hmm met a cute girl today;; a little bigger then i usually go for but it doesnt bother me. i met her on ok cupid and we went for a nature walk with her friend, kinda wish her friend wasnt there it put me on complete gaurd because i knew ntohing about her atleast i had been messege alex for a bit so i knew her kinda. but hey alex said she had fun although she didnt seem to really mean it well worse that can happen is i never talk to her again and well what have i really lost then right? so hopefully everything works out although she never txted me afterwords althoguh i didnt txt her either until i was done with my shit at like 10 so i will prolly hear form her tomorrow who knows you know. anyway played some dnd and warhammer today that was a great topper to the day about to crash and continue marching down this incredibly obscure path although the ground feels abit bumpy i may be ost some where in this darkness although i do know im searching for a root to keep me grounded idk if im going to ind it soon i hope i do not having one and diving into this buisness im working on could be bad. well when its all said and done everything will be allright so hakuna mattata

When does the world around me stop closing in?
When does the heavy feeling on my heart get lifted?
When does this empty void of loneliness cease?
When does the world around me stop fighting my efforts and starts flowing with me?
Why do I continue to fight even though this world stops me at every attempt?
Why Does this world operate so seemingly backwards?
What peice of information am i missing?
Is it religion, Trust, Faith?
Am i the olny one calling this rut of depression home?
Am i the only one willing to fight no matter how deep i get?
What is the answer?
Where is the answer?
Why is that the answer?
Why do we all fight against each other?
Why doesn't the world coincide with itself?
Why can't i find answers no matter where i look?
Am i missing something, someone, someplace?
Are we all in the same position but looking at it from different angles?
Is this the end?
Is there ever going to be an end?
Are we all one?
Are we all separate?
Is there an answer?

There are so many questions with out answers and with all those questions come a lingering discomfort that the world around us we dont know as well as we might like to think.

Hey there just figured i'd brag a lil about my home studio i got setup with my tax return. i got some sweet studio monitors so i can finally stop mixing with headphones (win), got another SM57 so i can stereo pair my drums (win), there is a sweet roland SH-201 on its way should be here by the end of the week (win). so im pretty happy i just need to get my tascam US-800 back and i can start recording again. bass lessons are going awesome still need to find people to jam with. other then that i'll be starting luthier school next march thats gonna be awesome. well any way here are some picks of My Lair.

ok so there are still no pictures of the van . what dont look at me like that i've been busy i swear. well tomorrow im going down to check out a luthier school and see iof its as awesome as it sounds. other then that i finally got my music room set up. working on getting my bedroom back inorder though. still wating on getting the house in order from my mom moving up from virginia when her new husband died rest his soul.

hey there im back. whats new hmm lets see. i'm taking bass lesson which are going well cold duck time and chameleon (both jazz tunes for those who dont know) have awesome bass lines which = fun to play. other then that im working at a local cafe which is awesome (side note the cafe is attached to a music store and is also where i take lessons just a tad convenient) listen to music all day talk to musicians drink coffee. hmm o got a new conversion van A.K.A the S.S. Fantasia or the porta living room its a chevy express limited SE with a conversion pack by explorer, between the front seats there is a coller and cup holders that stay hot or cold, standard TV VCR also has N64 hookups in it (hopefully get a little retro action goin on) hmmmm stil gettin high drinkin playin music. yeah thats about it van pics coming soon.

Sincerly,
BloodWaterX2

well its turkey day tomorrow and im feelin awesome gonna b a great day seein my family and my dad woot woot.

well gots a new job workin up at the local cafe/music store best job i have ever had due to the ease of it and the fucking amazing people i work with. other then that i have gotten pretty awesome at drums if i do say so myself. wrote my first song which is always awesome working on recording it and getting up on here as well as facebook. other then that supermario 3d land is awesome the mixed oldschool mario and super mario 64 seamlessly at parts and it feels like a brilliantly simple mario galaxy at other times. also picked up cave story havent gotten to far into it because of 3d land but so far its been awesome.

hmmmm just came across an interesting find a Suicide girls copy site its called gods girls didnt dig to deep past firgureing out what it was but just thought it was odd

hey there got a new tattoo last week

im really happy with it still need to get color and shading but that shall come once i get money
in other news i wrote my first song and and working on my second im sure a video will come of my playing ot shortly or atleast within the next blog posting as those dont come often

till next time my good friends keep the pirate alive yarrrr

well its been awhile since i've done a post so heres the scoop on my life to those who care. got fired for attendance last day i could miss got sick and couldnt get into the doctors to get a note before they fired me. but on the bright side i got a drum tryout tomorrow and a singing tryout saturday for 2 different bands woot woot. other then that im still lonely broke trying to figure out wtf to do with my life.