so like....you know what sucks? When people get famous and are all hot and shit and super talented.



then get into all the drugs and bad shit and turn into this.



It really saddens me. I think Amy is so talented.

So yeah...I kept hanging out with Bobby...and where did it get me? Well this morning when he went to drive me home...WHO WAS OUTSIDE WAITING FOR HIM????? HIS FUCKING G/F THAT"S WHO!!!!

Supposedly they had been together for about 6 years.

Every guy I seem to meet either is married or already has a g/f and yet doesn't fucking tell me and then I'm left to feel like a stupid little unknowing Sancha.

I'm sick of being the sancha.

I wanna fall in love already.

Yesterday was a pretty decent day. Got to take a long ol nap during lunch. Mora let me rock out in the pimp van. It ws so windy though it was rockin that thing back and forth. After work though I rode home with this dude and he kept fucking with me, putting his fucking finger in my face. I absolutly hate people touching my face unless they have a good fuckig reason. OMG!!! I almost broke that shit. Then he started bitching at me!!! THE FUCKING NERVE!!! Anyways. After work Bryan called me and we talked about the whole get my license thing and car shit. He said he would help me out with all of it which is a HUGE relief. Everyone keeps saying they will take me then they completely flake out on me. Then they have to neve to tell me they can't give me a car then proceed to ask my to get my own car... WELL I WOULD FUCKING GET MY OWN CAR BUT NO ONE WILL TAKE ME TO GET MY FUCKING LICENSE!!!! HOW ABOUT THAT SHIT!!! ARG!!!

Then now I'm kinda mad at Bryan b/c he said he was gonna come visit me yesterday after work and he didn't. Didn't even call me back. WTF?! And I didn't get any dinner yesterday and I woke up so hungry. *sigh* I swear everything revolves around me not having a car. I really need to get to it.

My new shoes are so so so so hot!!! FUCKING LOVE THEM!!!

Well it looks like Bryan is in the winning. He spent most of the weekend with me. He's a sweetie but we just have such conflicting schedules it sucks. *sigh*

I need to get my license!!!!!

So I totally got my shoes in the mail today!!! YIPPPEEE!!! They are oh so hot. But anyways....I'm town between 3 guys right now. Pictures Please!!!



Bobby



Brandon (on the left)



Bryan

I never thought about it....all B's.


TEE HEE HEE

Well anyways...crushing on all three but I don't know which one. They all have their ups and downs some more than the others but goodness have no idea.

Bought some more stipper-liek shoes...shit...they are but they are hot ness and I will wear them out...I sure as hell will



Can't wait to get them!!!!!

Lately, I've been tryna fight whatever's pulling us under
it's got a hold and really making me wonder
what it takes to get through
I gotta stick with you, my baby
Baby tell me:
Maybe I'm foolishly overreacting
But being without you I can't imagine
It's just to close to the heart and
And I won't stand it if were broken apart


If I had a boo...I'd stay down and ride for him till the end!

*sigh*

Smiles

I think everything is gonna be alright.

So I love finding out how fake some people are. Especially when I am completly oblivious to it all. I am so nieve sometimes and I hate it. I never see the bad side of things. I just try and think positive about everything but then around the corner rolls the truth. I basically found out that a lot of people who I thought were my friends have been talking shit about me and basically using me. I feel so alone and like I can't trust anymore. I don't have any real friends here and I wish I just had a good old fashioned girl friend. Someone to hangout with, go shopping with and club with. But no I am constantly surrounded by boys and girls who never talk to anyone but thier own boyfriends. What ever happened to girls sticking together? It's not always a competition. I just want some friends. It's not even a want anymore. I NEED SOME FRIENDS!!!!! I'm just so sick of the crying and the being alone and sitting in my room surfin the net being a homebody. There has got to be someone who needs a BFF. I'm taking applications!!!!

Requirements for BFF:

Nice
trustworthy
fun
silly
likes to dance
like to watch movies
good talker/listener


I guess I don't ask for a lot...Just someone who is nice and sweet and I'll have fun with. *sigh*

One day

I had so much fun this weekend. It started out kinda poopy and boring but came around pretty good. On Friday I watched a movie with Brandon and we ordered pizza and had beer. He was completly wasted after like 6 beers...he doesn't drink that much though. I only had 4 and was buzzed. We made out a little...HEHHE!! He's so hot. Anyways...went out on Saturday with some of my peeps...



had tons of fun. there was a little drama though. I guess some dude pulled a gun out on one of my freinds b/c he wanted me to leave with him but I didn't see it...my friends told me. I'm like WTF?!!! craziness.

My Boo Boo is going home today for 12 days...BLAH!!! What am I going to do when he is gone? Well I am supposed to go to the Pepper concert tomorrow.

They are like one of my super favorite bands. They sound kinda like Sublime...not more Hawaii-ish. They are oh so awesome. My friend Brian is gonna go with me. We're gonna stay down in Myrtyle Beach all weekend so I hope I have a really good time. I'm pumped that we get that IRS money soon. I'm not sure if everyone knows but here is the scoop. My mom emailed it to me

Stimulus Payment Schedule for Tax Returns Processed by April 15

Economic stimulus payments will be issued according to the last
two-digits of the main filer's Social Security number. People who use
direct deposit also will be among the first to receive the payments
starting May 2. Paper checks will be put in the mail starting May 16.

DIRECT DEPOSIT

Last two SSN digits: Payment will be transmitted:
00 through 20 May 2
21 through 75 May 9
76 through 99 May 16


I think I'm gonna use the money to either go home in August or me and Brandon are gonna take a 4 day cruise to the Carribbean then visit his family in Texas. I hoping for the 2nd one. I just don't wanna buy tickets to a cruise now and we don't last that long. I know it's bad to think negative but I don't like getting my hopes up about stuff like that. It's just not concrete. I don't wanna waste any money. I need my money. I've really been wanting this dress by Betsy Johnson .



Well more like 3. Too expensive though. I'm poor.