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thats it, i got nothing left.
i feel like im trapped
trapped in a cement room with no windows, no lights, no room. no freedom. i feel like no matter how hard i bang, and smash, and run into the walls, it just does not matter. there is no light in this room except for the occasional beam of light. but they come and go randomly, my spirits get lifted when they are here, even just a single one but the time between them when they are gone hurts. i hurt. im tired of hurting. im tired of trying for things that i never get. i am a failure. i am failing at life, i fail at work, i fail trying to get myself back into a better position. i fail. and now im tired of failing. I think the straw that broke me was i did not get the job i applied for. i put everything into it. my heart, my soul. i worked so god damn hard, and yet. i once again failed. this is like the story of my life here. i mean i have a low paying job. i mean yes im helping lives and such, but lets face facts here. i go to the bar and people ask me "what do you do for a living?" and i tell them. im a e911 dispatcher. then they lose intrest. and im once again forgotten. i failed at getting the job, and i have been failing in my social life. i took a chance and came out of my "shell" and it hurts. hurts too much. time to go back into my shell and just ....... exist. its safer that way.
i am going to let this subscription run out. i am no longer going to be here, or on msn, or facebook. its time i face reality and its ugly. its time to go back into my shell where i was safe, alone yes, but safe and content. im tired of being depressed, im tired of being hurt, i have met wonderful people here. you are my beams of light inside my prison. but its not enough...not anymore....i wish everyone a wonderful life, and may you all be blessed and find what you need, and long for. there is not really anything to say but thank you all... take care...maybe we will see you on the other side....
AlbertaTeddyBear
i feel like im trapped
trapped in a cement room with no windows, no lights, no room. no freedom. i feel like no matter how hard i bang, and smash, and run into the walls, it just does not matter. there is no light in this room except for the occasional beam of light. but they come and go randomly, my spirits get lifted when they are here, even just a single one but the time between them when they are gone hurts. i hurt. im tired of hurting. im tired of trying for things that i never get. i am a failure. i am failing at life, i fail at work, i fail trying to get myself back into a better position. i fail. and now im tired of failing. I think the straw that broke me was i did not get the job i applied for. i put everything into it. my heart, my soul. i worked so god damn hard, and yet. i once again failed. this is like the story of my life here. i mean i have a low paying job. i mean yes im helping lives and such, but lets face facts here. i go to the bar and people ask me "what do you do for a living?" and i tell them. im a e911 dispatcher. then they lose intrest. and im once again forgotten. i failed at getting the job, and i have been failing in my social life. i took a chance and came out of my "shell" and it hurts. hurts too much. time to go back into my shell and just ....... exist. its safer that way.
i am going to let this subscription run out. i am no longer going to be here, or on msn, or facebook. its time i face reality and its ugly. its time to go back into my shell where i was safe, alone yes, but safe and content. im tired of being depressed, im tired of being hurt, i have met wonderful people here. you are my beams of light inside my prison. but its not enough...not anymore....i wish everyone a wonderful life, and may you all be blessed and find what you need, and long for. there is not really anything to say but thank you all... take care...maybe we will see you on the other side....
AlbertaTeddyBear
This is going to be a short post:
After a few of my co-workers here have approached me and servered me notice of thier "intervention" they are saying im dropping deeper and deeper into a depression. and yet i dont see it. yes i have cut off ties from my online games, i barely talk to my parents anymore, im not very active here on sg, or any of the sites i usually visit. i dont feel like talking to people, or doing anything but work and home to sleep. i dont care for my tv shows anymore, i mean the only good thing that is going on is im eating alot more salada and friuts and veggies.... maybe i am sick...who knows.
until we talk again
teddy
After a few of my co-workers here have approached me and servered me notice of thier "intervention" they are saying im dropping deeper and deeper into a depression. and yet i dont see it. yes i have cut off ties from my online games, i barely talk to my parents anymore, im not very active here on sg, or any of the sites i usually visit. i dont feel like talking to people, or doing anything but work and home to sleep. i dont care for my tv shows anymore, i mean the only good thing that is going on is im eating alot more salada and friuts and veggies.... maybe i am sick...who knows.
