Amazing how life can take you places you never thought you would be! I keep telling myself it's always darkest before the dawn and that beauty can be found even in the darkness... However it doesn't mean I can always believe it... So much happening lately I feel weighed down... I am losing my momentum to continue on... Seems as though I haven't no one around me to believe in me any more... So many doubt me... I strive to prove them all wrong but life seems to doubt me as well because it hinders me at every turn... I will never give up...

Spending my Saturday with my boys is always awesome! Fin is my favorite today... For this reason -
He writes me osum(awesome) notes and

Is wearing this awesome shirt today!! I love all my boys... Been a fun day so far!
Oh ya, I eat big juicy sausages!!! Hahaha

I hate being this pissed... I am writing off the bitch that basically stole from me...which still leaves me without the 250 bucks she owes me... I don't regret saving her life... Literally... But I do regret trusting her!

Lesson learned!

Well my "friend" has blown me off for the past 5 days... I am really getting pissed that she won't give me my money!

Found out a couple days ago that my most recent ex girlfriend is now engaged to the dude she left me for the second time for on my birthday... I am really starting to think I'm like good luck chuck... Only without the happy ending where he gets the girl...

Working so much has me so sore and my back hurting by the end of the day... But I think it is better now than it has been in a long time! So that's a positive...

Hope you all have a great hump day!

Well my friend finally got ahold of me finally... I will be able to pay more on my child support... I am now able work more hours which with overtime I might be able to get myself caught up! hope everyone has an amazing week!

I'm definitely enjoying the nice weather finally!!!!

Every time you come around, you got me thinking I'm gonna lose it. Every time I talk to you, you better listen, because you need to choose between the things that build you but or tear you down.... You better listen by sublime with Rome has been playing off and on for 5 or 6 days now... Hearing the words and living the words are two separate things! I am going to put the past behind me... Stop playing the fool... Look forward and try to make my situation better any way I can... Still want to just go and leave this place but instead of just wanting to I am going to plan to leave... Put forth some plans to get me out of this town that drags me down!

I feel as though I am not myself lately... Heart seems nonexistent right now... I am getting exhausted with this life... Always going through all the shit alone... I am weary... I hate being here... I feel like this city is dragging me down into the darkness... I long for the green, the rain, the smell and sound of the ocean... Yet I am here in this baren wasteland... I wish I could just pack my bags and start driving... I don't know where to... Just to some place other than here... I'm not sad... I'm actually happy but at the same time I feel emotionally shut down...

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Face is more swollen today than yesterday..I'm on antibiotics so I'm hoping it goes down soon... I'm still short 600 bucks for child support for this month that I need by tonight and I just came back from a funeral for my family friend...

I'm at a loss for words.... How can someone so young that hasn't fucked up his life yet die and I have royally fucked mine up but I'm still here... Doesn't make sense to me...

I have two abscessed teeth, heart hurts tonight... And broke... Today hasn't been great but this song has gotten me through the day... Love love love this song!
http://youtu.be/8NgN-CkIbWk

Despite the craziness and insomnia of last night I was able to upload more pictures on my photography Facebook page... Please check it out!!!

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