age: 25 (Sep 12, 1986)
MEMBER SINCE: September 2010
occupation: Lover
sign: Virgo
most humbling moment: Every day of my life
fantasy: Candle lit by the water
crush: A certain Mr.evil eyes sexy smile ** Pretend You Love me **
makes me happy: Cuddles Food Art ...
gets me hot: Kisses all over
heroes: Frida
into: Nerds Food Fashion Photography
makes me sad: racists
i lost my virginity: In your Dreams
BLOGS
Im going to start with how unbelievably heartbroken I feel at 9am this Good Friday morning.
I know its been ages since Ive posted anything but keeping with tradition im going to tell you lovely people tales of my misfortunate dealings in this life of mine.
So I havent been drinking in months bc it is against my diet. ( not trying to lose weight just boosting my immune system)
Ive had a pretty emotional week ... being the genius that I am I decided to get right sloppy last night truly have a Holy Thursday.
I am rediculously infatuated with this guy whom Ive hooked up with causally over the past 7-8 months. So last night Im beyond tipsy and his friends are gathering to leave the bar. I grab hold of him " take me with you" and begin to kiss his face until he kisses me back ... I only recall bits of his reply something to the effect of " I dont know what I want / not tonight / ill call you..." Im not letting go of him to the point of force and he tells me not to do this and i let go and he comes back to me a moment later to remind me we will talk sometime.
Wounded
I do not take rejection welll at all </3
Ive never done this before where I force myself at someone Im always the one who is reserved ( in public ) ( complete heart on sleve in reality ) Im not that messy drunk girl. this was such a weak moment and to have failed miserably in my attempts is such a low blow to my ego Ive been crying ever since i opened my eyes and the events from last night came rushing back to me.
Fail
I know its been ages since Ive posted anything but keeping with tradition im going to tell you lovely people tales of my misfortunate dealings in this life of mine.
So I havent been drinking in months bc it is against my diet. ( not trying to lose weight just boosting my immune system)
Ive had a pretty emotional week ... being the genius that I am I decided to get right sloppy last night truly have a Holy Thursday.
I am rediculously infatuated with this guy whom Ive hooked up with causally over the past 7-8 months. So last night Im beyond tipsy and his friends are gathering to leave the bar. I grab hold of him " take me with you" and begin to kiss his face until he kisses me back ... I only recall bits of his reply something to the effect of " I dont know what I want / not tonight / ill call you..." Im not letting go of him to the point of force and he tells me not to do this and i let go and he comes back to me a moment later to remind me we will talk sometime.
Wounded
I do not take rejection welll at all </3
Ive never done this before where I force myself at someone Im always the one who is reserved ( in public ) ( complete heart on sleve in reality ) Im not that messy drunk girl. this was such a weak moment and to have failed miserably in my attempts is such a low blow to my ego Ive been crying ever since i opened my eyes and the events from last night came rushing back to me.
Fail
As much as you don't want to hear it, sounds like he's not that into you or he was trying to be all cool in front of his friends (or both) You can do better, you just have to believe in that fact and move on before be gets arou d to "the talk" He'll continue to just fuck you as long as you let him. If you're okay with that, then what I say here is irrelevant, but you know you want more than that and deserve it. 
xo
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