So I just found out an acquaintance of mine died from a drug overdose. It is sad really, I knew her boyfriend had drug problems and I know she was submissive in the extreme, so I wonder how much the two combined to create her misfortune. I am having a hard time feeling bad though. I kinda feel like she made a choice and suffered the consequences and that feels uncharitable or judgmental.

But what really has me upset is that about 30 minutes after I found out, my reaction was "guess I won't get back that book I loaned her". That just makes me feel really selfish.