Well, i have been up for almost 48 hours and yet i still have not slept.... i cannot figure it out.... my mind is trying to tell me somethig that i cannot catch on to, and it is eating me up on the inside.... it is too bad you cannot hear what your sub-conscience mind is trying to tell you... i mean that would only be easy and who the hell wants that.... but NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you have to figure this shit out yoursel, there is no easy way out of this, no one to tell you what is wrong, no doctor to say, "Hey, this is what is wrong with you. Take two of these and call me in the morning, and if you are not fixed, well then, YOUR FUCKED, DEAL!!!!!!!!!!"..... i mean that would be better than knowing that something was worng and not neing able to fix it....... and for those of you that know me, you will never know that somethig is wrong, unless you ask, then you might get an answer... otherwise, all you are gonna see is that perfect guise that i put on for everyone.... that same shit, different day answer..... what to do what to do what to do.... nothing .... that is all one can do, just sit back, watch the shit hit the fan, then play janitor for a week or so that watch it all happen once more.....

FUCK ALL OF THAT SHIT THAT IS ALL IT IS IS SHIT NOTHING MORE WHO NEEDS IT

Anywho (that phrase annoys me), this song by Bush sings to me, tells me something but i dont know what.... all i know is that i cannot quit listening to it.... many of his songs do this to me but this one in particular has been doing it to me more and more ... It is called "Everthing Zen".... check it out if you like them, and if you dont do it anyway cause it is a good song and you might just like them......

Well, i think i am finished here...

So how have all of you been in your own little worlds.... good or at least better than my own... if not then i am sorry .... but keep in ming that everthing gets better in the end, weither it be the end to the means that is putting you in the mood you are in presently or death, because it is the ultimate end to all means... well peace
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Wow.... how time flies when you are .... bored out your ass .... i would bore you with all of the retarded crap that has hit the metaphorical fan that is above my head..... but i really do not feel like typing it all up so just deal.... ... anyway.... finally i have some time to myself.... well, a day at least.... now time to catch up on some sleep.... nevermind, sleep is for the weak and i am strooooo zzzzzzzzzzz...... maybe not..... think i will take a nap...

So, hope all is well in your world.... if not, well it all gets better with a little vodka and jager... well...

Peace
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Hmmm, not much to say really... not much has been going on in my world... just the same old stuff; that everyday bullshit that everone puts up with on a day to day basis... but that is about it.

How is it in your world? Good i hope, or at least better than it was when ever it was bad.... whatever....

This girl i am talking to makes my day.... i like her honestly and she makes me extremly happy... well any way...

Hope all of you have good times in your world.. peace
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You are the color red. You are the most<br>controversial of all the colors. You are often<br>easily angered, but as easily as you got<br>excited, you come down. When angered, do you<br>have the tendency to be malicious? Afterwards,<br>do you end up begging for forgiveness? Maybe.<br>But you're incredibly generous, and, odd<br>enough, needy. You love to hate, and<br>sometimes, you hate to love. This color<br>describes you as generally edgy. When in a bad<br>situation, you're pessimistic, and when you're<br>in a good situation, you're extremely<br>optimistic. You're painfully tempermental, and<br>sometimes it hurts the ones you love. But with<br>an exciting and stimulating attitude, you enjoy<br>talking to people and being social. But aside<br>from your bold and outgoing attitude, you're<br>attention-needing and attention-getting. This<br>color is associated with lust and desire--and<br>you are both lust and desirous. You're a<br>protective person when it comes to the people<br>you love. You're incredibly sharp-witted and<br>powerful (not to mention intelligent!).

Well, that is about it...... byt he way... i met someone... peace everyone and have fun in your little worlds... im outie
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Edit on 13/02/2005 at 22:05
Holy shit this is funny... but it is 30 minutes long so if ya have time.. watch it..

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/demented.php

Peace
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I have a question...... If you say "Jesus fucking Christ".... are you saying that jesus is masturbating? because if so, then that makes "Christ" the dick..... or is it the other way around..... i dont know.... that made me stop and think.... ohhh well

