ok so im heading home tomorrow morning and this is again going to be the first time ive been home in four years.....i a little worried and a little excited about it. i have alot of friend who are really happy about me coming home. and so is my mom and family who live up there. so wish me luck and all that good stuff that goes with it.

ARGH!!! ok so well its my last week of an eight year run in texas and everything is going wrong.....money disappears, phone got stolen today which really sucks phone bill got racked up to 400 dollars not sure how that happened.....all my numbers for the new jobs i had lined up in wyoming were in my phone so i have to make a mad dash to locate all those in the next couple of days and make calls send e-mails and such to get everyone in the loop on things missing on such......this has to be the worst move i've ever made.....now i might have to sell my pool sticks and mid-evil weapons of various kinds to replace lost money which makes me angry and sad cuz some of this stuff i've had for the last eight years or so.....Hopefully it doesnt get any worse i dont know how much more i can handle of this before i start swinging at people and generally kicking ass and such probably not the best idea but it sure would make me feel better.....

Ok well so alot is going to be happening in the next couple of weeks.....looks like im going to be moving back home for a while which is wyoming....gotta find a job up there place to live and such. Me and my roommate had some what of a falling out and hes basiclly kicking me out for it being a bitch to find a job these days. Cant really blame him life happens not much for it and he does need to think about his well being and all. I will be heading back up north in about two weeks give or take alot of my friends here in texas arent happy about it at all....most actually want to kick my roommates ass for this but what the hell ive been in worse situations not much for it. Just thought i would let everyone know whats up since i havent blogged in a while so yeah thats my little part of hell and such laters.

ok so kinda got my comp up and running with a temp patch on its hard drive to keep it from crashing at the moment should last a couple of months with this setup >.> go us techno geeks who figure some weird shit out on fixing things. Getting ready to move again yay so not excited about that since the apartment complex that were moving to already fucked shit up with our deposit and apartment and everything. Oh well shit happens ill fix it later i guess. Me and my roommate are going head to head about stupid shit stressing about a this move and b everything that goes along with having a short time to do a move in like two days. Over all life has kinda been shitty and one hell of a pain in the ass....not enough drinking so not enough cigs around the house and oh yeah still little to no sleep as always what the fuck O.O oh well guess i'll just do what i always do and take it in stride either that or beat some ones head against a wall cuz im tired of it being mine >.>

ok just so people know im still alive aside from the people getting messages from me and such.....i am alive well mostly anyways i still dont sleep much if at all lately.....working anywhere from 40 to 60 hours a week still havent made time to replace the hard drive on my computer so its still down and out and even if it was fixed i dont think i would be on much anyways with all the working i'm still doing. my roommate keeps yelling at me im going to kill myself or send myself back to the hospital but not like im all that worried about it lately all tho he keeps telling me to start worrying about it......he also says i need to go and find myself a lady friend to help keep me from working so much.....i fail to see how im supposed to manage that when im working all the time......some times im not sure if he really thinks about what he says to me *rolls eyes* course i've been throwing myself into work because i dont have said lady friend but oh well......either way i'm still alive havent gotten sick yet or even feel remotely close to getting sick....but that doesnt mean that its not going to happen......so yeah thats whats going on for not laters all

ok well so i havent been around for a while like i said i wasnt going to be......ended up in the hospital again i know i know bad ale for not taking care of himself......guess thats my body telling me to sleep fucker sleep. But yeah still not doing much of that and knowingly i see another hospital trip again because of it......if i keep this up im going to owe the hospital what little is left of my black little soul.....Either way work is progressing slowly and annoyingly since still my General Manager is a complete retard but oh well shit happens i dont intend to keep this job for ever and when a better opportunity presents itself i will take it gladly. But until then im stuck at a shit job getting paid way less than what i went to college for *rolls eyes*.....but gambling at pool is still paying the bills better than working at this shit job but cant always win so dont rely on it all the time >.> so yeah thats whats been going on for the last couple of weeks in my life.....yeah so until i either get a new comp and even then when i find the time ill keep up to date as much as possiable laters all

ok so my computer bit it the other day which sucks ass so my posts and my responses are going to be limited due to the fact that i will be using my roommates computer when hes not home and when im not at work which is all the bloody time......either way i will try to get a new computer with this income tax but no promises cuz i have to get a car with it as well......we shall see which becomes more important to me when the money arrives >.> hopefully i have enough for both and it wont come down to making a choice between one or the other. So thats whats up for now laters all

well life is moving on....managed to maintain my friendship with my friend but its on rocky grounds at the moment....other than that working alot and little to no time for much i will still be on here at much as possible but with as much as im being working going to be a little bit far and in between for a bit. I'll try and keep people up to date as much as possible with whats going on.....that is all for now

well i had a decent bday until i went a fucked up one of my friendships with a person who has been there for me through alot and i went and pissed her off like no tomorrow and yes i was drunk but that doesn't mean thats an excuse for me doing what i did or saying what i said because shes seen me drunk enough times to know that i know full well whats going on around me at all times and i admit i fucked up and i fucked up big aint much for it lost my friend and thats that.......always something bad happens on my bday just wish it wasnt this...........

ok well its official im now 27 years old great another year under my belt.....still no sleep and probably wont get any sleep any time soon and if i do it would be a blessing cuz three days is starting to get to be to much with out sleep. Oh well have today off then have to be at work tomorrow at four....know im going to be either one of two things still drunk as all ell or hung over like a champ hopefully the latter of the two cuz i dont really want to be drunk and trying to cook peoples food....i think that might be a little bit of a bad idea and might just cost me my job >.> well heres to another year and hopefully a better one than the last.