until we talk again
teddy
you know i always sit here with the best intentions to write a blog that would totaly rock your world but when i finally make it to this page my mind goes to hell in a handbasket really quickly. Its almost like some wierd and mysterious thing is blocking what i want to say. Or it could be im just scared due to a few times of posting things and having them seen in the wrong light and then losing friends. I am going to be honest here, i dont have many friends in real life and i know here is internet friends but i truely and honestly value all friendships here i have online as if they were right next to me and you are people i see face to face everyday. I have a very very hard time making friends face to face. im always scared that i will say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing or just be the wrong thing. The internet is so safe. I know everyone says beware on the net and its not that safe but for me it is. i can hide here, i can be the flirty guy that everyone says hi to or gets a laugh from. or even puts a smile on your face. its like my job and its something i love doing. but the thing is and it always has been for the last 12 years, is really simple. Im alone. I feel fucking lonely. I could be in a room full of people and still be alone. I know it sounds cliche but its true. I am starting to find things that use to really give me pleasure or joy, just dont do anymore. An great example of that would be my playing of Everquest and Everquest 2 online game. Man i use to do that all the time, you could not get me away from my game unless it was to go to work. Now i have not even been online in about 3 weeks. I just dont have the energy or drive to be there anymore. could it be im growing out of the game phase of my life? or could it be i just needed a break? who knows, i guess only time will tell.
On another track, i have a good friend that i get to talk to everyday ((mostly due to her being a cooridinator for air ambulance so i have to talk to her at work LOL)), she thinks i might be fighting depression again. I told her i did not have the energy or drive to argue with her on that LOL just kiddin. i let her know i was just mot feeling up to some things. i have alot on my mind that i need sorting and such
1. Room mate ((who kicks ass)) is moving out ((well being forced out due to her losing her job at our company) and ill be alone for a bit there, until they decide who all will move in with me ((i only pay 1/2 rent so i dont have a say as to who lives with me)) that is something that makes me nervous
2. i applied for a job with this company that i think i would really do good here, i did up a resume, and a great cover letter, and handed it in. i dont know whats up due to the fact the job posting will go till the 20th of june. i really really reallly hope i get it. the ironey is that its the job that my roomie had. well i guess only time will tell on that one too
3. lack of communications between myself and my great friends espeically here on SG. it all falls down to the lack energy. it seems that all i do is work and work and never have a chance really to do anything for me. not that i have the money anyway hehehe
4. lack of funds. i took this job willingly and knowing the rate of pay. the bad thingis that now im broke al the time and living paycheck to paycheck...okie lied there im acctually living 1 paycheck behind a paycheck. i know most people would say get off your ass and get a better job. But its hard. especially when you find a job your good at, and do truely love doing. it takes a special person **and no im not tooting my own horn or displaying my ego on this** to do this. to pick up the phone when someone is having one of the worst days in their life and help calm them down so you can send help to them. to effect thier lives so much that it could be the diffrence between life and death. its a huge responsibility.
5. family. its simple. i miss them. i wish i could go and see them for a few weeks on the west coast but i cant. enough said about this
6. bug, sorry had to put this one in here. i HATE bugs. i get so irriated when they fly around my face or even land on me. drives me nuts! prob one of the reasons i love winter so much is that there are no bugs around. oh well like some people around here say...suck it up princess
wow thats about it..damn ment to pop on here and say hi. guess i needed to vent....
lots of love to you all....miss you all terribly.....hugs!