i think that was about it.. have fun and peace
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hmmmmm, not really much to talk about.... so i guess i will ramble.... it seems to me that people are getting older at a younger age, and why is this? most people blame the media, i dont. i blame the parents. who knows, for a fact, that spanking your kids is abusive? i was spanked all the way up till i was 17 and i do not think it is that bad of an idea. this was brought on by one of my friends that just recently had a kid and will not punish her for anything... and the kid runs all over her... and so i asked myself why? she expects a 2 year old child to know right from wrong, and in fact she does, but not to the extent that we as adults do. this kid knows that hitting the dog is wrong, but will still do it anyway, and my friend lets her do it anyway, and her excuse is that, and i quote, "She does not know any better......" fuck that, the reason the kid kows no better is because you have not let her know what is right and wrong.... and this is why i say that spanking should not be wrong... it iteaches them that there is a consequence for every action. you shoot a police officer and you are in a lot of shit. if you do not set limits for a child, then he will not know what all is allowed and what is not. and people wonder as to why crime is worse now than it was earlier?????? i fucking wonder why????? well, so i tell my friend that if she does not dicipline her child, then she is doing nothing to help her kid. "But it hurts me to spank my kid!"..... so, it is gonna hurt you even more watching your kid put to death by a needle because he did not kow that killing people was bad... (i know i am taking this to an extreme but if you are goning to be this ignorant, then something needs to be done. ) ........ i just really dont know about these parents these days.... i am not dissing parents, because i know that there are parents on this site, but do your kids a favor, be their parents and show them what is right and wrong. i PROMISE that it will be for their benifit...... i always hated getting punished but i turned out better for it... and i thank my parents for being parents and doing what was right... but i am not a parent, so i have no place to tell parents what is right and what is wrong.... so, do as you please and make sure you are doing what you believe is right and hope that it turns out well and good...

well, now that all the rambling is all done and over with, i think i can move on to something better... how was all of your days and how is your weekend so far.... good??? bad??? tell me about it... i like to hear stories and who knows, maybe some of the shit i spout out might help you out in the long run.... you never know... never hurts to try...

hmmmm, now what to talk about???? i have no clue so i guess i will roll on out and see all of you later.... have fun and dont do anything i would not do (not that that leaves alot out )...... and here are 61 through 80... out of 161..... geez there are alot of them.... ohhh well... have fun in your little worlds.

61) Glove your pecker before you check her

62) Coat that slimmer before you prime her

63) Condomize then womanize (or sodomize)

64) Cover old pete then grind her meat

65) Guard your peter before you meet her

66) Check your list before you tryst

67) Wrap your bate before you mate

68) Can your worm before you squirm

69) Cover your pipe you dumb ass wipe

70) Contain your lizard then tickle her gizzard

71) Bag the mole then do her hole

72) Cuff your carrot before you share it

73) Jail your number then call the plumber

74) Cover your vein then drive her insane

75) Wrap that pickle then slip her a tickle

76) Protect your dink then fluff her mink

77) Restrain your lantern then stick it in her cavern

78) Hide ole harry then take her cherry

79) Wrap that spout then bore her out

80) Conceal your train don't cause her pain

*cue the pig* "thats all folks"
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Well, i hope that all of you little lovlies out there had one awesome of a time drinking it up for New Years Day... cause i know i did.. and you never know what you are possible of ding until you are drunk... i ended up dancing, and for those of you that dont know i dont dance well nor do i like to dance, but i did.. and to my amazement, i dont dance all that bad. i know this because my friend thought it would make for some relly good kicks next morning if he filmed everything that happened all that night. and he did just that.. now i have a film of everyone that came to that party in the skivvies and dancing all ike a couple of idiots that escaped from a mental institution and are living it up until the white coats come back to get them... hmmmm, i wonder what else i will do should i get drunk around them.... hmmmm....

Ohhh well, what is done is done, and i hope that all is well in your little worlds, hmmmm? If not then i hope it will all get to be that way, and should it not, try try again because that is all you can do, next to wishing and that has never gotten me anywhere... anyway... hope you the best of time and *cue the pig* here are 41 through 60.. have fun and Peace
Alive

41) Cover that lumber before you pump her

42) Protect her wrinkle before you sprinkle

43) She won't bristle if you wrap your whistle

44) House your noodle then release your strudel

45) Put your dog in the pound and make her yelp like a hound

46) Shelter your jerky then nab that turkey

47) Cage that snake then shake and bake

48) Cover your peter it will be much neater

49) Coat that Labrador then allow him to explore

50) It's always funky to cage your monkey

51) It won't be funny with a coatless dummy

52) It won't be fun with an unwrapped thumb

53) It's not much money to catch your honey

54) Don't be a fool cover your tool

55) Hood that match then scratch that thatch

56) Stitch that switch then itch her niche

57) Wrap that tool to catch the drool

58) It ain't no jibe to protect her hive

59) Contain that sputum before you use him

60) Restrain your log then plow her bog

It is New Years Eve, and what is the best way to bring in the new year..... get completly wasted.... and that is what i plan on doing. Drunken fun with nothing in particular to do and nothing worth doing leaves no time to waste, so pick up your bottle or can of whatever and toss one back for me as i will toos one back for you and in that moment, we will be connected by America's lowest assholes favorite think to do, get wasted..... so as we both toss one up, we can give them the finger too and have lots of merry new years fun... this is about all i have to say... peace and here is 21-40 slogans for condoms.

