I am getting better at making videos... haha..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vv3Uw9cduEU

From last night.. Got 6th place.. lot of big titty women.. no chance hahaa

I got in 6th place.. I going against chicks with huge boobs, i didn't stand a chance. But here is one of the photos from last night!!

Just did this today! Haha, you can see how long my hair has grown, and of course more tattoos.
I hope you enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVUepukur0U

As some of you may know, I am a dancer.. I'd love to upload videos on here, but it takes too DAMN long. Ugh..
Soooo.. Here is a link to one..

http://www.youtube.com/user/Redashley?feature=mhee#p/u/16/EBG1sylQkPU

I am going through an extremely rough time right now and don't necessarily know what to do..

I started dating this AMAZING man. He tells me everyday how beautiful and wonderful i am. He did whatever he could to make me smile. It has been 3 months. Here is the problem. He has been hurt so many times that he is afraid to jump fully into this relationship. He has a fear of getting hurt again. He is also in the army, and about to leave for 6 months.. come back then leave for 3rd deployment.

I truly am happy for once and I don't want to lose him. He has given me back the light in my life that i have been missing for years. Should i wait on him to come back? Should i go on with my life? Or should I go on with my life and when he comes back run back to him?

I also do not want to get hurt again. It has been over 2 years since i have dated anyone.. He has been so perfect to me. I am afraid of him not coming back. This is so hard.

I am trying to get back into a healthy state and get going with a working out schedule again. I started doing yoga, and have been going to a neuromuscular therapist for my hip.. I just pray that i don't go back into depression again and lose everything that i have worked so hard for.

went old school.. what you think??

I am now officially a teacher at an alternative school!! haha.

Wow.. this has been an amazing adventure for me. I have good and bad news writing this blog so bare with me.

I just recently moved to Colorado. Why? I threw a dart on a map and that's where it landed. No job, no friends, no family... alll by myself. On the way out here, i decided to make it a road trip for myself. So I went to go see the Grand Canyon, the Hoover Dam, and of course... Las Vegas It has been two weeks now, and I found a job, have a place to live.. and i am slowly but surely finding people that I might be able to call my friends.

Slightly on the bad note.. I unfortunately had to put my dingo down before I left. To let you in on a short story as to why... When i found him 2 years ago, he had the parvo virus, something that is curable but very unlikely. Well, luckily for me and him.. i caught it in time. What we did not know is that he had also caught the distemper virus. Which does not have a cure. It stays dormant for 2 years then it breaks down the dog's system. Well Max, started having chronic seizures about two months ago. They were aggressive ones so i could not be in the room with him. He would go blind and attack everything in his way and barked profusely for 30 mins. It ultimately broke my heart. I gave him medicine for a month, then it stopped working. So i had no other choice than to put him to sleep. He was not only my dog, but he was my best friend, and my son. It has been hard not having him here on this journey with me. Very lonely.

Hey hey!!

My birthday was this month. and I have had a total blast! Went skydiving for the first time!! And it was AMAZING. Flying like a bird...