Final Goodbye -
I can't afford to renew right now, so if you would like to keep in contact, check out my blogs:
Snail Mail Aficionado:
http://postaladdict.blogspot.com
or
Arachneas Attic
http://arachneasattic.blogspot.com
Goodbye
Jess.
I can't afford to renew right now, so if you would like to keep in contact, check out my blogs:
Snail Mail Aficionado:
http://postaladdict.blogspot.com
or
Arachneas Attic
http://arachneasattic.blogspot.com
Goodbye
Jess.
So I've decided to start blogging. I get a lot of really cool stuff in the mail from penpals and swappers around the world, and I've got a halfway decent camera with a lot of time on my hands. Thus is born "Snail-Mail Aficionado". It's on the ground floor at the moment, but with support and readers I think it can take off.
Check it out and let me know what you think.
Check it out and let me know what you think.
Been working on some creepy art, thought I would share with you lovelies:
Show me some love on my deviantart page:
http://forsakenpurity.deviantart.com/
Show me some love on my deviantart page:
http://forsakenpurity.deviantart.com/
Went to the visitation.
My mom was there. I can't believe she had the fucking nerve to come.
I offered an olive branch. She told me she understood I had problems mentally. I told her I understood hers as well with her Destructive Narcissistic Patern. She says that I offended her.
Still wants to make up.
I don't care. I don't have any emotion left for her. Not one tear fell for her today. Just in the loss of my grandfather.
If I get money from his Will I plan to do some travelling. I hope I can go to Germany to see one of my penpals. And England to meet Noels family.
My mom was there. I can't believe she had the fucking nerve to come.
I offered an olive branch. She told me she understood I had problems mentally. I told her I understood hers as well with her Destructive Narcissistic Patern. She says that I offended her.
Still wants to make up.
I don't care. I don't have any emotion left for her. Not one tear fell for her today. Just in the loss of my grandfather.
If I get money from his Will I plan to do some travelling. I hope I can go to Germany to see one of my penpals. And England to meet Noels family.
My grandfather passed away on Friday.
Viewing is Tuesday.
Funeral is Wednesday.
I don't want to see my mom there.
Viewing is Tuesday.
Funeral is Wednesday.
I don't want to see my mom there.
Christmastime is upon us. Winter Solstice is approaching and I find myself wishing for snow. This time of year I always wish for snow. Before Christmas I hope against hope that it will come - but of course after Christmas I wish the rains would come and wash it all away. To me Christmas is a blanket of cotton-like snow that I saw as a kid on the plaster houses my parents used to paint and forge into a villiage every year.
It's always when you don't have something that you want. We don't have snow and thus I want it. If we did have snow, I would wish for it to go away. Those of you who live in Colorado or other states or provinces with snow would probably prefer that you didn't.
For those of you lacking some drama in your lives, come join all the cool vampires over on Delphi Forums: http://forums.delphiforums.com/roadtodystopia/?
Make a profile. There are lots of "dark forums" where we do a sort of light roleplay. Essentially we are ourselves, but have created clans and Houses. Chat rooms, forum posting, lies, backstabbing, politics - everything you need to hold your interest on the internet. There's also lots of friends to be made.
Also there's a huge gap in the amount of guys to girls (though it doesn't matter which you are). There are way more girls right now than there are guys. Lotsa flirting and fun.
Jess.
It's always when you don't have something that you want. We don't have snow and thus I want it. If we did have snow, I would wish for it to go away. Those of you who live in Colorado or other states or provinces with snow would probably prefer that you didn't.
For those of you lacking some drama in your lives, come join all the cool vampires over on Delphi Forums: http://forums.delphiforums.com/roadtodystopia/?
Make a profile. There are lots of "dark forums" where we do a sort of light roleplay. Essentially we are ourselves, but have created clans and Houses. Chat rooms, forum posting, lies, backstabbing, politics - everything you need to hold your interest on the internet. There's also lots of friends to be made.
Also there's a huge gap in the amount of guys to girls (though it doesn't matter which you are). There are way more girls right now than there are guys. Lotsa flirting and fun.
