Well...as a lot of you can tell, I haven't posted in awhile.
This year has been straight up HELL for me!
Let's see where to start...My grandma died, My divroce finally came through, My fav Uncle Bacil died, the DAY OF his funeral, his brother, My Uncle Darrell died, My mom moved away to Myrtle Beach, I got my heart SHIT ON by someone I gave my soul too.
To be honest I have no clue how I am still here, how I just haven't given up. I am so tired of crying, of hurting, of even just caring.
But I am greatful for the people I do have in my life, the new people I have met. My boo boo Tiffany aka Elvis, My friend Sassy from Oregon, My Friend Jeanette is Sweden, I am very thankful for them coming into my life.
I know everyone has problems and I guess things can always be worse.
But my heart hurts. This girl Jen, who I gave my soul too. I was SO in love with her. I was willing to give up EVERYTHING for her...and i mean EVERYTHING! I would have moved to SD, to help her start her new life, with her kids, we would have started our new lifes. Its a LONG ass story, but to shorten it up, she didn't evven have the balls to break up with me, she just kept pushing me away and pushing me away, not even TALKING to me and TELLING me what was going on, I have to figure out everything...
But whatever, im slowly moving on, no use in crying over spilt milk right?
Time for bigger and better fish! So ladies ladies ladies....Tj Is SINGLE!!!!
Ok, Now that I am done ranting, here is some music that I am really feeling right now...
Untill next time....
This year has been straight up HELL for me!
Let's see where to start...My grandma died, My divroce finally came through, My fav Uncle Bacil died, the DAY OF his funeral, his brother, My Uncle Darrell died, My mom moved away to Myrtle Beach, I got my heart SHIT ON by someone I gave my soul too.
To be honest I have no clue how I am still here, how I just haven't given up. I am so tired of crying, of hurting, of even just caring.
But I am greatful for the people I do have in my life, the new people I have met. My boo boo Tiffany aka Elvis, My friend Sassy from Oregon, My Friend Jeanette is Sweden, I am very thankful for them coming into my life.
I know everyone has problems and I guess things can always be worse.
But my heart hurts. This girl Jen, who I gave my soul too. I was SO in love with her. I was willing to give up EVERYTHING for her...and i mean EVERYTHING! I would have moved to SD, to help her start her new life, with her kids, we would have started our new lifes. Its a LONG ass story, but to shorten it up, she didn't evven have the balls to break up with me, she just kept pushing me away and pushing me away, not even TALKING to me and TELLING me what was going on, I have to figure out everything...
But whatever, im slowly moving on, no use in crying over spilt milk right?
Time for bigger and better fish! So ladies ladies ladies....Tj Is SINGLE!!!!
Ok, Now that I am done ranting, here is some music that I am really feeling right now...
Untill next time....
man what a fucked up year this has been!
My grandma died earler this year, then my fac uncle died last month, while we were burying him, his brother, my other uncle died the next day.
Oh, and also, long distance realationships suck! And open one's at that! Im such a emotional wreck anymore =(
My grandma died earler this year, then my fac uncle died last month, while we were burying him, his brother, my other uncle died the next day.
Oh, and also, long distance realationships suck! And open one's at that! Im such a emotional wreck anymore =(
Ok, have I got a story for you!
last night, out of the blue tony "my roommate" and I got to talking about dowsing
rods and how most of the men in my family can use them to find water.
Then i went into the history of them and how they have been used since
the 1500 back in germany to find water, metals, graves, and anything
else you put your mind to.
Then got to talking about how we see them use them on tv to find
spirts in houses and where they are coming from. So I took two metal
coat hangers and made a set. I then showed him how it will take me to
the kitchen and the bathroom where the main sources of water are. And
they did. Tony was like no fucking way dude. Then he said, well now
find a ghost in the house now. So i forced my energy on finding a
spirit and the fucking things took me right to my room and straight to
my closet!
So me and tony are kinda freaked out by now. We go into his room and
it takes me to his closet. So he takes his rosary that has been
blessed and was like, lets put it on your door and see if it will
still take you to your closet, and it did. So he holds up the rosary
and the rod's followed it everywhere it went! So we did a test, I
stood out in the living room and he hide the beads in my room. Then
told me to try to find them, and the rodes took me right to them!!!!!!
By this time the hair on my arms are standing straight up! So he seen
my grandmas cross hanging up on my picture of jesus i have hanging in
my room and did the same thing, the rod's followed it too! So I took
off my cross that I never take off and same thing!!! So I told him to
hold the rosary in one hand and my cross in the other, the rod's split
in half, one went to one cross and one went to the other and it's just
blowing our minds!
