Day 2 of not smoking REAL cigarettes. Been smoking these e-cigs but come to find out these cheap-o's don't last as long. May have to order a kit with rechargeable batteries - refills etc.
I can tell I'm getting more irritated - especially at work w/ the b.s. I'm dealing with. But I do NOT want to let stress get the best of me and make me go back to smoking the real thing again. Gotta stay on track. Quitting is by far one of the hardest things to do.
I need to work out - that will relieve some stress!!! I'm in definite need of another certain type of STRESS RELIEVER!!!
BIG TIME!!!! 
I can tell I'm getting more irritated - especially at work w/ the b.s. I'm dealing with. But I do NOT want to let stress get the best of me and make me go back to smoking the real thing again. Gotta stay on track. Quitting is by far one of the hardest things to do.
I need to work out - that will relieve some stress!!! I'm in definite need of another certain type of STRESS RELIEVER!!!
BIG TIME!!!! 
I'm a smoker - booooooooooo!!! But... I've been wanting to quit for the longest time.. especially now that I've been working out again.
I've been hearing a lot about this new electronic cigarette. After having a smoke this morning I felt like, blah!!! So I decided to look up the e-cig online and read into it. There are pro's and con's just like everything else out in this world when it comes to something new. I decided to make a trip to the Racetrac and purchased one. One E-Cigarette device cost me 8 bucks where-as a pack of cigarettes cost me roughly 6-plus bucks. But with the e-cig it will last you about 2 packs worth of regular cigarettes. Pretty cheap!!!
So I won't be inhaling toxic chemicals into my body, which is a plus. I'll still get nicotine though. I won't be smelling like disgusting cigarettes either!!! With being a smoker, I couldn't stand the smell. Every time I have a cig I always washed my hands and brushed my teeth, if I were home.
I really like this little device. It looks and feels like the REAL thing. I can use it inside instead of going outside when it's humid or cold as F$%K!!! I took about 5 or 6 puffs from it and it was like.. that's all I wanted. Kinda neat... hopefully this is the solution to reaching my goal of stop smoking!!! I've heard a lot of people liked it and stopped smoking from it so.... wish me luck on my new adventure Cuz I ain't gettin' any younger... ya know?! lol
I've been hearing a lot about this new electronic cigarette. After having a smoke this morning I felt like, blah!!! So I decided to look up the e-cig online and read into it. There are pro's and con's just like everything else out in this world when it comes to something new. I decided to make a trip to the Racetrac and purchased one. One E-Cigarette device cost me 8 bucks where-as a pack of cigarettes cost me roughly 6-plus bucks. But with the e-cig it will last you about 2 packs worth of regular cigarettes. Pretty cheap!!!
So I won't be inhaling toxic chemicals into my body, which is a plus. I'll still get nicotine though. I won't be smelling like disgusting cigarettes either!!! With being a smoker, I couldn't stand the smell. Every time I have a cig I always washed my hands and brushed my teeth, if I were home.
I really like this little device. It looks and feels like the REAL thing. I can use it inside instead of going outside when it's humid or cold as F$%K!!! I took about 5 or 6 puffs from it and it was like.. that's all I wanted. Kinda neat... hopefully this is the solution to reaching my goal of stop smoking!!! I've heard a lot of people liked it and stopped smoking from it so.... wish me luck on my new adventure
Cuz I ain't gettin' any younger... ya know?! lol I was talking to one of my manager's at work. He's an assistant store manager but will be a store manager very soon. He's going for his interview sometime this week for a store that has an opening. So talking to him about it... he said I really should apply for his position because the pay rate just increased by a substantial amount. When he told me the yearly rate my jaw almost dropped. It's not like in the 100 k's ... lets just say it's a weeee bit more than half that So yeah.. I'm stoked. I'm definitely applying for an Asst. Store Mgr's position soon! I'm a receiving manager right now - Been there about a year and was a department manager for a few years prior to that. Time for change!!!
With all that being said... I can definitely live MORE comfortably on that salary and this will put me MORE within reach of my goal of buying/owning my OWN HOME!!!
2013 HAS to be the year for me... gotta make things happen... I want to have a place I can truly call MY HOME.. as well as for my SON!!!!
Wish me luck!!!
So yeah.. I'm stoked. I'm definitely applying for an Asst. Store Mgr's position soon! I'm a receiving manager right now - Been there about a year and was a department manager for a few years prior to that. Time for change!!!With all that being said... I can definitely live MORE comfortably on that salary and this will put me MORE within reach of my goal of buying/owning my OWN HOME!!!
2013 HAS to be the year for me... gotta make things happen... I want to have a place I can truly call MY HOME.. as well as for my SON!!!!
Wish me luck!!!
Bored - finished this umm... weird design lol. Don't know wtf it is or what I'd call it - just a random design I created.
Tonight is MY Friday... it's cold down here in FLORIDA - burrrrrrrrrr! I think some Fireball Cinnamon Whiskey in in order to keep me warm tonight. Who wants to join me? 
