its ok to kiss you because it doesn't mean anything. DOES ANY OF THAT MAKE ANY SENSE WHAT SO FUCKING EVER?

Ok here is the deal my newly ex-girlfriend who I would love to still be with is totally confusing me. Ok we broke up a week and a half ago. We were together almost 3 years. I just found out friday that she is already seeing one of my so called friends. But 4 days after we broke up she was holding my hand telling me that we will probably get back together. Ok now last night she was at home (we still live together 4 now) and we were talking and everything was cool. I got up this mourning and I got ready for work. Then I woke her up to say good bye. Ok when I did see went to kiss me then she remembered that we were broke up. I hugged her and then she kissed me anyway. She said that its ok to touch each other because it doesn't mean anything and then told me she has feelings for me but that she doesn't want to get back together. I'm so confused!!!

Well I'm back!!! Its been awhile since I've been on here but I'm back. The new things going on in my life are that the girl that I was dating for the last 3 years me and her just broke up. Shes already dating (one of my friends) but we were talking about getting back together but I don't think it will happen now maybe one day. I think were still friends, its just tough right now for me to see her. I now work making the fruit that goes in dannon yogurt yeah.

Later, Bort

Lifes going good!!!