21) If you really love her, wear a cover

22) Don't make a mistake, cover your snake

23) Sex is cleaner with a packaged wiener

24) If you can't shield your rocket, leave it in your pocket

25) No glove, no love

26) If you think she'll sigh, cover old one eye

27) Even If she's eager, protect her beaver

28) No one likes a horses ass, protect yourself at climax

29) Shield her from the hunt until you shoot her in the cunt

30) Avoid a frown, contain your clown

31) Harness the pygmy man before entering the bearded clam

32) Constrain the little head before you stick it in the shed

33) Put a condom on your dink before you dart it in her sink

34) The weasel you must surround before you please her on the ground

35) Cloak the joker before you poke her

36) Encase that torch before you paint her porch

37) Cape your throbber before you bob her

38) After detection sheath your erection

39) Before you penetrate hide your magistrate

40) Don't surprise her plug your Geyser

*and i am out*
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Hmmmm, i am sooo bored in my town, i would love to take a trip. Somewhere that i can be myself and that no one knows me for who i am. That way i am not seen as the person everyone knows me, but somewhere that i am basically alone , and be alone to myself with with company that just has recently met me. I would also love to meet new and interesting people, just give me something to do... i think i will go to texas this summer and see a friend that loves in texas, then off to see the other places of the west coast and then off to germany for a while. I wanna meet people that i have never met before and then keep in touch over a long distance then every once or twice a year, get together for about a week and live it up. That way i do not have to deal with their shit up and close and can give advise to them over the phone, so i do not get dragged in and can be an innocent bystander with the love and hope that all will be well. That sounds soooooo wonderful... now that i am done being sentimental and all that gay shit, i have no news from my world.

How is it in everybody's world....? Hope all is peachy with lots of smiles..., cause that would be great. Well i think i will leave you with this.... the first 20 of the condom slogans...

1) Cover your stump before you hump

2) Before you attack her, wrap your whacker

3) Don't be silly, protect your Willie

4) When in doubt shroud you spout

5) Don't be a loner, cover your boner

6) You can't go wrong, if you shield your dong

7) If your not going to sack it, go home and whack it

8) If you think she's spunky, cover your monkey

9) It will be sweeter if you wrap your peter

10) If you slip between her thighs, condomize

11) She won't get sick if you wrap your dick

12) If you go into heat, package your meat

13) While your undressing Venus, dress up your penis

14) When you take off her pants and blouse, suit up your mouse

15) Especially in December, gift wrap your member

16) Never ever deck her, with an unwrapped pecker

17) Don't be a fool, vulcanize your tool

18) The right selection, is to protect your erection

19) Wrap it in foil, before you check her oil

20) A crank with armor, will never harm her


Well i think that is all folks... *cue the pig*... peace
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You know... looking into your own eye kinda creeps me out. I have know idea if it is just the fact that i can see all the shit i have been through or all the shit i have done in the name of fun, but i cannot look at myself in the mirror. I mean i can to get ready because it takes a hell of a long time to brush out my long ass hair but as far as looking ot myself just to look, i cannot bring myself to do so. It is right along the same line as pain, not the good kind but the kind that makes you want to throw up and go lie in a bed and never want to crawl out. It makes me wonder if being human really worth it. What if we were all animals and acted on instinct.... there would be no pain, no worry, no hate, but no love. And right there makes me stop and like the fact that i am a human because i now have the choice to do what ever i want to do. I might have to live with what i do and i might even come to regret it (though i never regret anything, live life and have fun), you still had fun and that is all that matters. And if you cannot have fun alone, have it with someone else....

Well, all is well in my town, how about yours. I hope all is well and it is snowing there as it is in mine. Snow makes me sooooooo happy. I think i have backwards winter depression. I do not get depressed during the winter, i get depressed during the summer. Sunny days piss me off, where as if it is cloudy or raining, i am the happiest person you will wver meet. Have fun in your little town and hope to hear from you. Peace
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