It's a very VERY fine line between compromising with someone, and settling for less. I feel like the latter is what I just agreed to. I mean, you can NEVER ever change your first. That alone is the perfect reasoning to NOT half-ass something. If people would listen to me, it could easily happen with a little help. It would be amazing, it would be great, and I am able to make sure everything is PERFECT. But if you're not willing to work, to try, or even bother......well, why fucking do it in the first place? The act alone is going to be hard enough to do with approval, so why not go all the way? Whatever. I'll be ok. I'm too good not to come out of this alive. Talk to me when you understand what this will mean to me.

For the record, I'm not really up to conversing on here much. I have a ton of homework, ultrasound results to wait for, and plans to make. Also, Stars game tomorrow, row 2! Playing Youngstown, a new team. Exciting. But other than that, things are REALLY down, and honestly I'm sick to the teeth of being broke, being sick, and being stressed. So if I don't talk to you, don't take it the wrong way.

If anyone has Xanax, I will gladly accept one. =]

And please, don't anyone DARE get on my case for looking out for number one. I'm setting myself up for huge failure, please understand when I get paranoid.

XOXO
Bukowskii