On another track, i have a good friend that i get to talk to everyday ((mostly due to her being a cooridinator for air ambulance so i have to talk to her at work LOL)), she thinks i might be fighting depression again. I told her i did not have the energy or drive to argue with her on that LOL just kiddin. i let her know i was just mot feeling up to some things. i have alot on my mind that i need sorting and such
1. Room mate ((who kicks ass)) is moving out ((well being forced out due to her losing her job at our company) and ill be alone for a bit there, until they decide who all will move in with me ((i only pay 1/2 rent so i dont have a say as to who lives with me)) that is something that makes me nervous
2. i applied for a job with this company that i think i would really do good here, i did up a resume, and a great cover letter, and handed it in. i dont know whats up due to the fact the job posting will go till the 20th of june. i really really reallly hope i get it. the ironey is that its the job that my roomie had. well i guess only time will tell on that one too
3. lack of communications between myself and my great friends espeically here on SG. it all falls down to the lack energy. it seems that all i do is work and work and never have a chance really to do anything for me. not that i have the money anyway hehehe
4. lack of funds. i took this job willingly and knowing the rate of pay. the bad thingis that now im broke al the time and living paycheck to paycheck...okie lied there im acctually living 1 paycheck behind a paycheck. i know most people would say get off your ass and get a better job. But its hard. especially when you find a job your good at, and do truely love doing. it takes a special person **and no im not tooting my own horn or displaying my ego on this** to do this. to pick up the phone when someone is having one of the worst days in their life and help calm them down so you can send help to them. to effect thier lives so much that it could be the diffrence between life and death. its a huge responsibility.
5. family. its simple. i miss them. i wish i could go and see them for a few weeks on the west coast but i cant. enough said about this
6. bug, sorry had to put this one in here. i HATE bugs. i get so irriated when they fly around my face or even land on me. drives me nuts! prob one of the reasons i love winter so much is that there are no bugs around. oh well like some people around here say...suck it up princess
wow thats about it..damn ment to pop on here and say hi. guess i needed to vent....
lots of love to you all....miss you all terribly.....hugs!
Well i know im a bit later here but i have finally gotten time to sit and make this new blog. thank you all first of all, for commenting on my last blog even though it really did not say much. this one is going to be under spoiler just because it will have all the emotions i have been feeliing for the last litte while. I am going to warn you now, alot of what im going to say are just thoughts and feelings going thru me. Some might even indicate about hurting myself, i can tell you now that i have no desire to do that to myself now. Back a while ago i would be worried but now im all good. So if you dont want to read it then i dont mind. stop in and say hi, for those of you who are intriqued...welcome to my nghtmare.........................................................
))) i guess ill just start talking aand see where it leads me right now.sorry if i jump around alot but this is more for clearing my head out than to be wirting a perfect blog:
okie venting done so far. here let me put a few pics up for you all to see. me with morning hair hehehe
kk im outta here for a bit....see you around. and hugs
and take care of each other
TB
this is just a quick blog to say hello to everyone and that i miss you all and i promise to update a good blog here in the next day or so...with pics of me with hair! **yes i have grown my hair out a bit** anyway talk to you all in a bit!
Alta
Alta
i have had a mental and physical breakdown. not the type of blog i wanted to write but its why i really have not been around lately. mentally and physically i have shut down and fell into a small world where i cannot be hurt as i have been in real life. Sorry to you all if this is a whiny type of blog but like my others i need ot clear out my mind and this is a way of doing it. i have to say before i really get into this is a huge huge huge hug and thanks to the one and only Bellica in that she is trying to help me find my match even though she lives like a few thousand miles away **okie more than a few hehe*** i am sorry hun i have not been around much...
i am not sure how i can put this. i mean i cant even figure out what the hell is wrong with me to begin with let alone be able to put it down. i am now seeing a shrink. that is helping a bit. with the talks i am finding out that i was abused as a preteen and teen. according to him i suppressed these memories and thoughts and with a few inccidents that have happened the last few weeks these memories have sufaced and that is a huge contributer to my break down. hehe the only escape i could find is work. and that is just not healthy. so i have alot more to see him about and talk to him about.
anyway all that is in very brief of what is doing on. later on ill be poppin in and saying hi to you all. and trying to update you. untile then, lots of love to you all and hugs....i miss you all, i miss being sane, i miss being happy
alta
i am not sure how i can put this. i mean i cant even figure out what the hell is wrong with me to begin with let alone be able to put it down. i am now seeing a shrink. that is helping a bit. with the talks i am finding out that i was abused as a preteen and teen. according to him i suppressed these memories and thoughts and with a few inccidents that have happened the last few weeks these memories have sufaced and that is a huge contributer to my break down. hehe the only escape i could find is work. and that is just not healthy. so i have alot more to see him about and talk to him about.
