I'm drinking beerrrrr
I told Dad I'd stop by the liquor store and check for some Drink By because Falling Rock was tapping a keg of it today so we THOUGHT it was released today. Nooooooope.
But some hot fucking guy that looks like my favorite non-hockey playing Canadian male, Jonathan Scott, told me to try these other two IPAs.

So I did.
After being upset and angry with myself because I haven't dropped below 203 for almost 5 days.

ANYWAYS

shit is whack yo.

I have picturessssss for youuuuuu















LOOK ITS MY BUTT.

Welp. I'm just gonna sit here and enjoy the only beer I'll have this entire month and think about all the dirty things I would do to Jagr.
Seriously. HOLY. SHIT. The way he looks in Black and Gold when he smiles....

I'm also going to think about how much I can't stand CHL tendies.


byeeeeee xox

ITS EASTERRRRRR!

Quick Update:

Someone bought me my cellphone battery AND new plugs. I'll finally have simple, plain, black plugs but I'm up to a 9/16 now.

A certain friend of mine is a HUGE Devils fan, so like I mentioned I added a bunch of jerseys to my wishlist. That included a Devils jersey. Last night Amazon sent me an email about Devils merch I might be interested in! I laughed. I thought it was so cute. Someone else (I don't like naming names without permission) was talking to me a few weeks ago about a vintage jersey and which one I would prefer most. A couple of those ended up on my wishlist too. Jerseys are all I can think about lately, it seems.

Even better is that I've started working a bit on the side. Not a "real person job" like I plan to get as well. Once I get a hair cut and some interview clothes and a phone that works etc etc etc. But it's picking up and helping a lot. I'm tempted to use some of the money to buy....... a JERSEY hahahaha. The Flyers jersey is only like $60 on amazon right now. We'll see. I'm dying for a new jersey to take pictures in.

Anyways. The tooth is doing MUCH better. It still hurts to chew a bit and I'm getting a little pain here and there. I'm down to one percocet but advil is able to do a decent job. I'm still taking my penicillin. Haven't missed a dose yet. I hope the infection dies out completely and I can chew again. It's ruining my diet a bit.

Speaking of my diet, I'm down 14lbs! Easter is going to bring my weight up a bit. Dad and I are making deviled eggs so that is my first cheat day in over 2 weeks. I don't mind the fact that it's going to back track me a little. We all need to reward ourselves sometimes and it IS my favorite holiday. Still, I'm so so so close to ONEderland. So close to that 2 becoming a 1. I'm so proud of myself already. Once I can get that 1, it's time to start the exercise. I wanted to see how far the dieting will take me first.

Oh, the apartment notified everyone yesterday that the levels of lead in our drinking water is above acceptable levels. I've never really trusted tap water anywhere but Lincoln, NE. My dad never listened to me until now haha. So I'm picking up a new filter for my brita when I get to the store in a bit.

Wanna see some pictures of young Aly before I head off?
Of course you do.
Try to be nice though. I didn't hit my prime until 17.









I'll leave you with my senior picture



xoxox Aly

I AM THE HOT WING VELOCIRAPTOR.

Good thing: I've continued to take my penicillin which means I should be pain free any minute now. Hottie dentist said it usually takes two days before antibiotics have done their job well enough that pain subsides. It's been two and a half. Percocets don't last as long as vicodin but they are stronger. I still get really bad stabbing pain and then throbbing sometimes. Trying to get through it without screaming or sobbing too much is physically exhausting. But sometimes Bryzly hears my dry, choking sobs and jumps on the bed and nuzzles me.

Thinking about adding a Leafs jersey to my wishlist. Its getting to the point where I'd own and wear any jersey from any team EXCEPT the Red Wings and the Pens. Surprised I didn't include the Habs and Canucks? That's because there are three teams that I would NEVER wear a jersey for UNLESS it was customized with a specific player.
Chicago Blackhawks - Brandon Bollig
Montreal Canadiens - Carey Price
Vancouver Canucks - Alexandre Bolduc
Actually, you know what? I wouldn't wear an LA Kings jersey either unless it was a Patrick O'Sullivan one.



I'm pretty bored and all weird from the pain meds. They make me super talkative apparently.



My dad used to bond with me by teaching me the proper wrestling stance. This is his favorite picture of me, ever.

