That is what I get for trying to do something nice for someone, something I do NOT like. See what happens when I make a sacrifice to make someone else happy? It backfires. AWESOME. I love this bullshit.
I also love waking up at 1pm, constantly bumping the new ink on chairs and couches, and how fucking sore my neck and shoulders are.....simply because I lock up when I'm sleeping next to someone. I don't move, I don't twitch. I tense up and stay that way, maybe getting 30 mins of sleep total. Someone remind me why I'm doing this in the first place!
It's Sgt's birthday. No plans have been made. His ma called this AM and sang him happy birthday, and I seriously think I have a crush on her. You laugh now, but she's amazing. It scares me that plans haven't been made. I might ask him to go drink with his friends so I can get some homework done. I REALLY need to study medical term and guess who interrupts me!!!!! Fucker. I just don't want this "So what should we do for dinner?" or "Do you mind going here to see these guys?" Whatever. That shit makes for a bad night, every time. Birthday or not.
I offered to make cheesecake, but it's a small kitchen. Who knows. I'm used to space.
I had something else to complain about, but I lost it. I hate that. Especially when I don't get time to really write when I'm here. By the way, the sound of the rain pouring in buckets out of the drains right outside of Sgt's door.......fucking amazing. I almost cried. It really meant something to me at that moment, and I'm not sure what.
Also, I feel slutty. And could really use a xanax.
XOXOXOXO
Bukowskii
I also love waking up at 1pm, constantly bumping the new ink on chairs and couches, and how fucking sore my neck and shoulders are.....simply because I lock up when I'm sleeping next to someone. I don't move, I don't twitch. I tense up and stay that way, maybe getting 30 mins of sleep total. Someone remind me why I'm doing this in the first place!
It's Sgt's birthday. No plans have been made. His ma called this AM and sang him happy birthday, and I seriously think I have a crush on her. You laugh now, but she's amazing. It scares me that plans haven't been made. I might ask him to go drink with his friends so I can get some homework done. I REALLY need to study medical term and guess who interrupts me!!!!! Fucker. I just don't want this "So what should we do for dinner?" or "Do you mind going here to see these guys?" Whatever. That shit makes for a bad night, every time. Birthday or not.
I offered to make cheesecake, but it's a small kitchen. Who knows. I'm used to space.
I had something else to complain about, but I lost it. I hate that. Especially when I don't get time to really write when I'm here. By the way, the sound of the rain pouring in buckets out of the drains right outside of Sgt's door.......fucking amazing. I almost cried. It really meant something to me at that moment, and I'm not sure what.
Also, I feel slutty. And could really use a xanax.
XOXOXOXO
Bukowskii
OCT 09, 2009 12:34 PM
OCT 09, 2009 02:40 PM
I know exactly how it goes. And the feeling of not sleeping when lying next to someone - ever since I rolled over and punched my ex in the jaw. Should have been a warning - I think my subconscious was trying to tell me something. LOL uhh, completely unfair saying you are feeling slutty and giving no detail - curious Bukowskii fans want to know. 
Hope you get your studying done and have a kick ass weekend.
