1. WPS (Winnipeg Police Services), I have noticed lately how much they and the EPS (Edmonton Police Services) have been taking a beating in the news and comments or letters to the editor lately. Being accused of Racism, abuse of authority, having to use deadly force, all looked down by a lot of people here, or at least that's what it looks like in the papers. I do have a few thoughts on a couple of those points. A) if you have a weapon *knife or gun* in your hand and the police tell you to drop the weapon and put your damn hands up, drop the god damn weapon and put your hands up!!! Don't ignore the officer and walk away or walk towards them, they WILL fire their drawn firearm. B) if a loved one or someone you know gets shot from the cops AFTER they are TOLD to drop the weapon and after they have been pepper sprayed, then DON'T go to the press (media) and whine that they used excessive force. I for one and this may sound really pissy but I for one rather the cop go home to his/her family than someone who is approaching the cop with a weapon. End of story. C) The first nation chiefs in Manitoba screaming that the WPS is using racial profiling and shooting innocent natives without reason. The story that I read sure stated that the cops had every right to use deadly force after using pepper spray, and telling the young man to drop the knife several times, which was confirmed by SEVERAL witnesses. As for the race part, I believe the cops would have reacted the same if the person had been black, white, Chinese, or native.

2. I think its time the First Nation People need to start looking at themselves and working with each other to pick themselves up out of the dirt and start to solve their problems ((alcohol abuse, child abuse, spousal abuse, drugs, poverty). The Canadian government is pumping billions into the native community to try to help do programs and services to help them are not working. We need to go and restructure the system. One of the big things I think needs to be done here is simply that the money that is going in needs to be watched and monitored and made sure the money is going where it needs to go. I am sick of hearing and seeing that chiefs of reserves seem to have 2 houses, one on the reserve and one in a major city. I'm sick of seeing natives who are chummy or family of a chief driving brand new trucks all the time, have great houses on the reserve while others who are not so chummy with the chief are barely making it by with run down houses, I mean living like that no wonder they turn to drugs and alcohol to help numb the pain. And yes I am very sure of my views since I live in a area with 8 different reserves and in a town that sees natives drunk on the streets and fighting and what not. I don't think I'm being racist here, and I hope you don't think that either. I just really really strongly believe that we need to quit giving speeches and a big show here and actually get our hands dirty and get going helping these people become the proud nation they once were.

3. Canada saying sorry to everyone and their dog.
Okie this one is really a touchy subject. What set me off on this one is when our Prime Minister said sorry to the sheiks for some event back in the early 1900's that we sent a boat load of them back to their native land and most of them died when they arrived, here in Canada we said sorry. And the representatives decided that it was not good enough. SCREW YOU! Why is it we have to keep saying sorry to everyone who came to this country and something happened that they don't like? I mean this happened like 96 - 100 years ago. Enough is enough. Time to move on. All the things that happened back then, it was a different time and one where the world was run a lot different. It's done, its over, its time Canada moved on and worked hard at becoming one nation and unified community. It looks like to me that we are fractured every time our government gets up to say sorry for this or for that. We had the Chinese, then Natives, and now the Sheiks. Let's look past the past, learn our lessons, and look towards a good future as a great nation.

4. Love
God I could prob do a huge blog on this alone. Lets just say its not happening with me and by the look of things wont happen for quite along time. I do enjoy hearing my friends are happy in love and in relationships and such, but it hurts to be alone. I work my 12 hour shift and then go home to an empty house, where I make a quick meal and then maybe take about an hour to surf or play a few games on the net, then to bed. Wake up the next day and do it all over again. I keep telling myself to go to the bar and socialize and maybe see if there is any interest there but I don't know. I really don't want anything to do with the bar scene anymore and I keep hearing that's not the place to pick up ladies. But being in a small community there really is not much other options. Anyway enough said about this before I get too dang depressed again.

5. Work
Things are up in the air here. I applied for a supervisor job that I thought I would really be good at, and well I did not get it. Our industry is going thru a huge change here in the next year and my future here in the dispatch center is in question. We don't know if we will be here or gone in a year when all changes happen so now my future is up in the air. I'm trying to get the money together to redo a bunch of my courses and such so I can go on ambulance and use that as my career.