anyway all that is in very brief of what is doing on. later on ill be poppin in and saying hi to you all. and trying to update you. untile then, lots of love to you all and hugs....i miss you all, i miss being sane, i miss being happy
alta
well i think its time to update this thing, now remember all, these are just random thoughts floating around this here head and are popping out in no particular order:
1. i am finding myself getting depressed again here, its starting to become spring once again and yes mens and womens thoughts eventually turn to relationships and such as have mine. Its the major reason for this depression i think, well sure, its just one part of it but ill get to that later.
2. i have found myself daydreaming (for a better word for it) about how i want to live out the rest of my life. now that i have done that i have jinxed myself and of course it wont work that way so ill be busy working towards a new way of doing it.
3. i dont know where this itch is coming from, but i find myself more and more wanting to move from this place. at first i was all excited and such about being up here but after only 4 months of being here i am starting to realize that this may not be a good place for me to be at. i am also extremely upset that my beliefs and thoughts on how a emergency medical company should be working as a team and that teamwork was one of the most important things and such, well i have seen the reality, or at least the reality up here at this particular place where there is no team work, the EMR's (the lowest lvl of emergency worker on ambulance here) are treated no better than slaves, cleaning the vehicle, stocking it, doing all the gopher jobs here, and just being treated like shit. now i realize being the lowest of the levels you are expect to "put" your time in and such, but i for one would really not be able to handle the crap these people go thru. Then you have your EMT's who are the middle people, they order the EMR's around, and try to push thier duties onto them while sitting around having coffee or surfing the net or whatever the hell they do. Then the last lvl is the Paramedics, now i have to admit in the last week things have been getting better, but before some of them *not all* would refuse to do anything around the base (base duties are to be done by ALL on shift), and pretty well walk around with huge egos and huge attitudes. but lately i have noticed a change in that they are now realizing that they have to help out too. anyway back to my original thought on this, there is no teamwork here and that crushed my thoughts on how great EMS is. i dont know maybe i need to sit back and rethink this whole thing. im not sure i even want to go on ambulance, the pay is crap up here, and the crap you have to put up with from your "partner" is no good either.
4. i want to welcome back a good friend of mine to sg, she knows who she is, and i hope she realizes i would do anything in my power to keep her smiling.. lots of love to you hun
5. another disturbing thought popping around in this wide open space is how i notice friends on sg and how they drift apart after a time, for some i know its hard to say hi to everyone all the time but after awhile you drift apart and thats pretty sad. i know i value all my friendships and i am guilty of not saying hi to everyone but i vow to at least send everyone a hug or a smile.
well i have alot more to talk about but time is running out right now so i shall bid you all a great day and hopefully ill talk to you all later
Troy
1. i am finding myself getting depressed again here, its starting to become spring once again and yes mens and womens thoughts eventually turn to relationships and such as have mine. Its the major reason for this depression i think, well sure, its just one part of it but ill get to that later.
2. i have found myself daydreaming (for a better word for it) about how i want to live out the rest of my life. now that i have done that i have jinxed myself and of course it wont work that way so ill be busy working towards a new way of doing it.
3. i dont know where this itch is coming from, but i find myself more and more wanting to move from this place. at first i was all excited and such about being up here but after only 4 months of being here i am starting to realize that this may not be a good place for me to be at. i am also extremely upset that my beliefs and thoughts on how a emergency medical company should be working as a team and that teamwork was one of the most important things and such, well i have seen the reality, or at least the reality up here at this particular place where there is no team work, the EMR's (the lowest lvl of emergency worker on ambulance here) are treated no better than slaves, cleaning the vehicle, stocking it, doing all the gopher jobs here, and just being treated like shit. now i realize being the lowest of the levels you are expect to "put" your time in and such, but i for one would really not be able to handle the crap these people go thru. Then you have your EMT's who are the middle people, they order the EMR's around, and try to push thier duties onto them while sitting around having coffee or surfing the net or whatever the hell they do. Then the last lvl is the Paramedics, now i have to admit in the last week things have been getting better, but before some of them *not all* would refuse to do anything around the base (base duties are to be done by ALL on shift), and pretty well walk around with huge egos and huge attitudes. but lately i have noticed a change in that they are now realizing that they have to help out too. anyway back to my original thought on this, there is no teamwork here and that crushed my thoughts on how great EMS is. i dont know maybe i need to sit back and rethink this whole thing. im not sure i even want to go on ambulance, the pay is crap up here, and the crap you have to put up with from your "partner" is no good either.
