First of all, I need to apologize because I haven't been such a devoted member of this community like I used to be. I still love it all, but I've been having some personal problems and such, so I've been away.
On Monday, I was thinking about SG a lot for some reason. In summer 2009 I really wanted to model for SG and shoot a set, but then had a major collapse self-perception after breaking up with my boyfriend of 3,5 years (who was very supportive of the idea of me modeling for this, he liked the site). And so, the idea of shooting a set just got lost and I hadn't put much thought into it until Monday. I was in the bathroom in the morning and it just hit me, yeah, why not shoot a set. I feel that I'm much more mature now, also, and I wouldn't be ashamed if my family found out or even people at my workplace. And just like a heavenly sign, Monday evening my beloved Dwam asked me on Flickr about shooting a set... Such a divine coincidence.
The only problem is that my current partner doesn't like it all very much. And we've been on the verge of a breakup for a while and I wouldn't want to make it worse with this.. So negotiations ahead.
On Monday, I was thinking about SG a lot for some reason. In summer 2009 I really wanted to model for SG and shoot a set, but then had a major collapse self-perception after breaking up with my boyfriend of 3,5 years (who was very supportive of the idea of me modeling for this, he liked the site). And so, the idea of shooting a set just got lost and I hadn't put much thought into it until Monday. I was in the bathroom in the morning and it just hit me, yeah, why not shoot a set. I feel that I'm much more mature now, also, and I wouldn't be ashamed if my family found out or even people at my workplace. And just like a heavenly sign, Monday evening my beloved Dwam asked me on Flickr about shooting a set... Such a divine coincidence.
The only problem is that my current partner doesn't like it all very much. And we've been on the verge of a breakup for a while and I wouldn't want to make it worse with this.. So negotiations ahead.
New assful of self-portraits!
I made a Facebook page for my photography, in case you 'like' it.
And a fancy Formspring.
I'm home sick (nevertheless, I'm going to work later), because I thought it was a good idea to march around the woods with wet feet on Sunday. I went to shoot Tiiu, a lovely little girl (literally.. she's barely 5 ft tall), who looks like a human doll or a gothic lolita. Anyway, here are some pictures of the painful outcome.
Autumn Winterling
the panic that consumes you is the fear of order
rapid evenfall
a tall order
the load I tote is not my own
but now I feel my vis is gone
some catty tricks or my own fault
we will not make it before dark
---
admiration of the feminine
Autumn Winterling
the panic that consumes you is the fear of order
rapid evenfall
a tall order
the load I tote is not my own
but now I feel my vis is gone
some catty tricks or my own fault
we will not make it before dark
---
admiration of the feminine
I am alive!
Been away for a while, trying to estrange myself from virtual worlds. But disappearing completely has never been the goal.
Some photographic evidence of my existence.
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Been away for a while, trying to estrange myself from virtual worlds. But disappearing completely has never been the goal.
Some photographic evidence of my existence.
seedface:
Oh my. It's been so long I almost feel the weight of this blank page.
I have so many things to do. I'm working on my short film for school and simultaneously trying to do all other assignments, essays, research projects. It's way too much.
I'm also working now. Loyal customer service. It's actually quite nice, doing something completely different from my usual audiovisual aspirations. I somehow like certain routines of a 'common' workplace, answering the phone, organizing papers, entering data to a not-so-highly-intellectual computer program. I can feel my neurosis evolving.
I'm also more than devastated since I no longer have a photo camera. And I have absolutely no resources to get a new one. A point-and-shoot camera does not satisfy me at all, so I'm not taking any pictures at the moment.
Instead, I'm playing around with some old ones, doing this
and this
I'd love to use others' photos as well, so if you have a good quality image (of you or shot by you) I could use, you can share.
Of course, I don't have almost any time next.... month or so, but I could do slowly do something.
I started reading Jean Baudrillard's Simulacra and Simulation. I'll write about it after I've finished.
Now I'm off to finish Kafka's In the Penal Colony. All condemned men out there, I salute you.
I have so many things to do. I'm working on my short film for school and simultaneously trying to do all other assignments, essays, research projects. It's way too much.
I'm also working now. Loyal customer service. It's actually quite nice, doing something completely different from my usual audiovisual aspirations. I somehow like certain routines of a 'common' workplace, answering the phone, organizing papers, entering data to a not-so-highly-intellectual computer program. I can feel my neurosis evolving.
I'm also more than devastated since I no longer have a photo camera. And I have absolutely no resources to get a new one. A point-and-shoot camera does not satisfy me at all, so I'm not taking any pictures at the moment.
Instead, I'm playing around with some old ones, doing this
and this
I'd love to use others' photos as well, so if you have a good quality image (of you or shot by you) I could use, you can share.
Of course, I don't have almost any time next.... month or so, but I could do slowly do something.
I started reading Jean Baudrillard's Simulacra and Simulation. I'll write about it after I've finished.
Now I'm off to finish Kafka's In the Penal Colony. All condemned men out there, I salute you.
Winter - wearing five layers of sweaters/ darkness at 5PM already/ slippery roads.
Then again, marching through the piles of snow burns more calories.
Summer - sitting on the grass/ sleeping outside/ wearing skirts.
I'd still say summer wins. I'm sick of the cold.
However, today was a remotely nice day with some glimpse with the oh-so-missed sunshine.
Here's a quick overview of the changes in my meaningless existence, for those of you interested:
Then again, marching through the piles of snow burns more calories.
Summer - sitting on the grass/ sleeping outside/ wearing skirts.
I'd still say summer wins. I'm sick of the cold.
However, today was a remotely nice day with some glimpse with the oh-so-missed sunshine.
Here's a quick overview of the changes in my meaningless existence, for those of you interested:
My face all around:
Hi everyone!
So, I am the SG member previously known as Phixo . I've had some major technical issues with reactivating my old account after my subscription ended. I don't know why, but there are some obstacles that just won't get out of the way, so I'm back with this new account... Hopefully I'll manage to get my stuff rearranged soon and get reconnected with you. Can't wait! Love you all.
So, I am the SG member previously known as Phixo . I've had some major technical issues with reactivating my old account after my subscription ended. I don't know why, but there are some obstacles that just won't get out of the way, so I'm back with this new account... Hopefully I'll manage to get my stuff rearranged soon and get reconnected with you. Can't wait! Love you all.