So now we focus back onto why its taking me to my closet, but by this
time we are kinda freaked out, and ill admit, i was scared to open the
door lol...so i opened the door and the rods tried to take me through
the closet into the computer room, so i go around into the computer
room and the rods cross over this big box of ammo that i have, a lot
of which my grandpa made back in the day. So im kinda confused now, so
I pick up a old box and hand it to Tony to see if they follow it and
it doesn't, he sets it down and the rod's start focusing on him now!
So he walks away and the rod's point at him and they followed him all
the back into the living room and now follow his hands, were ever his
hands went, the rod's followed!!!
Then my arms just got real tired and right at the same time his
fingers got real tingly and i just felt like i was working out for 3
hours and just tired as can be and he starting feeling sick. Then the
rods just stopped working all together, it would still follow cross a
little but the pull wasn't strong anymore. It wouldn't take me back to
my room but now just the living room closet. Opened it up, then the
rod's just stopped working all together and both of us felt drained!
It was almost like we were following something in the house and it
finally just left!
So ya, what a fucking night!
last night, out of the blue tony "my roommate" and I got to talking about dowsing
rods and how most of the men in my family can use them to find water.
Then i went into the history of them and how they have been used since
the 1500 back in germany to find water, metals, graves, and anything
else you put your mind to.
Then got to talking about how we see them use them on tv to find
spirts in houses and where they are coming from. So I took two metal
coat hangers and made a set. I then showed him how it will take me to
the kitchen and the bathroom where the main sources of water are. And
they did. Tony was like no fucking way dude. Then he said, well now
find a ghost in the house now. So i forced my energy on finding a
spirit and the fucking things took me right to my room and straight to
my closet!
So me and tony are kinda freaked out by now. We go into his room and
it takes me to his closet. So he takes his rosary that has been
blessed and was like, lets put it on your door and see if it will
still take you to your closet, and it did. So he holds up the rosary
and the rod's followed it everywhere it went! So we did a test, I
stood out in the living room and he hide the beads in my room. Then
told me to try to find them, and the rodes took me right to them!!!!!!
By this time the hair on my arms are standing straight up! So he seen
my grandmas cross hanging up on my picture of jesus i have hanging in
my room and did the same thing, the rod's followed it too! So I took
off my cross that I never take off and same thing!!! So I told him to
hold the rosary in one hand and my cross in the other, the rod's split
in half, one went to one cross and one went to the other and it's just
blowing our minds!
So now we focus back onto why its taking me to my closet, but by this
time we are kinda freaked out, and ill admit, i was scared to open the
door lol...so i opened the door and the rods tried to take me through
the closet into the computer room, so i go around into the computer
room and the rods cross over this big box of ammo that i have, a lot
of which my grandpa made back in the day. So im kinda confused now, so
I pick up a old box and hand it to Tony to see if they follow it and
it doesn't, he sets it down and the rod's start focusing on him now!
So he walks away and the rod's point at him and they followed him all
the back into the living room and now follow his hands, were ever his
hands went, the rod's followed!!!
Then my arms just got real tired and right at the same time his
fingers got real tingly and i just felt like i was working out for 3
hours and just tired as can be and he starting feeling sick. Then the
rods just stopped working all together, it would still follow cross a
little but the pull wasn't strong anymore. It wouldn't take me back to
my room but now just the living room closet. Opened it up, then the
rod's just stopped working all together and both of us felt drained!
It was almost like we were following something in the house and it
finally just left!
So ya, what a fucking night!
So I went on a date Sunday night, and I must say, I had a great time with her. She is like 10 years older then me, has like 3 kids, one of which is 18 and has a kid of her own, so that feels kinda weird, but then again, im not 18 years old myself anymore, hell ill be 30 in march! Fucking 30!!!! Im so scared about that! I am litterly scared to death to turn 30! =(
Went and seen Avatar with elvis and it was fucking amazing!
Movies usually never blow me away, but this movie did!
Movies usually never blow me away, but this movie did!
A Dark Past
A Troubled Soul
These are all the things I know
Do these things make me, me?
Do I control my own Destiney?
Or is my life a sham
Am I part of the big picture?
Or am I the tool of my own destruction
When my broken heart
Beats it's last pump
Will it all make sence?
Will the pain, the tortue, the suffering
Will the tears
Make it all worth it?
Will my eyes finally be open
To see what life
Is really about
A Troubled Soul
These are all the things I know
Do these things make me, me?
Do I control my own Destiney?
Or is my life a sham
Am I part of the big picture?
Or am I the tool of my own destruction
When my broken heart
Beats it's last pump
Will it all make sence?
Will the pain, the tortue, the suffering
Will the tears
Make it all worth it?
Will my eyes finally be open
To see what life
Is really about
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