4. i want to welcome back a good friend of mine to sg, she knows who she is, and i hope she realizes i would do anything in my power to keep her smiling.. lots of love to you hun
5. another disturbing thought popping around in this wide open space is how i notice friends on sg and how they drift apart after a time, for some i know its hard to say hi to everyone all the time but after awhile you drift apart and thats pretty sad. i know i value all my friendships and i am guilty of not saying hi to everyone but i vow to at least send everyone a hug or a smile.
well i have alot more to talk about but time is running out right now so i shall bid you all a great day and hopefully ill talk to you all later
Troy
well i guess its time to update this blog. Things are going ok here. having some up days and had a major down day the other day. the up is that i love my job, cant stand the politics here but im only here for a few years for the exp then off i go to somewhere better. and better money
the down day, well i had a lady here in this town who kinda knows me try to set me up with a single friend of hers. im thinking this is great. i am finally going to get out of the house and meet a new person. well a day before we were to meet i was told by my friend that her friend is bailing on me...when asked why, she would not say so i kept pressuring her until she finally told me that her friend was told i was really fat and well the only nice way to say it i was ugly. she told her friend that there was no fucking way she was going to be seen with a fat, fucking piece of shit and that she wanted nothing to do with me.
i am tired of this. this kind of things have really really gotten me down. i know people here are good to me and nice and always have good comments. but its just not the same when you need that face to face contact. i know i should not let this get to me, BUT i cant help it. i just finished going thru a mega depression session and i can feel myself falling into another...oh well i dont know
anyway, im outta here, hope to see you all in groups and such!!! take care everyone
the down day, well i had a lady here in this town who kinda knows me try to set me up with a single friend of hers. im thinking this is great. i am finally going to get out of the house and meet a new person. well a day before we were to meet i was told by my friend that her friend is bailing on me...when asked why, she would not say so i kept pressuring her until she finally told me that her friend was told i was really fat and well the only nice way to say it i was ugly. she told her friend that there was no fucking way she was going to be seen with a fat, fucking piece of shit and that she wanted nothing to do with me.
i am tired of this. this kind of things have really really gotten me down. i know people here are good to me and nice and always have good comments. but its just not the same when you need that face to face contact. i know i should not let this get to me, BUT i cant help it. i just finished going thru a mega depression session and i can feel myself falling into another...oh well i dont know
anyway, im outta here, hope to see you all in groups and such!!! take care everyone
this one is a serious one this time folks:
You stay up for 16 hours
He stays up for days on end.
You take a warm shower to help you wake up.
He goes days or weeks without running water.
You complain of a 'headache', and call in sick..
He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.
You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt,
and go meet up with your friends.
He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.
You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.
He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.
You talk trash about your 'buddies' that aren't with you.
He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.
You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.
He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.
You complain about how hot it is.
He wears his heavy gear , not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.
You go out to lunch , and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.
He doesn't get to eat today .
Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.
He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.
You go to the mall and get your hair redone.
He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.
You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.
He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.
You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.
He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.
You hug and kiss your girlfriend , like you do everyday.
He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.
You roll your eyes as a baby cries.
He gets a letter with pictures of his new child,
and wonders if they'll ever meet.
You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.
He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people & remembers
why he is fighting.
You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like him.
He hears the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.
You see only what the media wants you to see.
He sees the broken bodies lying around him.
You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.
He does exactly what he is told even if it puts his life in danger.
