For every boy who is burdened with the constant expectation of knowing everything, there is a girl TIRED OF PEOPLE NOT TRUSTING HER INTELLIGENCE.

I want my own apartment so I can have free space and decorate it how i want and be alone and not be bothered by people that I don't like and roommates who don't clean or get toilet paper. I should definately look into that. I want one of those beds that is inside a wall. Like a little cove with doors. I mean, it's not going to happen for a while but I'm just putting it out there. I need my own space that's a little bigger than the walk in closet bedroom that i live in at school. Also, I need to start a big art project. Something substantial that will make me feel less of a waste of life. Somehow, all this reading and writing papers nonsense does not nearly come close to making me feel as accomplished as photographing and printing does.

I am so restless. Wednesday is so close.

Donald Rumsfeld has resigned! Is anyone else as happy as I am about this?? My friend told me today and I made him repeat it about 6 times before it actually sunk in and I believed him. Then I screamed "Holy Shit" in the loudest most excitedest way I could. The democrats have taken power which is good in a way but people should not get carried away. Yes there are alot of victories and firsts. First woman speaker of the house, first socialist, first Muslim, second person of color ever in massachusetts. Other things. Really it is just one baby step in the right direction. Many things could or could not happen. We shall see.

I have a new obsession, Picasa!


In other news, I am holding my breath.

I mean, what do you say about this? Fox news is a farce and Sean Hannity can go fuck himself. God this makes me so mad.

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This isn't good when I have to wake up early and do important things that I can't slack on. I don't think I've fallen asleep at the earliest before 5:30 am in probably about two weeks. I am so anxious to get out of here. I am so tired all the time. Time now is just waiting untill the next time. It's getting closer and closer and each day it's getting harder and harder. I don't know what to do with myself. I watched The Good Girl last night after staring into the darkness forever and I cried myself to sleep. Such a good movie. Soooo soo sad and right now i can relate in a way so that just made it even more. Maybe I'll do the same tonight.

So I got into a car accident on saturday. I am still really really freaked out about everything and really really pissed about not having my car anymore. It was completely destoyed. It's so hard to live without a car and that really sucks because I wish I could live without one but I can't. Really I am just glad I didnt get injured more than I did. I could have died if I was going any faster than I was. All my wounds had better be healed in a month though because that's when the fun is going to begin.

love and pain or loneliness?

1. I found my phone. Well, I didn't find it, but someone else did on the subway no less and returned it. Oh humanity, what am I going to do with you?
2. I've been in a really shitty mood for the past three or so days. School is too overwhelming to even think about.
3. I'm a ghost (see below.)