I bought some new Cologne today.
Ed Hardy Love and Luck!
OMG does it smell so good!!! Lady's, its not gonna fair, once you smell me, you're gonna be all over me


lol j/k

I had a pretty good day. I called in sick from work, just had to get away from that place. My mind is in a bad place and I keep thinking bad thoughts. I spent the day with my mom, I took her and her hubbie out to lunch. Went to Macys with her, ended up opening up a charge card and spent almost 200 bucks just on cologne and perfume lol. But my mom was really happy that I bought her perfume, took her out to lunch, and just spent the day with her. She has had a rough couple of months. She had a neck sugery, was out of work for awhile, and finally got cleared to go back to work...on her way to work, a fucking BUS rearends her! So now her neck is all fucked out and more time out of work now. So it was good for her to get out and be pampered for a bit. She even bought two dwarf frogs and a parkeet! But we didn't catch it at the place, when the guy cought the bird in the net, his foot got caught in the net and the guy kept shacking the net to let him free in the box, and he twisted the little guys foot and broke it. I noticed it while it was in the cage. I've had bbirds all my love and I know they can live with only one leg. There was no blood or anything, I told her to keep a eye on him and if he just stays on the bottom and dosent pertch, he is going to die. She just called me and said he was on top of the cage playing with the only one, so the little guy is gonna be fine =)

I also got my book I ordered in called The Gabriel Method. The time has come for me. I want to be thin. I've had major sugerys, did all the diets, the weight wont leave. Something attracted me to this book. For those that know me, know I don't read that much. So i think its a sign. In a hour i'm already on chapter five! One of the things its talking about it stop holding in your feelings. So I think what im going to do it start writing on here everyday. For some reason I feel comfrontable on suicide girls for letting out my emotions and feelings and I think..no...I KNOW, this is going to help me! The time for a NEW TJ IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!

So be warned...many pointless blogs about my day..my feelings...are soon to come, but I need my friends on here help. If you see me go a couple of days without writing, YELL AT ME, EMAIL ME ON HERE, REMIND MY ASS, ANYTHING! Something deep down inside my soul says the time has come, and the time is now.
So fingers crossed!

Thanks for reading..for those that read down this far =)

Also is you wanna know what program im starting, you can read the dudes story here
http://www.gabrielmethod.com/

I got my tattoo finished today!

As I sit here, alone, in this dark, lonely house, I can't help but think about things, like life. All my life, the term, Life is what you make of it. You know what, FUCK THAT! Its only about 10% of what you make, 90% is controlled by the people around you. Think im wrong? Think about, look at everything about you. You really wanna go out and have some drinks and relax, 90% of the time, you call your friends, they don't want to go, and what do you end up doing? Not a dam thing, because your friends didn't want to do anything.

Every morning I wake up, and feel no purpose. Why do it? Why keep living this life? I was once a happy person, no all I see is pain and hate in this world we live in. I see how everyone around me controls my life. I want to wake up happy again, I want to feel alive again. I want to be me again.

I feel like I have to beg friends to just hang out with me anymore. Im tired of always having to goto everybody. I just feel like screaming till my voice is horse and I can't breathe anymore

My Big Scare in West Virginia Last Weekend

Man i had one hell of a scare. They have been seeing more and more bears around there, so when i went for a walk, i took my .45 with me. Im walking along through the back field and i come up onto a bone, i snap a pic..then find another bone, so i look around and find a whole deer carcass. Im like wtf happened here..then see a big pile of hair along the woods edge, so im like, a bear or coyote had to have done this.

So im sitting just looking at all of this and i hear something coming, so i sneak over next to a tree right inside the woods. Im on top of this ridge, and i know below me is a old road that is maybe 100 yards away down the side of the hill. Its making all this noise like its something big and im getting kinda nervous cause its walking right up towards me, cause i know deer don't make this much noise.
Its getting closer and closer but i still can't see anything. All i hear is all these leafs getting moved around and scratching noises coming right at me. Here i am alone in the woods, about a mile form the house.
All im thinkin is its a dam bear coming! So I have my .45 out and ready.

Then whatever it is stops, im looking and looking, i still dont see a thing, then i hear it going away from me. So i was like fuck this and snuck out of the woods back into the field to come around and see if i could see whatever it was.
I get down to the edge of the field to the road and boom, i see what it was...a whole flock of turkeys! They spotted me right away and took off. I sat there laughing for about 5 mins


Here are some pics I took



my dad =)

Im sick and pouty =~(

I cut my long beard off. Final length...7in



and here i tired a new hair dew, dont think its me

A New Year is here.
All I can say is 2008 CAN KISS MY ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well my time is almost up on this site. So i want to know, should i renew or no? I really dont talk much on here anyore, just lurk lol. But there is a lot of drama in just about all the groups anymore so i stay away from them.

So my question to you is....should i stay or should i go....or would you not even notice i was gone?

REAL GHOST CAUGHT ON FILM!!!!!!!!!!!! AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!

WORD!