You stay at home and watch TV.
He takes whatever time he is given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.
You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.
He tries to sleep but gets woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.
It's not like you know the men and women that are dying to preserve your rights..
REMEMBER our Troops, and do not forget them LATER
others to come at another time...hugs everyone
You stay up for 16 hours
He stays up for days on end.
You take a warm shower to help you wake up.
He goes days or weeks without running water.
You complain of a 'headache', and call in sick..
He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.
You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt,
and go meet up with your friends.
He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.
You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.
He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.
You talk trash about your 'buddies' that aren't with you.
He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.
You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.
He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.
You complain about how hot it is.
He wears his heavy gear , not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.
You go out to lunch , and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.
He doesn't get to eat today .
Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.
He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.
You go to the mall and get your hair redone.
He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.
You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.
He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.
You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.
He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.
You hug and kiss your girlfriend , like you do everyday.
He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.
You roll your eyes as a baby cries.
He gets a letter with pictures of his new child,
and wonders if they'll ever meet.
You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.
He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people & remembers
why he is fighting.
You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like him.
He hears the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.
You see only what the media wants you to see.
He sees the broken bodies lying around him.
You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.
He does exactly what he is told even if it puts his life in danger.
You stay at home and watch TV.
He takes whatever time he is given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.
You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.
He tries to sleep but gets woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.
It's not like you know the men and women that are dying to preserve your rights..
REMEMBER our Troops, and do not forget them LATER
others to come at another time...hugs everyone
another to cheer your day up
Everyone knows the story of God creating the world in 6 days, and resting on the 7th....well on the 8th day, God and the angle Gabriel were looking down on the world and God says to Gabriel "I am happy with my creating Gabriel, so happy in fact that today I will create the best land in the world and I will call this land Canada. Oh Gabriel, it will be most beautiful. I will give it tall majestic mountains, and wide open prairies...I will give it not 1, not even 2, but 3 oceans...I will cover this land in rich green forests, deep blue lakes, crystal clear rivers and beautiful wild life for them to enjoy..I will let them experience all 4 seasons and I will populate this land with all different types of people...nothing but the kindest, gentlest most caring people in the world...and they shall be known as Canadians...These Canadians will be known around the world for their friendliness, and compassion for others, and will be well respected by all..they will rise up in the face of tyranny, and help crush evil that threatens the world. They will be intellegent, and use this intellegence for the good of the world...." God keeps going on like this for awhile..and this whole time Gabriel has become quite worried so finally he says.."God, I don't mean to question you, but don't you think that you may be giving these Canadians a little to much?"...God looks upon Gabriel and smiles...then says "Don't worry Gabriel....wait until you see the neighbours I am giving them!"
sorry to my american friends but i had to put this in.....
lots of love to you all
Troy
Everyone knows the story of God creating the world in 6 days, and resting on the 7th....well on the 8th day, God and the angle Gabriel were looking down on the world and God says to Gabriel "I am happy with my creating Gabriel, so happy in fact that today I will create the best land in the world and I will call this land Canada. Oh Gabriel, it will be most beautiful. I will give it tall majestic mountains, and wide open prairies...I will give it not 1, not even 2, but 3 oceans...I will cover this land in rich green forests, deep blue lakes, crystal clear rivers and beautiful wild life for them to enjoy..I will let them experience all 4 seasons and I will populate this land with all different types of people...nothing but the kindest, gentlest most caring people in the world...and they shall be known as Canadians...These Canadians will be known around the world for their friendliness, and compassion for others, and will be well respected by all..they will rise up in the face of tyranny, and help crush evil that threatens the world. They will be intellegent, and use this intellegence for the good of the world...." God keeps going on like this for awhile..and this whole time Gabriel has become quite worried so finally he says.."God, I don't mean to question you, but don't you think that you may be giving these Canadians a little to much?"...God looks upon Gabriel and smiles...then says "Don't worry Gabriel....wait until you see the neighbours I am giving them!"
sorry to my american friends but i had to put this in.....
lots of love to you all
Troy
MAY 2008
APRIL 2008