WHEW... what an awkward moment talking to my ex-wife... well she's not my EX-wife YET. We've been separated almost 6 years. I got the paperwork all worked up from my aunt's boss/attorney - signed the papers and gave them to her. But she moved and in the process of her moving she lost the paper work.
She's always been on my facebook and we've never really discussed the divorce - well we have several years ago but never did anything about it. She sent me a message via FB messenger and was kind of talking all sweet to me.. not flirty but just being very complimentary and such. I was like.. hmm.. this is weird. I was thinking... OMG.. does she REALLY want to work things out? I actually had this thought of... hmm... do I want to make this work? Do I still have feelings for this woman? lmao. She's gorgeous - don't get me wrong... she just had major issues in the past which is what lead to us "breaking up" lol.
Well... after our little chit-chat she finally asked... so what do we need to do to get this divorce taken care of. A big sigh of relief came over me!!! I really did NOT want to give US another shot - It probably wouldn't have worked out anyway. So I'm in discussion with her about how we are going to get this divorce finalized.
She and I will remain friends... probably just through Facebook which is the best way to go. I've been single for 5 years and right now I'm just not ready to dive into a relationship... as soon as I've done some more soul searching for ME... and strive at reaching certain goals I've made for myself... then I'll start the process of getting back into the dating scene. For now... single life is kinda nice ... for the time being anyway.
She's always been on my facebook and we've never really discussed the divorce - well we have several years ago but never did anything about it. She sent me a message via FB messenger and was kind of talking all sweet to me.. not flirty but just being very complimentary and such. I was like.. hmm.. this is weird. I was thinking... OMG.. does she REALLY want to work things out? I actually had this thought of... hmm... do I want to make this work? Do I still have feelings for this woman? lmao. She's gorgeous - don't get me wrong... she just had major issues in the past which is what lead to us "breaking up" lol.
Well... after our little chit-chat she finally asked... so what do we need to do to get this divorce taken care of. A big sigh of relief came over me!!!
I really did NOT want to give US another shot - It probably wouldn't have worked out anyway. So I'm in discussion with her about how we are going to get this divorce finalized. She and I will remain friends... probably just through Facebook which is the best way to go. I've been single for 5 years and right now I'm just not ready to dive into a relationship... as soon as I've done some more soul searching for ME... and strive at reaching certain goals I've made for myself... then I'll start the process of getting back into the dating scene. For now... single life is kinda nice ... for the time being anyway.
I caught a chill
And it's still frozen on my skin
I think about why
I'm alone, by myself
No one else to explain
How far do I go
No one knows
If the end is so much better why don't we just live forever
Don't tell me I'm the last one in line
Don't tell me I'm too late this time
[Chorus:]
I don't want to live
To waste another day
Underneath the shadow of mistakes I made
'Cause I feel like I'm breaking inside
I don't want to fall and say I lost it all
'Cause baby there's a part of me to hit the wall
Leaving pieces of me behind
And I feel like I'm breaking inside
Out here, nothings clear
Except the moment I decided to move on and I ignited
Disappear into the fear
You know there ain't no comin' back
When you're still carrying the past
You can't erase, separate
Cigarette in my hand,
Hope you all understand
I won't be the last one in line
I finally figured out what's mine
[Chorus]
I won't be the last one in line
I finally figured out what's mine
[Chorus]
Leaving pieces of me behind
And I feel like I'm breaking inside
And I feel like I'm breaking
I feel like I'm breaking inside
Shinedown "Breaking Inside"
And it's still frozen on my skin
I think about why
I'm alone, by myself
No one else to explain
How far do I go
No one knows
If the end is so much better why don't we just live forever
Don't tell me I'm the last one in line
Don't tell me I'm too late this time
[Chorus:]
I don't want to live
To waste another day
Underneath the shadow of mistakes I made
'Cause I feel like I'm breaking inside
I don't want to fall and say I lost it all
'Cause baby there's a part of me to hit the wall
Leaving pieces of me behind
And I feel like I'm breaking inside
Out here, nothings clear
Except the moment I decided to move on and I ignited
Disappear into the fear
You know there ain't no comin' back
When you're still carrying the past
You can't erase, separate
Cigarette in my hand,
Hope you all understand
I won't be the last one in line
I finally figured out what's mine
[Chorus]
I won't be the last one in line
I finally figured out what's mine
[Chorus]
Leaving pieces of me behind
And I feel like I'm breaking inside
And I feel like I'm breaking
I feel like I'm breaking inside
Shinedown "Breaking Inside"
Just got back from Outback Steakhouse with the family - my mother treated me to a birthday dinner! I'm am soooo stuffed!!! I feel like taking a nap but it's already late. Looks like maybe a drink or two is in order - not really going out or doing anything else tonight - kinda lame - sitting at home on my birthday, lol. Oh well... I've had my party days.. that's for damned sure!!! Guess tonight will be chill mode - may finish up on the drawing I've been posting...... If I finish it tonight then I'll post it.
CHEERS!!!
CHEERS!!!
