I fucking love this picture. I HATE smiling. I hate my smile. But I shot with the awesome and amazing SoBelle back in April, and this is a preview from that shoot. You won't see it in Member Review until September-ish, but it is great, just trust me!
My leg fucking hurts today. Elise wants to keep touching it because she thinks its' pretty, so life is a bitch today and the next few days probably lol.
I am so excited to be a part of YoGWhaddup upcoming exhibition. It is truly an honor to have a picture as model, since I don't seem to be very marketable for paid work or exposure hahaha.
Hope everyone has a glorious day.
Also Abernathy. Check it out. Love it. Hate it. Feel neutrality. haha
New tattoo!! Not quite finished, but it's official I'm addicted!! 
It's on the inside of my thigh so I took probably thirty picture and I'm still not quite pleased with how it looks. I'm definitely no photographer.
My first SG shoot with Writeboy hits MR July 15th at 10 p.m. I had so much fun reconnecting with him, and all the pictures are TO DIE FOR!!!
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Abernathy still patiently sitting in member review. I love it, I hope SG buys it, but if they don't, c'est la vie, I think they say.
It's on the inside of my thigh so I took probably thirty picture and I'm still not quite pleased with how it looks. I'm definitely no photographer. My first SG shoot with Writeboy hits MR July 15th at 10 p.m. I had so much fun reconnecting with him, and all the pictures are TO DIE FOR!!!
And don't forget about
I need some advice... About a year old my very best friend in the whole world moved to Indianapolis to go to the Aveda Institute. As long as I've known her she'd wanted to go to Aveda and do hair, so when she decided to finally take the plunge I wanted to do everything I could to help her.
Because of Elise, I can't always be there physically, but long story short I ended up LOANING her 2000 dollars to help her get started in a new place, get settled in, have money between finding jobs, etc. Well once she moved, our relationship drastically changed, which isn't too surprising since she lives 3 hours away and we both have busy lives. But eventually the only times I heard from her when she was in town was if she was looking for green, or needed to borrow more money. I wrote her a very long heartfelt letter explaining why I was so upset, feeling like i was being used, etc etc.
Well she decided she's going on vacation to LA at the end of the month. That's awesome, I'd love to go to LA. Problem is, I haven't seen a DIME of the money I let her borrow. She had promised me a 1000 by now, and the one time I brought up her paying me back she got so shitty I feel awkward bringing it up, but I shouldn't because thats a shit load of money and she knew it wasn't a gift. I thought we were good enough friends that I would never have to worry about her paying me back, but this whole vacation thing is EATING ME UP. what should i do? how do i approach this?
I'm the worst with confrontation
Because of Elise, I can't always be there physically, but long story short I ended up LOANING her 2000 dollars to help her get started in a new place, get settled in, have money between finding jobs, etc. Well once she moved, our relationship drastically changed, which isn't too surprising since she lives 3 hours away and we both have busy lives. But eventually the only times I heard from her when she was in town was if she was looking for green, or needed to borrow more money. I wrote her a very long heartfelt letter explaining why I was so upset, feeling like i was being used, etc etc.
Well she decided she's going on vacation to LA at the end of the month. That's awesome, I'd love to go to LA. Problem is, I haven't seen a DIME of the money I let her borrow. She had promised me a 1000 by now, and the one time I brought up her paying me back she got so shitty I feel awkward bringing it up, but I shouldn't because thats a shit load of money and she knew it wasn't a gift. I thought we were good enough friends that I would never have to worry about her paying me back, but this whole vacation thing is EATING ME UP. what should i do? how do i approach this?
I'm the worst with confrontation
p.s. can i just say I'm the loneliest I've been literally ever. I'm definitely ready to date but being a single mom is a curse. Men don't you. Women don't want you. I had more sex in high school swear to god. I guess just dont fucking get it. I have my shit together, I look better than ever (in my opinion), I'm not seemingly out of my mind crazy. More than anything i'm looking for a lady companion and thats happening with no avail. I feel like I will be like my dad, alone for the rest of my life. so depressing. Personally I feel like I am pretty awesome and have a lot to offer ANYBODY, but no one else feels the same.... wahhhhh feel bad for me hahahaha
but really am i one of those girls who feels like they are pretty but really are a fucking dog??
but really am i one of those girls who feels like they are pretty but really are a fucking dog??
i got sad i didn't turn pink today, so I drank a whole bottle of wine and now i'm schwasted.
on the bright side I will be featured in a photography exhibition June 28th in Chicago. Anyone in the area should come I'd love to meet you all!
