I don't want to be the nice guy any more!!! However I can't help it, how do you change your nature? No matter how bad people treat me I look for the good in them. Why can't I just blow some people off? Only ones that can see my worth are my friends and family... No matter how good I treat some one it never matters... I'm fucking stupid for buying flowers for ones I like or love when they have a bad day... When they don't appreciate it! Why can't I just turn my care off? Life would be so much easier if I could turn off my give a fuck for a while!!!