The hardest thing I've ever had to deal with involving my oldest son carter(who isn't my son by birth but I earned Carter's respect enough he still calls me dad even though I've been divorced for 4 years) is the fact that his dad is a fucking asshole! Carter mom was allowing me to keep him for two weeks along with my sons. He went to his dads this weekend and his dad decided he just isnt going to bring him back to me. I am not going to get carter until his mom gets back from new Mexico now. I am so mad and upset I'm not sure if I want to cry, scream or just start breaking things. I have 4 boys. Carter, Ethan, Ryan and Finley and I love them all equally! Blood doesn't matter when you raise someone from when they were two and his dead beat father wasn't in the picture until he was 6 and even then doesn't go to his football games, school activities or other things important to carter. I've been more of a dad the past 9 years to carter than Justin has ever been! Fuck him and his bitch of a wife!!!
Today sucks! Went to a family picnic today which was cool except seeing my grandma so sick breaks my heart... Hurt someone I love and just over today... The pain from my back isn't doing a good enough job distracting me from the pain in my heart!
The moment you remember why you moved out of a house a year ago after already moving back in... Yup, that's this moment!
I should pay attention better next time I post a blog. I guess I am paid up until april 2013. I will be around till then. Now to figure what other bills I have to cut out to save money... So kind of sucks.
This will be my last month on sg. I need to cut out a few bills and sadly this is one of them. Thank you everyone for a great past few months. I'm sure one of these days I will be back. Good luck in life! If you must get ahold of me I am on instagram user name bad_a_dave and I have kik user name dystructodave.
Fuck me it's been kind of a shit week! I am beyond irritated and snapping at people for no reason. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me!
I got a new tattoo!! Fathers knot with my boys names around it! I'm so stoked about it! Go into my pics and tell me what you think about it... It's under the new tat folder!
Love having these bad feelings like someone is going to die or something is going to majorly go wrong!!! I hope the feelings wrong but last time I felt like this was the day before my employee died!