My intense yoga skills. Ya'll can't handle this!
on the bright side I will be featured in a photography exhibition June 28th in Chicago. Anyone in the area should come I'd love to meet you all!
My intense yoga skills. Ya'll can't handle this!Thanks to everyone who has shown concern about my current emotional slump. I feel extra horrible during this episode because my life is going swimmingly. I have a beautiful girl, who is a year and a half old today!, I am doing very well in school, I am lucky enough to be financially stable and have a home and car thats paid for. The more I take classes for psychology, my intended major, the more I realize the signs of a downward spiral, which helps me brace myself, but I can't stop it from happening. The past two days I've been in this manic stage almost. I have been obsessively cleaning, working out, not sleeping and I don't even feel tired. So in lieu of all this uncontrollable unnecessary crying , I made an appointment with an actual psychologist. One of my biggest issues is that I internalize literally everything. I have the hardest time talking to people I care about when life is not going so well. Part of it is that my dad does not understand depression at all. He just said "I don't have to be depressed". Well guess what, NEITHER DO I!!! I haven't met one person that's been like "depression is great! it doesn't negatively affect my life at all!"
Being overwhelmed with life and everything, I think I'm taking the summer session off school and moving to my mom's apartment in Chicago for the month of July. It will be a nice change of scenery, I'll be there by myself, and there's room for Elise. I'm just hoping to snap out of this shit, because when I get depressed I feel like I fall into such depths that most people don't even know how dark of a place I live in.
Abernathy is still in member review. It has over 900 comments and 97% love, (a BIG thank you to everyone who taken the time to comment on it). With all the competition with both hopefuls and SGs, I have a big feeling this set will not make me pink. But I am beyond proud of the pictures. I had had a baby one year prior to shooting with Alissa, and although I was about 20 pounds heavier than I was used to seeing myself, I felt HOT, and I guess wanted to prove that a single new mom in a nowheresville Indiana town can make her dreams come true, even at the age of 24. Regardless of what The Council decides to do with my set, at the time I gave it my all, and will always think this set made me look stunning.
Sorry for the chapter book.
By the way.... I'm dark brown again!!!!!!
Being overwhelmed with life and everything, I think I'm taking the summer session off school and moving to my mom's apartment in Chicago for the month of July. It will be a nice change of scenery, I'll be there by myself, and there's room for Elise. I'm just hoping to snap out of this shit, because when I get depressed I feel like I fall into such depths that most people don't even know how dark of a place I live in.
Abernathy is still in member review. It has over 900 comments and 97% love, (a BIG thank you to everyone who taken the time to comment on it). With all the competition with both hopefuls and SGs, I have a big feeling this set will not make me pink. But I am beyond proud of the pictures. I had had a baby one year prior to shooting with Alissa, and although I was about 20 pounds heavier than I was used to seeing myself, I felt HOT, and I guess wanted to prove that a single new mom in a nowheresville Indiana town can make her dreams come true, even at the age of 24. Regardless of what The Council decides to do with my set, at the time I gave it my all, and will always think this set made me look stunning.
Sorry for the chapter book.
By the way.... I'm dark brown again!!!!!!
Good morning SG! I just waked and baked and am about to head to the store for donuts and chocolate milk. There was also a huge thunderstorm last night, at about 4 I woke up and heard it, opened my windows and just listened for like 45 minutes. Things like that I miss doing when I didn't have a kid. If I would have had Elise last night, there is no way I would have been up for no reason in the middle of the night.
I had a really good friend date this weekend. I haven't seen many of my buddies lately, because of my constantly nuts schedule, but we went to this really good new brewhouse. afterwards we went to a new glass shop and I purchased a cute new bowl and a steamroller (the reason for my trip) that is a color changer with pac man inside it. OMG nerd Erin wasn't leaving the store without it.
Still super pleased with the love shown on Abernathy. Thanks to everyone who has taken the time to check it out <3 <3
I had a really good friend date this weekend. I haven't seen many of my buddies lately, because of my constantly nuts schedule, but we went to this really good new brewhouse. afterwards we went to a new glass shop and I purchased a cute new bowl and a steamroller (the reason for my trip) that is a color changer with pac man inside it. OMG nerd Erin wasn't leaving the store without it.
Still super pleased with the love shown on Abernathy. Thanks to everyone who has taken the time to check it out <3 <3
