Wow, Its been way too long since I was last on here. I guess its high time to dust the cobwebs off of my profile and get back into this site. There are too many beautiful women that are in need of appreciation and admiration.

My life has been fairly hectic over the past few months. I invested my free time into online dating and gained nothing in return. But nothing ventured, nothing gained. I have moved into a new house, a shared house with 3-5 other women. Its going to be nice to get some feminine input and social interactions into my life. Here's hoping for the best.

Uni life is going alright. Got high(ish) marks for my first year results and couldn't be more proud of myself. Its the little things.

So here's to me re-appreciating SG. I know not many people will read my blog, but I will try and update it regularly, with less complaining about my shitty life and more interesting ideas and theories. I shall also restart commenting on any interesting blogs(or blogs of attractive women, I am still just a man ) I find, sharing my warped sense of wisdom.

Still holding up the sky, Starting to ask why? (Thumbs up for unintentional rhyming )
Atlas

Its been way too long since my last post...
Sorry everyone if you've missed me, I've just not been feeling up to blogging. I was getting sick of my own self-pitting blogs that are no fun to write or read. So big smiles and cheery thoughts at all times
Not much has been happening, Spend most of my time doing assignments for Uni, at least their fairly fun. Dating sites are still turning up nothing, but I guess most people on there are shy. Gotten back into my music again, so any suggestions for something new would be great
So whats been happening with you guys? Feel free to give me a shout about anything, I'm always one to listen rather than be heard.
Still standing tall
Atlas

Sorry for the long time between posts but fuck it
I'm looking after my family's farm while there away, and to keep me occupied they gave me a metric fuck ton of booze. So after drinking since lunch and singing along to some music, I've decided to blog. It also helps that i'm currently naked
Still depressed, no surprise there. bit the bullet and joined eharmony instead of eating next month. so far its a piece of shit, but early days and such. Anyone in England that wants to help me ave money and meet me instead are more than welcome. No money, but at least i'm *sommthing flattering*
Shit this is my tune *slurred singing*
Hurrah for free beer and spellchecker
Atlas

I feel pathetic. Just came home from a night out, rejected and feeling like shit. Now it seems that even the online takeaways are trying to mock me. I'm tired of being alone, being single, but no matter how hard I fight I always seem to fail. I can't fail again, not after what happened last year....

Still trying to order a damned pizza
Atlas

I am in pain. My body aches, I can barely stand and my heart strains every beat. Even with my pain killers, I am struggling to cope. What is it about emotional pain that causes the physical to become unbearable? This amplified pain is causing me to panic that I might relapse into who I was this time last year. I'm scared that all of my hard work and efforts can be so easily undone by me being alone for so long. This soul crushing loneliness is preventing me from being me. I go out less and less, fearing the physical and emotional pain more than the chance of companionship. I can't focus on my work, my mind too filled with useless thoughts. I can barely walk, the pain in my ankles exaggerated by my unwillingness to fight the pain. Moping on here wont help, but the thought of someone casually reading this and simply typing it out is a small relief.

Still fighting a loosing battle
Atlas

Tried to write a blog, but I just can't seem too. Its like talking to a brick wall, the only reply is a quizzical look from passers by...

Lets start of with something simple.
I would like everyone to show Shebari some love in her new set: Dude, Where's My Tank
Its an awesome set that deserves much more love than its currently getting, so I want to do my part

Anyway, on to me and my sad life. Feeling worse than yesterday, as all of my Uni friends seem to have abandoned me. Part of this is my fault, as I don't make many friends and I rely to heavily on the few I have. However, No one has spoken to me throughout the entire day, even while I try and speak to them. I thought people grew out of "the cold shoulder" when they start Uni. I've always been a loner, but normally through choice, Its a depressing feeling to have that choice made for you. So I'm struggling with that, and all the extra circumstances that I won't go to much into right now.
Its a shame that I will probably never meet anyone on here in real life. I have gained so much from the SG community, and there are people on here I'd love to take out for a coffee or a drink. Its also a shame that I can't check random people's profile pages in real life, giving me a head start on less awkward ice breakers.
For the meantime I'll bury my head in my Uni work to distract me from everything, even though I keep having to miss lectures due to hospital appointments.
It takes a lot of strength to cope with all of life's difficulties every day, and I'm doing all I can to keep standing, metaphorically speaking.
Ending this on a geekier note, here is a picture of my Velociraptor skull. Man, I love dinosaurs

Atlas

Feeling incredibly lonely
My friend of many years seems to have "moved on" away from me. He has this new group of friends that doesn't seem to want me involved with them. Most people would understand that people meet new people and move one, that's life. But I've never experienced this from any other point of view. I simply can't make new friends. Even the few I've made on here i keep over thinking things. Its just something I do
Just want someone to give me a Hug and say "you're not alone"
Atlas

Starting to come down with something
Really can't be bothered with it, I'm having a hard time getting back into the rhythm of Uni.
Plus I have about 3 different doctors appointments over the next few weeks.
Does anyone want to come look after a poorly giant
Atlas

Its those little victories. At long last, with plenty of support from friends, I have changed my profile. I am no longer hiding in the shadows. No more being afraid of what people might think of how I look.
I am Atlas, and I am a good guy