Diabo III tonight at midnight!
Who's playing this game as well?
How is everyone else doing?
Who's playing this game as well?
How is everyone else doing?
Holy shit.....
It was announced that there is going to be a MMO of The Elder Scrolls series. So those of you that have played Morrowind, Oblivion and/or Skyrim... hold on to your butts
Nerd boners all around!
<3
It was announced that there is going to be a MMO of The Elder Scrolls series. So those of you that have played Morrowind, Oblivion and/or Skyrim... hold on to your butts
Nerd boners all around!
<3
Well since it's the middle of the night, and I have spent most of it tossing in bed, I thought that I would just get up and update my blog.
A lot has happened in the last month or so. I had to pay ten thousand dollars out of pocket to my university for past student loans, so I could get back into school. On top of that I had to re-apply to the English department because I dropped out five years ago. I had to write an essay talking about how my depression was the cause of my academic dismissal and explain the fact that I am now medicated and not the same man I was all those years ago. So after doing that the school sent me a letter telling me I was accepted! Which was a very good moment for me because as soon as I read the first line "Congratulations..." I was pretty much in tears. Most people who have read this blog for at least a year or two will know that dropping out of school has been very hard on me. So getting the green light to return and finish what I started is a huge boost. In August I return to take the last two classes for my Bachelors in English: Literary Studies. I graduate in December
I also came across some freelance photography work for Iowa State University. This coming weekend I am helping take photos of all the different graduation ceremonies, which will be a ton of fun and really easy good money.
Since I am graduating in December, I am trying to figure out where I want to go (because I am sick of Iowa). I'm debating if I want to head to one of the coasts or not. Both of them have pros and cons, plus I do know people on both sides of the country. I just know that after coming home and being in this state for almost a year now, that I will not spend live here after school.
Also... AVENGERS this weekend! I will be in the theaters at least three times just basking in the glory that is The Avengers. I have a nerdboner just thinking about it.
24 has been consuming my free time. I've watched 3 seasons in about a week! I've always had a huge interest in intelligence agency type shows/movies (Bourne Trilogy comes to mind) and this show delivers in a huge way.
And here's my ugly mug
Hope all you boys and girls are doing well
El Fin <3
A lot has happened in the last month or so. I had to pay ten thousand dollars out of pocket to my university for past student loans, so I could get back into school. On top of that I had to re-apply to the English department because I dropped out five years ago. I had to write an essay talking about how my depression was the cause of my academic dismissal and explain the fact that I am now medicated and not the same man I was all those years ago. So after doing that the school sent me a letter telling me I was accepted! Which was a very good moment for me because as soon as I read the first line "Congratulations..." I was pretty much in tears. Most people who have read this blog for at least a year or two will know that dropping out of school has been very hard on me. So getting the green light to return and finish what I started is a huge boost. In August I return to take the last two classes for my Bachelors in English: Literary Studies. I graduate in December
I also came across some freelance photography work for Iowa State University. This coming weekend I am helping take photos of all the different graduation ceremonies, which will be a ton of fun and really easy good money.
Since I am graduating in December, I am trying to figure out where I want to go (because I am sick of Iowa). I'm debating if I want to head to one of the coasts or not. Both of them have pros and cons, plus I do know people on both sides of the country. I just know that after coming home and being in this state for almost a year now, that I will not spend live here after school.
Also... AVENGERS this weekend! I will be in the theaters at least three times just basking in the glory that is The Avengers. I have a nerdboner just thinking about it.
24 has been consuming my free time. I've watched 3 seasons in about a week! I've always had a huge interest in intelligence agency type shows/movies (Bourne Trilogy comes to mind) and this show delivers in a huge way.
And here's my ugly mug
Hope all you boys and girls are doing well
El Fin <3
I apologize for the fact that I have done a terrible job blogging over the past couple of months. That's about to change!
