Oh and even more bad ass than the book.... Going to incubus on the 30th on Denver!!!! I can't fucking wait!!! Been my favorite band for over 10 years and finally get to see them live!!!!

Well it's been an interesting week... Read a book called "The Four Agreements" talk about an amazing book! Gave me a completely different outlook on life... I've had a good outlook about myself and others for a long time but this took it to a whole new level! I highly recommend this book to everyone!

So I went to the doctor for my follow up on my back. I have a milioCT september 4th to see what's causing the excess pain. Hopefully it's easy to fix! He also put me on Valium as my muscle relaxers. Hope it works better than the last ones!

When life gives you lemons come at life with lemon juice and razor blades! The past few days have been hectic and tomorrow will be even more so! The concert was good all though you couldn't drink beer in the stands... Which kind of sucked but had fun anyways! Tomorrow is my son Ryan's birthday. He turns 7! I can't believe he's going to be 7 already! I am truly blessed to have 4 amazing boys! They are all so different and drive me nuts from time to time but they are still amazing boys and I couldn't be happier with them or my life! I hope everyone has an amazing weekend!

Going to Dierks Bentley tonight, it's not really my type of music but could be worse I guess... Going to have some beers and have some fun anyways

So I retract my last blog to just say this.... My blogs lately have been negative however, my life right now is anything but... I do have a few irritations including my back that causes me to be short tempered and negative at times. However, I always try to keep a positive outlook on life even though sometimes life throws me curve balls! Stoked that football has started! Go 49ers! Oh and the broncos can suck it! 24 years of hating that team and I will not stop now! Lol

I would like to apologize to everyone for my contestant negative blogs... My life isn't horrible right now. It's actually going really well. This is the only place I can be myself and say exactly what's on my mind. Sorry if my blogs have annoyed or irritated anyone!

The hardest thing I've ever had to deal with involving my oldest son carter(who isn't my son by birth but I earned Carter's respect enough he still calls me dad even though I've been divorced for 4 years) is the fact that his dad is a fucking asshole! Carter mom was allowing me to keep him for two weeks along with my sons. He went to his dads this weekend and his dad decided he just isnt going to bring him back to me. I am not going to get carter until his mom gets back from new Mexico now. I am so mad and upset I'm not sure if I want to cry, scream or just start breaking things. I have 4 boys. Carter, Ethan, Ryan and Finley and I love them all equally! Blood doesn't matter when you raise someone from when they were two and his dead beat father wasn't in the picture until he was 6 and even then doesn't go to his football games, school activities or other things important to carter. I've been more of a dad the past 9 years to carter than Justin has ever been! Fuck him and his bitch of a wife!!!

Today sucks! Went to a family picnic today which was cool except seeing my grandma so sick breaks my heart... Hurt someone I love and just over today... The pain from my back isn't doing a good enough job distracting me from the pain in my heart!

The moment you remember why you moved out of a house a year ago after already moving back in... Yup, that's this moment!