Ok, a little backstory, I've had this dream off and on for the last, I dunno, 10 years? It doesn't matter if I have a boyfriend I love and cherish at the time I still have it, at first it made me feel guilty, but seriously, after 10 years? I don't give it any thought like that anymore, but still I keep having it over and over again, in exactly the same way, but in different locations... Ok, here goes...

It's always the same, I'm sitting on a bench reading and having coffee (I've drank coffee since I was 5 so that's no news) and I look up at the exact same time this guy, who I don't know and NEVER remember what he looks like... He looks at me and I can see him mouthing the same thing I'm thinking "Oh my god!", I get this feeling of extreme excitement, throw the book on the table or bench or whatever, get up and start running towards him, he does the same...

When we meet halfway, I fling myself onto him, he grabs me really hard and then this excitement emotion turns into this absolutely happy crying, like I've never felt in real life, and I start saying "It's you, it's really you! You're back, you're back!" and he always asks me "Where the hell have you been? It's been forever and I've been trying to find you!" I keep crying and mutter "Where the HELL have YOU been?" he just grabs my face and gives me this amazing, undebatably amazing kiss... God I get butterflies just by describing it...

Weirdest part? I know his name, and he knows mine, but we've never met each other in this life or something... That's kinda what it feels like, this true love that we KNOW is there coz we've been looking for it for ages, not years, ages... I know it sounds crazy... But we just recognize each other because we've been looking for each other for so long... We were separated a lifetime ago by something awful, we had to run our different ways to save ourselves, I remember that line coming out of his mouth perfectly...

We then spend hours asking each other the things we don't know about out "current" lives, like, where we were born, what we studied, where we lived, and we start noticing that we have crossed paths but never found each other, we were driven to each other but there were situations keeping us away...

Hang with me I'm almost through, I know, it's long, but after such a long time of having it, I've collected details...

I have to go, I have to meet my mom, so I say goodbye and don't want to leave, but he asks his, I dunno, butler, driver or something to take me where I have to go, I just recently was told? his name, River... He asks River to take me... He asks where I'm staying (why would I stay anywhere? I dunno, I guess it means I'm travelling?) and after meeting my mom for dinner (it's always at night, I come back to the room and find a package for me, a dress, black, very vintage, pretty awesome, lol, a mask, kinda like a devilish face on it, and an invitation...

I go to said event, it's like a ball of some sort, a private party... He crossed the room, grabs my hand and takes me to the dance floor, grinning and says something among the lines of "You're the most beautiful thing my eyes have ever seen, I knew I'd find you eventually, I've looked for so long"

It always ends there... What the holy fuck, right?!?! I love having the dream because I get this amazing feeling... Still, it's really weird because I've never been the fairy tale type... I never liked the "happily ever after" endings, even when I was a little girl they've felt fake and lame to me... Over the years I've been gathering info on said guy, some of his physical attributes, but nothing much, I can see his face when I dream but NEVER, EVER, EVER, when I wake up, I can't remember him... I might be going insane or something I don't know...