Expect something big tomorrow
But for now, here's a little nerdiness thrown your way. Hold on to your pocket protectors
AVENGERS IN A WEEK! Love this photo
I just found all these old Next Generation figurines in storage from when I was a kid. I have two dozen of them and they are all still in the packaging. Needless to say, I have them on display in my room
I'm working on making my book collection like this.... or maybe I just need to open a small quaint bookstore. Either way, I need MOAR books!
That's all for now, if anyone is still out there. I'll post a real update tomorrow (or today since it's 630 in the morning already). Stay classy
El Fin <3
Expect something big tomorrow
But for now, here's a little nerdiness thrown your way. Hold on to your pocket protectors
AVENGERS IN A WEEK! Love this photo
I just found all these old Next Generation figurines in storage from when I was a kid. I have two dozen of them and they are all still in the packaging. Needless to say, I have them on display in my room
I'm working on making my book collection like this.... or maybe I just need to open a small quaint bookstore. Either way, I need MOAR books!
That's all for now, if anyone is still out there. I'll post a real update tomorrow (or today since it's 630 in the morning already). Stay classy
El Fin <3
Part of my goodness was received and confirmed today!
I got my letter of acceptance from Iowa State, welcoming back in for the fall semester! I have been waiting and waiting for nearly five years for this moment. Now I get to go back in August, finish my two glasses and graduate this December with an English: Literary Studies degree! Holy fuck was I stunned. I cried my eyes out when I saw the words "Congratulations!" Phew
More to come friends
<3 El Fin
I got my letter of acceptance from Iowa State, welcoming back in for the fall semester! I have been waiting and waiting for nearly five years for this moment. Now I get to go back in August, finish my two glasses and graduate this December with an English: Literary Studies degree! Holy fuck was I stunned. I cried my eyes out when I saw the words "Congratulations!" Phew
More to come friends
<3 El Fin
Well after a short break, I have returned A lot has happened in a few weeks so stay tuned, so I can fill you all in !
A lot has happened in a few weeks so stay tuned, so I can fill you all in !It has been some time since I wrote a blog, so I thought I'd fill you guys in on what's been going on.
With my tax return this year, I decided to buy a new tv and a Playstation 3! It has been a pretty nice change of pace from the strict computer gaming of the last five years. I haven't owned a console in so long!
I only have Call of Duty: Black Ops and Final Fantasy XIII right now. I did download Final Fantasy 7 last night because it's a childhood favorite of mine.
Anyone have any good PSONE or PS2 rpgs that they would recommend to me? I'm eager to try some new ones out this weekend
Besides that, I am still jobless. I continue to collect unemployment which is far more than I need to survive. I just bank what I don't need in order to save for a car. I didn't think it would take so long to do so because I do need a car pretty bad.
Also it looks like I will be going back to school this summer to finish my BA in English.... just as long as nothing happens on the school's end between now and then.
How's everyone else doing?
El Fin <3
With my tax return this year, I decided to buy a new tv and a Playstation 3! It has been a pretty nice change of pace from the strict computer gaming of the last five years. I haven't owned a console in so long!
I only have Call of Duty: Black Ops and Final Fantasy XIII right now. I did download Final Fantasy 7 last night because it's a childhood favorite of mine.
Anyone have any good PSONE or PS2 rpgs that they would recommend to me? I'm eager to try some new ones out this weekend
Besides that, I am still jobless. I continue to collect unemployment which is far more than I need to survive. I just bank what I don't need in order to save for a car. I didn't think it would take so long to do so because I do need a car pretty bad.
Also it looks like I will be going back to school this summer to finish my BA in English.... just as long as nothing happens on the school's end between now and then.
How's everyone else doing?
El Fin <3
Sunday:
I have no idea what it is about Sundays that make me feel like I have to look deep within myself and ponder my life, it's failings and what I need to do to get out of my current situation, but needless to say... I hate it. The funny thing is that this day was starting out alright. I had to run to the bookstore and Best Buy this afternoon, and since it was 50 degrees (and the fact that I still don't have a car), I decided to walk the mile down the road to both of these places to conduct business. Jimmy Eat World's "Futures" accompanied me on my walk which made things even better. Until...
