Well, I'm back at it again in the suck. Left alaska a little over a month ago and got to Gardez, Afghanistan the morning after christmas. Been busy going on missions since the day after we got here.

Hope to keep the boys safe on this one and bring them all back in one piece. Have a great bunch of guys though, shouldn't take much effort.

Now Task Force Geronimo needs to start killin some dudes in these mountains.

And, I'm in Alaska. Enjoying it so far, still haven't enjoyed the night life here....in fact still don't know a thing about the night life here.

Well, after only spending a few months stationed at Ft Lewis, WA, I'm on assignment again. Should be reporting to Ft Richardson, AK sometime in late june or early july.

Going to be leaving korea in two months, hopefully for good. I'll be moving to the Tacoma/Ft Lewis area of Washington state. Plan on being there for at least two years and hopefully I'll be able to deploy back to afghanistan while I'm there.

Although I'm only 25 I've had alot of experience with relationships, love and heart break. Not really sure if this would be considered a blog or not.

I believe that some of this might be due to the poor examples i had as a child and teenager. My parents did nothing but fight, my father cheated on my mothers constantly and then the divorced when i was 12. My mom continued to date dirt bags and my dad was a whore. Both met someone around the same time, mom got re-married when i was 17 and still has a relationship without love where she is never appreciated. My dad re-married a year later and is now seperated waiting to get divorced again because he cheated.

My "love" life started when i was roughly 13 or so. Had a girlfriend in middle school, things were interesting but i can't remember much of it. Right before I left to go live with my dad i told one girl that i had a huge crush on her, continued to talk to her for the year that i lived with my dad. Came back to northern virginia thought something was going to happen but it never did. Lost my virginity when i was 15 because the girl had a very compelling argument, with the year 2000 right around the corner and the fear of the world ending i felt it was something i had to do, HA. Dated some more, had sex a few more times.

Senior year of high school, met a girl, a great girl. Heather and i dated for 3 months until i left for basic and infantry training at ft benning, we wrote each other every day and thought things were going great. I proposed at ft benning the day i graduated from infantry school in november of 2002. After i got back from ft benning, i started talking to girl from back in middle school again. Went on a few dates behind heather's back, nothing ever happened. Heather and i got married in March of 2003, and i kept seeing women behind her back. In june while i was doing a 2 week training exercise she cheated on me for the first time, i forgave her and we tried to move on, i cheated on her a couple months later. I left for afghanistan in march 2004 and thought things were great, we had both moved on and she never found out that i cheated on her.

When i came home on leave in december 2004 i found out that she had been cheating on me while i was there. She cheated on me with close to 2 dozen men. Got seperated, got divorced, i came home from afghanistan and decided that i just need to go alittle wild and have fun so between august 05 and jan 06 i did nothing but slept around. Met a nice girl, dated her for a month, she got to close and alittle clingy so i got rid of her. Slept around alot between feb 06 and coming to korea in september 09. Met a great woman shortly after getting here to korea, started dating and having the greatest time. Sometime close to christmas something happened inside my head.....although i had strong feelings for this girl something wasn't there. I started to become an asshole and pushed her away, huge mistake on my part. Still had feelings for her but destroyed any chances of being with her. So, do i revert back to what I typically do and sleep around or do i give it another shot, try to date and pray that love happens someday?

I may be a smart man but i don't know what love is. So ladies, what do i do?

So, I've given some thought about if this blogging this is for me and i've decided that i'm going to give it a shot.

I've been in south Korea since september and since I got here I have been nothing less than disgusted with the army and the leadership over here. After eight years in the army and various duty stations and deployments I like to think that i've got enough experience to make a professional assesment of the current sitiation here. Most of these things have got me so pissed i can only think of a couple off the top of my head; NCOs sleeping with junior soldiers, young soldiers that don't speak to NCOs with any respect both males and female, company grade officers that dive into a bottle at the end of every day, soldiers that feed into the human trafficing and prostution market, and thats just what i can think of right now.

I don't know if people think that korea has a shroud over it and your actions wont follow you back to a deploying unit, but we need to start making changes over here. Young soldiers are coming to korea as their first duty station and experiencing this mess first hand and taking it to their next unit. As a young NCO I can't take on these problems alone and need some backing but its difficult to find other NCOs that are willing to stand against to bullshit. What to do...........

okay a blog.....since this thing is telling me i need to post one i will.....fuck blogs. I don't need to ramble on about my day, year, relationship,work or whatever just so other people can agree with me or feel sorry for me.

thats all i got.