Good morning, SGers.
I have no clue why I am up this early on my day off, but I figured that since I had the time, I would write a short little blog. Today is Tuesday: poker day. I go play in a texas hold'em tournament about once a week because I have an addiction to cards, apparently. I do pretty well and even bring home some extra cash sometimes.
Since the last blog, I have done a lot of thinking... then more thinking. It seems to be what I do nowadays. I have seen a lot of things in literature over the years that tell us that we are the masters of our own lives. That we have the power to do and be anything that we really want. The only thing stopping us is our own limitations and our own laziness. It goes back to the whole "if you put your mind to it, you can accomplish anything" mentality from Back to the Future. It certainly worked for George McFly. And if it can work for George, then why the hell not for me. I guess, I have to take it one day at a time. I can't possibly lay out a future days, months and years and advance and stress about all those moments from now to then. I would go crazy with worry. All that I can do is just worry about this moment and make sure that it is a good choice.... one of many that leads to the things that I do want. And some of you had asked me if me getting "buff" is really going to make me happy or will it just make me think that I will be socially acceptable, and the answer is: both. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be socially acceptable. I'd rather spend my days as a bandwagoner, instead of being the social outcast. I think it's because I have spent a good deal of the last year home alone. If I was more of a socially accepted person then perhaps my days would have been filled with more happiness and fun... not sitting around at home all the time.
Don't get me wrong... I have no regrets. Everything happens for a reason, and I am firm in my belief that ever moment from the time I was born until now is building up to something. It always has and always will.
Well, enough of my musing for the morning. I need to put clothes on and try to be productive before I go gamble. I hope everyone is healthy and doing well. Let me know how you are doing though. I miss being on here more.
El Fin <3
I have no clue why I am up this early on my day off, but I figured that since I had the time, I would write a short little blog. Today is Tuesday: poker day. I go play in a texas hold'em tournament about once a week because I have an addiction to cards, apparently. I do pretty well and even bring home some extra cash sometimes.
Since the last blog, I have done a lot of thinking... then more thinking. It seems to be what I do nowadays. I have seen a lot of things in literature over the years that tell us that we are the masters of our own lives. That we have the power to do and be anything that we really want. The only thing stopping us is our own limitations and our own laziness. It goes back to the whole "if you put your mind to it, you can accomplish anything" mentality from Back to the Future. It certainly worked for George McFly. And if it can work for George, then why the hell not for me. I guess, I have to take it one day at a time. I can't possibly lay out a future days, months and years and advance and stress about all those moments from now to then. I would go crazy with worry. All that I can do is just worry about this moment and make sure that it is a good choice.... one of many that leads to the things that I do want. And some of you had asked me if me getting "buff" is really going to make me happy or will it just make me think that I will be socially acceptable, and the answer is: both. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be socially acceptable. I'd rather spend my days as a bandwagoner, instead of being the social outcast. I think it's because I have spent a good deal of the last year home alone. If I was more of a socially accepted person then perhaps my days would have been filled with more happiness and fun... not sitting around at home all the time.
Don't get me wrong... I have no regrets. Everything happens for a reason, and I am firm in my belief that ever moment from the time I was born until now is building up to something. It always has and always will.
Well, enough of my musing for the morning. I need to put clothes on and try to be productive before I go gamble. I hope everyone is healthy and doing well. Let me know how you are doing though. I miss being on here more.
El Fin <3
AUG 07, 2012 06:38 AM
AUG 07, 2012 05:39 PM
thnaks 
AUG 09, 2012 04:34 PM
Glad you do 
AUG 10, 2012 08:54 AM
You do what makes you happy