Jess.
My birthday at Medieval times went wonderfully.
I've decided that I won't be renewing my SG membership any further.
Not to worry - I've still got most of a year paid up already. But my attentions have grown to other things and other places of my past and I find that it would be a better investment of my money as I haven't been spending much time here on SG outside of sporatic postings in the penpals group.
Oggling sexy naked girls is all well and good, but serves no purpose for me. If any of you want to find me in chat - check out Delphi forums. The vampire forums there are a great diversion from real life and it holds a lot of both dear and not so dear memories for me.
I will of course continue to write to all my penpals, and hope to make a few more friends in the time I have left here.
http://forums.delphiforums.com/imortalevntide2/chat
I've decided that I won't be renewing my SG membership any further.
Not to worry - I've still got most of a year paid up already. But my attentions have grown to other things and other places of my past and I find that it would be a better investment of my money as I haven't been spending much time here on SG outside of sporatic postings in the penpals group.
Oggling sexy naked girls is all well and good, but serves no purpose for me. If any of you want to find me in chat - check out Delphi forums. The vampire forums there are a great diversion from real life and it holds a lot of both dear and not so dear memories for me.
I will of course continue to write to all my penpals, and hope to make a few more friends in the time I have left here.
http://forums.delphiforums.com/imortalevntide2/chat
Noel lost his job.
I don't know what to say or do right now. I'm trying to be strong for him, but it's hard for me.
Any support right now from you guys would be great, really. A kind word could go a long way right now.
I'm not sure if I'm going to cry or not. I feel like I'm going to - like it's welling up but won't come.
And I keep looking outside and it's insanely sunny like this wasn't supposed to happen - I don't know what to do. I don't know where to look. Oh wait - here come the tears.
Great. Now I'm crying.
Fuck.
I don't know what to say or do right now. I'm trying to be strong for him, but it's hard for me.
Any support right now from you guys would be great, really. A kind word could go a long way right now.
I'm not sure if I'm going to cry or not. I feel like I'm going to - like it's welling up but won't come.
And I keep looking outside and it's insanely sunny like this wasn't supposed to happen - I don't know what to do. I don't know where to look. Oh wait - here come the tears.
Great. Now I'm crying.
Fuck.
Noel might lose his job.
He's been doing his current job for over two and a half years at a bank in Toronto. However, he's technically employed by a temp agency. His position has become available as a full-time position, so he's had to apply for his own job.
So people from within the compay (who are given priority over outsourced or off the street people) have been applying for his job for the last couple of weeks. A job that (like I said) he's been doing very well at for the last two and a half years.
If the fates smile upon us and he does get...his...job....then he'll get a raise and vacation time - which would be just plain awesome.
First they told us that he would find out last Thursday. Then it was Friday and now it's Wednesday (tomorrow). So I'm quaking in my boots a bit because it's being pushed back because more and more people are applying for his job.
To me it just seems like such a huge slap in the face.
One additional problem is that he hates his job. It's a help desk position and he hates people. So if he doesn't get the job, hopefully he'll find something he hates less or even....likes!
So hard to tell anything at this point.
He's been doing his current job for over two and a half years at a bank in Toronto. However, he's technically employed by a temp agency. His position has become available as a full-time position, so he's had to apply for his own job.
So people from within the compay (who are given priority over outsourced or off the street people) have been applying for his job for the last couple of weeks. A job that (like I said) he's been doing very well at for the last two and a half years.
If the fates smile upon us and he does get...his...job....then he'll get a raise and vacation time - which would be just plain awesome.
First they told us that he would find out last Thursday. Then it was Friday and now it's Wednesday (tomorrow). So I'm quaking in my boots a bit because it's being pushed back because more and more people are applying for his job.
To me it just seems like such a huge slap in the face.
One additional problem is that he hates his job. It's a help desk position and he hates people. So if he doesn't get the job, hopefully he'll find something he hates less or even....likes!
So hard to tell anything at this point.