So I want to start writing. I'm good at writing. I enjoy writing. I've been praised and recognized for my writing since I was 5 or 6 years old. But I have no idea what to write about. I want to be like Laurelin and Bradley and Cameron Frye. A witty female writer, strong with weaknesses, smart with some bad jokes. Not many teachers liked my writing style.... its like prose and poetry in short story form. I write literally the way I speak to myself in my head. The exact words I'm thinking. Its not a popular style from what I've been told but I enjoy reading it when I find others who write that way. It's like you're joining yourself with that person. Seeing inside of them instead of hearing them tell a story. There's more to it than how they dealt with a bad date. There's more humor, more emotion, more thoughts, more development.
I just don't know what to write about. Sitting at home watching movies, wishing you had a job and your own apartment isn't exciting. Drinking alone and listening to One Direction isn't ground breaking. I just want to write. I need to write. It's been clawing away at my brain for a few months now. I've written one thing since it started and that was only to make sure I never forgot some details of an exciting night. No characters are in my head, waiting to tell their story. There's just me. The character I really am, the character I wish I was, and the character others see me as.

Just thought I'd let that out in a nice percocet-fueled look into something I consider a flaw and a weakness. Something I'm ashamed of and felt like sharing.

Not that I'm sad right now, about the whole thing. Sure, its frustrating and I've been in tears over it. But I'm ok. I feel good sharing it and admitting it. I've been so sick of whining in my blogs, complaining and crying. I'm ready to be my happy Aly self again. People love her and I love her too. I just hope that didn't come off as complaining. I wanted it to be a look into something I haven't shared before. A piece of me I don't usually talk about or admit I'm going through.

I guess I just wanted to be vulnerable.



Do you guys miss my blue hair as much as I do?


CHEESEBURGERS

I've been spending time hunting down jersey pictures for the couple of you that REALLY seem to like them, haha. Maybe I'll do one giant blog of nothing but jersey pictures.





xox Aly

I am safe and alive and everything is mostly well.
Super hot dentist that looks like a more American version of this goalie I have a crush on confirmed that my broken tooth IS infected. Thankfully I already started penicillin
I DO need a root canal but it doesn't need done right away. It's one of those things where the longer you wait, the worse it will get but you'll live for now. $1450 before insurance for the root canal and crown. I need $600 upfront to cover what insurance won't. So it's gonna be a while. I was SO relieved to find out I didn't need to like have my dad pay $600 tonight haha. I had mentally prepared myself to have surgery so not having it happen was kind of a bummer.

BUT my newer, stronger painkillers are with me and I got to use insurance this time. I am alive, everything will be ok.

I can't explain how wonderful I feel even though I'm still getting some pain. Thank you again and a million times over for your comments and messages. It really does mean something to me. Every single 'good luck' and 'feel better' is given its moment to be read and felt and accepted. Y'all are just too amazing.

That's all for now. I really don't have much else to talk about. We'll see how well these percocets work. I wish I had a limonata.

bye for now!
xox Aly

EDIT: 6pm appointment with emergency dentist assuming my insurance clears. One more favor to ask, please cross your fingers and toes and eyes that my insurance will clear and surgery (when it happens) goes safely. Two main options right now are surgery right away OR another script for pain killers until I can have surgery. Love you guys!

EDIT #2: Insurance has officially been verified. I've made like 5 phone calls today to make sure everything works. If you know how bad my anxiety is when it comes to making phone calls, you'd know that its a HUGE deal. I'm one step closer.

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Morning update for y'all because HOPEFULLY I will be having surgery this afternoon or evening.

Bad, Whiney, Complainy Stuff:

GOOD THINGS!
I added a fuck ton of jerseys to my wishlist. Ones that friends have suggested I own even though I'm not a huge fan of the team and ones I really want to own. I also found some cute shoes I'd like to buy some day.

A special, secret friend sent me some money to help me get a new cell phone battery sooner. I cried. I'm so so so thankful. Not having a cell phone is one of the things halting surgery/exams. It helps me afford Bryzly's food as well. I was so worried that after having paid for my meds out of pocket (aka, without insurance) I was afraid I'd have to ration her food. I just don't want these horrible days to roll over into something that puts her in a crappy position. This friend really helped me in a time of need. As if that isn't wonderful enough, they did it because I needed help and not just because I was on my old camming account struggling for a couple bucks here and there. I'm still in shock.

5 days until new Doctor Who
6 days until Easter

I have amazing friends. I've been so thankful for all of you here and on twitter who have wished me well or just simply talked to me to keep me distracted from the pain. While sometimes I feel alone when the pain gets bad and all I can do is lay here and cry, I am so frequently reminded that I am loved and cared for. You're all so wonderful to me.

