Well, I'll be leaving the SG community soon, I may be back later, I may not. I just know my funds can't cover the expenses anymore... I've got too much payments, especially since I just got BREAST IMPLANTS!! lol I'm so excited about them! I wish I could show you all pictures, and I might if I ever come back on the site... But you can keep up with me on http://www.zivity.com/models/Ayako :] I've got a few photosets up, so feel free to vote ;P

And if you're wondering, I got a small "C" cup :]

Take care everyone!!

<3 Ayako

Sorry I haven't been on in a while, but I just got my first set up on www.zivity.com!! Go check it out and vote if you like :3
http://www.zivity.com/models/Ayako/photosets/1
Here's a little preview ;D :

:] Thanks for all your kind words, everyone :] I shouldn't be depressed anymore, but alas, it seems to be getting worse everyday... I'm going to my grandma's 80th birthday party this weekend, and I'm not looking forward to it. My family, at least the ones that I don't get to see very often, don't seem to be very accepting of my pink hair. But we'll see... My sister says my grandma just doesn't know how to act around me with pink hair, and maybe that's true... I guess we'll find out this weekend. I don't really know what's been wrong with me lately, I just have been moody and depressed. NO it's NOT my period. XP I don't know. *sigh* But I appreciate everyone's comments about my weight :] I think I have a weight complex due to the fact that I grew up with two sisters who were EXTREMELY skinny, I guess they both got my dad's metabolism. Plus, they both got my mom's feminine looks, while I'm the only one with my dads male looks. I just have issues. I'm going to hopefully try and find a therapist soon... I've fallen out of modeling YET AGAIN because I've been depressed. I don't want to book a shoot while I feel like I'm not the weight I want to be, because I'll just feel self conscious the entire time. I'm so pathetic.
Sorry to be so depressing, but I need to vent. Thanks for reading I guess...

p.s. You should all still vote for my set :] Ayako-Free Kitty

OMG thank you all so much for your wonderful comments on my set!
I'll post a link to it for other people who have yet to comment ^_^

Ayako-Free Kitty

And thanks to all who posted a comment on my last blog, I really appreciate it... I hope the week goes better :/ In fact, I should probably go to bed right now b/c I have to get up at 10:30 to go BACK to work even though I just got OFF of work >.> Stupid job...

Also, thank you all for your messages and friend requests... I'll get to them all as soon as I can ^_^ I like to actually go to the peoples profiles rather than just mindlessly hitting accept or deny And I'll make sure to reply to all of your messages asap as well.. It's just with the holidays and all this fricken work I have to put in, it may be a while ^^ But thank you all so much!!!

So I found out this week that I have to work on Saturday. And Christmas Eve. And New Years Eve. And I don't get my off day the week of New Years. Oh, but the "up side" is that we get off at 11:30 pm New Years Eve and Christmas Eve, so we have a HALF HOUR off work to celebrate. Whoop-dee-fucking-doo. It takes me a half hour to get home anyways, so what's the fucking point. Happy fucking holidays.

Oh, and NOT ONLY that, but we ALSO received a lovely "gift" on our computer from an anonymous virus. We tried to transfer all of the important stuff onto an external hard drive, and then recover the computer("refresh" it I guess), and come to find out, AFTER wiping out everything on our computer, that what we saved onto the hard drive was actually just a "shortcut" to everything. Son of a bitch. So now all the pictures we had, all the videos we had, all the pictures Sean has drawn and tried to edit, gone. All gone.

Fuck this shit. I'm so fucking pissed I can't stand it. Great fucking week.

On a more CHIPPER note, my set is due to go up at around 1:30 pm today for member review :] Be sure to watch for it! I'll probably still be asleep by then, lol... But I'll post a link to it when it goes up :]