While cooking some bacon, an eyelash fell in my eye so I removed my glasses to fix the problem only to have grease splash VERY near that same eye.
While taking advil for my horrible cramps, I choked and threw up coffee WHILE it came out of my nose.
By myself, 100%, I cleaned and prepped a turkey. Managed to get it into the turkey bag AND the turkey pan AND the hot oven all by myself. I also made stuffing and mashed potatoes and green bean casserole. All me. I carved the damn thing. Put away the leftovers. Even started cleaning the giant pile of dirty dishes.
My dad doesn't say a word. No Merry Christmas. No thank you. Nothing. No compliments.
I already opened my gift from Reekie two days ago.
Cried to my mom on the phone around midday. Told her all the little things that were trying to ruin my day. It was nice that she didn't make let my tears ruin her morning, sometimes she guilts me for that. I kind of wish I was with her right now. But neither parent got me anything, she had plans with her fiance's family, and my dad is Scrooge before the Ghosts Incident. 
I'm ready for it to be next Christmas season. I'm ready to decorate a WHOLE apartment with lots of candles and lots of gifts for the person I'm with. Maybe next year my parents will get me something. My dad offered hockey tickets after he heard me crying but I need to figure out when/if Reekie can ever visit. Maybe I'll just ask him for the TARDIS plush/pillow I really want and call it good. Whatever. I love the ENTIRE Christmas season so to have it end like this is just soul crushing.
The two BEST things that happened today:
I opened my card from sofarsogood that came in the mail yesterday. It had glitter and the most wonderful message inside.
Doctor Who marathon. (Note: I still haven't finished season 4 because I do not want to lose Ten. I love Ten too much. So this is the first time I've seen a full Eleven episode. I saw several. No clue what was going on the whole time.)
I hate Matt Smith. I hate his new companion too. "Its smaller on the outside." Aka she has Special Snowflake Syndrome and isn't interesting in the slightest. Like at all.
But hey, Sir Ian McKellen was the voice of the snow globe so that's wonderful.
Too much change for me but at least it was something.
Oh actually the best part was giving Bryzly the rawhide bone I bought for her and she just can't stop chewing it. She's so happy. I like watching her go to town just chrunching the damn thing like a champ but when she catches me watching, she stops. Its adorable.
Back to trying to steal whiskey from dad and playing Mario 3D while I re-watch The Snowmen and then some Ten episodes.
Aly 
(I know, I know, they're two years old but oh well)
Be safe, have fun, and find a reason to smile. There's always a reason.
xoxox Aly
The Other Day:
sofarsogood knows more than the rest of you, but shiiiiiit this whole day was a waste. So pissed. I really wanted a non-game day thing to happen but oh well. Cross your fingers for tomorrow, for me everyone.
Reekie and sofarsogood did cheer me up though and this whole thing is a giant joke to us and I LOVE it. I just really needed it to happen though.
Hot as hell in this Sundogs jersey but I look so cute. Snuck some whiskey, so that might be the problem. Either way, I don't feel good.
Hope y'all are having a good time end-of-the-world partying. It's almost Christmas!
Now all I need is alcohol for Sat & Sun night when I'm alone. Maybe pics will happen if I can find the cash to get drunk.
Love you guys
xoxoxox Aly
Wish I was there with you, lovely!
Things always get better though. I at least have new hot pink bras and new panties I ordered last month. I can't wait for a few days alone to wear them and nothing else and just REST. I guess its good though, right? No matter how bad my day was.... I still have the ability to see that life CAN AND WILL get better, along with the history to prove it.
I can't wait for the snow tonight.
Goodnight, SG.
xoxox Aly
I'm out of food and my hair is gross but I neeeeeed food. I've been craving fresh veggies and chicken and eggs and lemons for days now. I wouldn't mind going out with wet hair if it wasn't so cold out.
I haven't purchased a SINGLE Christmas gift for anyone this year. I'm getting cards for some people. Its not that I didn't want to but someone else's car drained the bank by 600EU and by the time money hit the bank, I stopped caring. Oh well. Its going to be a shitty Christmas but I'm going to make a full on Holiday Dinner just for the fun of it. Including brownies. I haven't made those all season. I'll be wearing my sparkly Santa Claus hat all day, of course. I don't think I own anything green though. =/ I will also probably be day drinking.