Another old jersey picture for now



I'll blog again when new information comes my way. I can't wait to write a blog that is ONLY happy things. Soon, my friends. Like you keep reminding me, soon.
All I need right now is more pain meds to help with the patience.

xoxox Aly

I just want to be drawn as a pinup girl in bunny ears surrounded by Easter eggs. I would make the best Easter bunny in the world. If only I could draw and/or do vector art or whatever and turn one of my SG pics into me sitting in a little nesty thing of my eggs and tulips and lillies.
Like this picture:



EASTER ALY.

I don't know what I'm talking about, except I do.

Do you ever wonder what winter would be like if snow was white glitter? I would roll around in it every time it snowed and run around screaming IM A DISCO SNOWMAN. Or perhaps IM A CHRISTMAS QUEEN!

Vicodin made me feel less weird about replying on twitter to Scruffy from DKM when he tweeted that he was having a relaxing day at the range. Oddly, he replied to me. At first I was like but then I was like
I NEVER reply to people like that because I'm like "why bother? Everyone replies to them because they need their existence validated by celebrities so it's totally lame and the celebrities don't care and it's just dumb." But then again I have been replied to by Wil Wheaton and Noel Clark sooooo who am I to talk? Also, one of the DKM guys follows me so, that's cool.

I updated my wishlist. By updated, I mean I cleaned it out and added like two or three things.

If you're one of my texting buddies, please know my phone battery has died. Like, won't charge or anything. So I haven't received what you've sent because my phone is a paper weight right now. Sorry. I'll be buying my battery next weekend when I have money again. All of my money has gone to meds and food for Bryz.

I'm not going to go into details because I'm sick of complaining BUT trying to get surgery done when relying on someone else for a ride and wicked terrible government insurance is stressful.

I'm going to make a TARDIS easter egg when I dye eggs next weekend.

I need to take more jersey pictures for Littlejohn22 but that means getting my cellphone working again and actually putting on my jerseys. I have like 10 here. I need a new one



okbye
xox Aly



I NEED TO BUY THIS BUT IN TSHIRT FORM INSTEAD. (or both haha)


edited to add:



Getting really sick of shit like this. I don't see anywhere in my first tweet that says I don't like pits. Every single pitbull I've met is a sweet and loving dog. I once saw someone tweet a picture of their pitbull saying "If you don't love this face, you're heartless." I most certainly am not heartless just because I don't love your dog's face. It doesn't matter what breed it is. But pitbulls don't give me those "OMG SO CUUUTTEEEEE" kinda feelings. I don't see a picture of one and think AWW I WANT ONE! But that doesn't mean I don't like them, enjoy them, love them when they're near. It also doesn't mean I think they're vicious killing machines. Am I allowed to call you heartless because you don't think I'm cute? What about the guys you try to set up with your girlfriends but one or the other doesn't find that person attractive? It does NOT mean they're heartless, they just like what they like.

I HAVE VICODIN.

Actually, while this IS a good thing.... its just making the tooth pain livable. And I don't get as loopy as most when I'm on it. I just kinda feel normal.

But I'm on pain killers so you can call me BELCHIOR



I still need to have my limonata for the night.

I fall asleep to The Hobbit. It's almost been a week straight of that. Not that I finding it boring but comforting. Just a random tidbit.

I'm just gonna post random photos because I can.














Bryzly says goodbye and goodnight.

xoxox Aly

Yesterday was a pretty great day. I even got to grill a TON of veggies. $15 worth of fresh veggies makes four servings and one serving is under 160 calories. I felt amazing. By the time I went to bed, my bad tooth was hurting. Like actual tooth pain hurt.

I guess I just kinda needed to get that out. I don't handle constant pain very well. I have little rice bags to heat that kinda help. Bryzly is enjoying the snow. Sometimes she acts like she's never seen snow before, she just leaps and leaps through it. Once this morning, she put her snout forward and just drilled through the snow. It warmed my heart. Fourth day in a row I've had a hard boiled egg with breakfast, and today it FINALLY peeled mostly right. Normally I just brutally mutilate my egg. It does feel nice to just lay in bed in my jammies knowing the snow has blanketed everything outside. Just some little happy things.

I'm just rambling now. Boo on that. I think I'm gonna hop in the shower and then just play Assassin's Creed all day. Hopefully it helps to just relax and let myself be happy knowing that right now, I can't do anything about it at this moment. But if one of you wants to bring me some starbucks or some hot soup...... that would be cool.

Last night:



xoxox Aly