I get to a stoplight and pull out my iPhone to change the track only to hear "faggot" screamed out of a window as this car drives by me. Now this isn't the first time that I have heard this term under these conditions, but it has been probably a few years since the last encounter that I can recall. At first I had to take a moment to just push it down and collect myself. Then I was fine, and I continued on my way. I got to both places and took care of what I needed to do without incident. On the way home I was just walking down the street and again someone, in a completely different vehicle mind you, shouts "you faggot" and laughs really loud as they drive by.
Let me be perfectly clear about something, I am not gay nor do I hate/am scared/or am offended by those that are homosexual. I have many gay friends that are on and are off this site.
This time I stopped dead in my tracks and just stood there for probably a good minute or two. The heavy flow of Sunday track flew past me, and all I could do in those few brief moments, was try to figure out why someone... some persons, would have any reason to call me a faggot. Is it because I am walking? The iPhone music? My black coat? Glasses? I was literally trying to figure this out because once is a coincidence but twice in the same afternoon? There's more to it than that. So after being shaken quite severely, I choked down the tears welling in my eyes, and I made the rest of the walk home and threw my stuff down on my bed. Before even turning my computer on, I just sat in my desk chair: confused, hurt and feeling quite alone. Those feelings still linger around me as I write this to you, but I feel at least comfortable enough to know that someone isn't going to leap out of the monitor and yell "faggot" at me.
People here that I know always harass me for not going out and being "social", but you know it's a day like this that gives me all the justification that I require in order to be a hermit. I choose to stay in because people can be very cruel...it's not because of some social awkwardness I have with mankind. I am very articulate and polite with people in public settings. I may be shy, but it never progresses past a level of awkwardness that would make anyone or even myself uncomfortable in public.
I think it all boils down to the fact that I need to leave Iowa and soon. I would gladly leave with nothing but the clothes on my back and strike out somewhere completely foreign and alien to me, instead of staying here under the most prosperous of circumstances. A clean slate; a fresh state of mind would do me good, I think. I only require a chance... an opportunity to make one thing go right for me.
What a day
El Fin <3
I have no idea what it is about Sundays that make me feel like I have to look deep within myself and ponder my life, it's failings and what I need to do to get out of my current situation, but needless to say... I hate it. The funny thing is that this day was starting out alright. I had to run to the bookstore and Best Buy this afternoon, and since it was 50 degrees (and the fact that I still don't have a car), I decided to walk the mile down the road to both of these places to conduct business. Jimmy Eat World's "Futures" accompanied me on my walk which made things even better. Until...
I get to a stoplight and pull out my iPhone to change the track only to hear "faggot" screamed out of a window as this car drives by me. Now this isn't the first time that I have heard this term under these conditions, but it has been probably a few years since the last encounter that I can recall. At first I had to take a moment to just push it down and collect myself. Then I was fine, and I continued on my way. I got to both places and took care of what I needed to do without incident. On the way home I was just walking down the street and again someone, in a completely different vehicle mind you, shouts "you faggot" and laughs really loud as they drive by.
Let me be perfectly clear about something, I am not gay nor do I hate/am scared/or am offended by those that are homosexual. I have many gay friends that are on and are off this site.
This time I stopped dead in my tracks and just stood there for probably a good minute or two. The heavy flow of Sunday track flew past me, and all I could do in those few brief moments, was try to figure out why someone... some persons, would have any reason to call me a faggot. Is it because I am walking? The iPhone music? My black coat? Glasses? I was literally trying to figure this out because once is a coincidence but twice in the same afternoon? There's more to it than that. So after being shaken quite severely, I choked down the tears welling in my eyes, and I made the rest of the walk home and threw my stuff down on my bed. Before even turning my computer on, I just sat in my desk chair: confused, hurt and feeling quite alone. Those feelings still linger around me as I write this to you, but I feel at least comfortable enough to know that someone isn't going to leap out of the monitor and yell "faggot" at me.