I wish there were presents under the tree. Maybe I'll pick up some small boxes and my FAVORITE wrapping paper I can find and just fake it like I did the last two years. Its not that I need THINGS under the tree, but just the look. It really does compliment a tree like you wouldn't believe.
I have a free flight to/from Boston for next month. Can't find a place to stay for the life of me. I can't afford $400+ for a hotel and my dad is using points to get my flight. Don't know if I'm going unless my friends can help. Sure, I miss Boston and my friends and I'd FINALLY get to see the Pirates play but.... life doesn't always work out that way. Hopefully Reekie asked her parents for $$$ to get her to Denver to see me when they asked what she wanted for xmas. I'd bet money that she said exactly that but they ALWAYS have to get her a thing. SomeTHING. Anything they can wrap and watch her open and pretend its the best THING in the world.
My hotel for this weekend probably isn't happening. After seeing Reekie, the second thing I wanted for Xmas was to sleep on a bed ALONE by myself, a real bed, just for a night or two. This couch is getting old and I'm pretty sure its the root of most of my problems.
Anyways. I'm not sure why I'm blogging. I don't feel well, need healthy foods, this next weekend could just.... not happen that would be nice, I wish I was with Reekie, the USUAL.
Hopefully my next blog is happier and has more of a point.
xox Aly
I seriously drank tequila out of a plastic bucket with a little shovel like kids use on the beach. I got to keep the bucket too. I bought more tequila to drink out of my bucket.
PICTURE TIME.
I always fulfill on my picture promises, baby birds.
I love you SG. Also, someone send sofarsogood to Denver. I need her and Reekie with me.
xoxox Aly
- My entire life right now is Doctor Who. I still miss Rose. It still hurts. The Weeping Angels give me nightmares. I just finished The Doctor's Daughter and I am too drunk to keep going for the night.
- Dad might be flying me to Boston for a few days next month as an Xmas gift. I R SO EXCITE. I just can't seem to find a place to stay. And I need to afford tickets to the Portland at Providence game that weekend too. I'm trying.
- I want to shop. I rarely shop, but Christmas makes me go crazy. I love buying gifts for others, as well as myself. I know that sounds selfish for the season but I grew up receiving more gifts from uncles and aunts than my own parents, so I like to reward myself. I just like opening gifts. Sometimes I wrap my gifts to myself and open them on Xmas so I don't feel so lonely. Problem is, I want to see Reekie, I want to move out of my dad's, and I want to see Boston again. I love Boston. It's my second home. Sooooo money is an issue right now that is messing with my usual Holiday therapy.
- White russians are awesome. I wish this cheap coffee liquor was Peppermint Khalua though. I KNOW I misspelled that but I don't care.
- I love David Tennant.
- I'm addicted to Hot Problems. A total guilty pleasure. Dance music that is both catchy and hilarious. It's like satire in pop music form.
- I need to bleach my roots but its hard on my own. Anyone in Denver wanna do it for me? I have the bleach and I'll pay you $20.
- Shit is about to get fucked up in like 9 days man, I tell ya. I'm not ready for it.
- I have my next two tattoos in mind. One is totally drawn up and all, one isn't. Of course the one that needs drawn up is the one I want most. Again, money is an issue. Boo.
- I love Andrew Volpe.
I don't have anything else to say. SG has been a chore for me lately, being at my dad's place. I hate it and I miss the sets in MR and my friends. Im just in a sad, reflective, honest mood right now I guess. I miss you guys and I apologize for my lack of attention.
xoxox Aly
Sobbed until my eyes were swollen and I'm STILL hurting.
I give up on everything. My heart has never broken like this.
Crawling in a hole to cry.
-Aly
Random texts from people who don't like when I text them sure puts my brain in a tizzy. And my stomach in knots. I've cut back on drinking just a bit. Not much but a bit. My new bras and panties I ordered with the gift card from my mom came yesterday. Will try to get pics but I can't promise.
Life itself is quite stressful and I've been feeling more violent than normal. Doesn't help that Reekie is so busy with finals. I mean, I understand and I'm being patient but I'm not used to talking to her so little. The weirdest thing though, what keeps me from truly melting down is fangirling. Odd, right? But just ignoring the world and diving as much as possible into some alternate reality, a place of attractive men and songs and a tv show and sports.... it helps. Other than alcohol, its my only coping mechanism right now.
Enough rambling, I've already deleted enough only to write the same amount on a new subject. Pics coming soon. Usual drill.
Back to my new found Doctor Who addiction.
xoxox Aly