People here that I know always harass me for not going out and being "social", but you know it's a day like this that gives me all the justification that I require in order to be a hermit. I choose to stay in because people can be very cruel...it's not because of some social awkwardness I have with mankind. I am very articulate and polite with people in public settings. I may be shy, but it never progresses past a level of awkwardness that would make anyone or even myself uncomfortable in public.
I think it all boils down to the fact that I need to leave Iowa and soon. I would gladly leave with nothing but the clothes on my back and strike out somewhere completely foreign and alien to me, instead of staying here under the most prosperous of circumstances. A clean slate; a fresh state of mind would do me good, I think. I only require a chance... an opportunity to make one thing go right for me.
What a day
El Fin <3
I'm going to go ahead and warn everyone who is reading this ahead of time that this will indeed be a rant. For those that have been long time readers of my blog, will know that I can definitely go off for a while. So here goes:
I hate 2012 so far. I think we could just go ahead and scrap the rest of the calendar and start again with 2013 because this just won't do. That, or could we take a mulligan... a do-over, if you will. Nothing is falling into place quite like I expected it to, and for that reason I feel that this year has gotten off to a horrible start. Judging by some of the other bloggers on this site, I have the feeling that I'm not the only one that feels this way.
Besides being sick the first week of the year, I would have to say that I have been generally unhappy with the universe... and more importantly myself. The life I came home to is not in the least bit the same as how I left it two years ago. Honestly, I knew that not everything would keep the same in my absence, but the only things that have stayed the same are nothing by annoying, and the things that I wanted to remain the same, but changed in the time passed, have made living in Iowa completely intolerable. If I had the chance or opportunity to pick up what little I have and move somewhere... anywhere else in the country, I would be gone in a heartbeat. There is nothing left for me here. My family is not a reason to stay anymore. They have done nothing to help me since I have been back... it's been evident since day one that I would be going alone from here on out. Words are all I get from them... words and really empty passive-aggressive advice. Constructive...
I've started to compartmentalize my emotions once again. Let me be more specific. I have begun to bottle everything up again. Those that I try to reach out to in my group of friends are less than responsive nor caring. I went from being alone halfway around the world to being completely alone in my own natural surroundings. It's terrible, and it makes me want to run.
I apologize. I'm sure that this blog makes little or no sense, so I should probably stop before I keep rambling.
Love you all
El Fin <3
I hate 2012 so far. I think we could just go ahead and scrap the rest of the calendar and start again with 2013 because this just won't do. That, or could we take a mulligan... a do-over, if you will. Nothing is falling into place quite like I expected it to, and for that reason I feel that this year has gotten off to a horrible start. Judging by some of the other bloggers on this site, I have the feeling that I'm not the only one that feels this way.
Besides being sick the first week of the year, I would have to say that I have been generally unhappy with the universe... and more importantly myself. The life I came home to is not in the least bit the same as how I left it two years ago. Honestly, I knew that not everything would keep the same in my absence, but the only things that have stayed the same are nothing by annoying, and the things that I wanted to remain the same, but changed in the time passed, have made living in Iowa completely intolerable. If I had the chance or opportunity to pick up what little I have and move somewhere... anywhere else in the country, I would be gone in a heartbeat. There is nothing left for me here. My family is not a reason to stay anymore. They have done nothing to help me since I have been back... it's been evident since day one that I would be going alone from here on out. Words are all I get from them... words and really empty passive-aggressive advice. Constructive...
I've started to compartmentalize my emotions once again. Let me be more specific. I have begun to bottle everything up again. Those that I try to reach out to in my group of friends are less than responsive nor caring. I went from being alone halfway around the world to being completely alone in my own natural surroundings. It's terrible, and it makes me want to run.
I apologize. I'm sure that this blog makes little or no sense, so I should probably stop before I keep rambling.
Love you all
El Fin <3
