My heart hurts,my eyes water,my spirit screams out in aimed fire to so many right now,I am in such a mood of dishonor knowing what has happen,sad one of my closest friends is miles and miles away and now that beautiful spirit who has inspired me,will leave me now,a great friend will part ways with me and I fear it,I've lost a few people on here and sadly another is to soon join that,It seems my best intentions here and everywhere is shot down because I seem to do more damage than good.I hate it,I hate how I do these things damn it, I just wish to right things ya know to be here for those in need,to inspire the lost and hurt,and yet all I do is that very thing hurt it seems,I am no good,Forgive me in the day's light and take these thoughts away,sad I am to know my deeds are hurting others,Maybe I should just leave everyone here and everywhere else alone.........Maybe I should just go away

Man I am so happy to finally be playing the expansion pack on Fallout 3 ,Done beat Operation Anchorage,and Point Lookout haha and almost done with The Pitt.Man I am so obsessed with Fallout 3 and can't wait till New Vegas Comes out anyone share same thingy haha

So finally I have had the chance to watch Avatar,and I must say this boy has fallen hard for a makeshift dream of Pandorum.I want to be Na'vi soooooooo bad,lol It was a amazing movie not only for the graphics but also for the storyline that fuses two worlds,one modern,and primal in sense of the Na'vi's sync with the planet,every living thing is meaning and so much is taken in from the simplest forms.It made me soar,made me soar so far in spirit as well in heart,because though it is a place of fiction it reflects that same situation here on earth.That the many who stand to protect Nature's voice and home stand alone against the corporations and companies whom seek to make profit of our natural resources.It makes me sad but the same sole fight is very much real amongst the many who are children of earth,as I am one andm any scattered far far along the other landmasses.As I say I am willing to die for this earth,to protect all life forms ifit be,I knwo the voice is shared with so many out there.I wish people find the meanings that are hidden in the movie,so damn many that speak of our actions and what it does.I jsut wish we could come together as one being and person of care and love instead of just greedy,arrogant human souls,Great Spirit weeps.

My hand itches and I want to do many portraits of people on here who inspire me,Isa want to draw the world and thus I say I want to draw you next,hit me up and speak if you want one done

So last night I couldn't sleep due to pains in my galbladder and intestines,so I let that pain flow into artwork so for over four hours I worked on a new portrait of Cio Suicide.I took my time and even though I am not even close to being finished I am impressed by how far my art has soared over the years.I made sure to get pictures of it,even tohugh the camera may be fretarded I am so happy to see it shining of a new bright face that I admire.I say cheers to Clio.

When words are asked to explain the person I am usually most of them revolve around compassion,fierce,considerate,thoughtful,selfless,artistic,,kind,generous,and passionate about life itself.There are many words to describe who I am but most of all the actions I have done in my life speak fondly for what drives me.I like to think of myself as a laid back person who lives in the passion of every moment,every day has to offer,I don't take things for grantite but I hold every moment of everyday to heart.I am a passionate about the world and the various forms of knowledge it has to bring to us.I am passionate about standing up for those who don't have a voice in a moment of present.Human,Animal,and universal rights,the protection of the earths natural resources,the woodlands,forests,and lakes,I fight to protect them with my voice,my art,my words.Amnesty International fuels me to stand strong for others who are down.I believe in universal equality and that everyone has a voice that should be heard.For over a year I lived and breathed the Red Crosses needs every day was a new event to reach out to those in need.From teaching classes at schools,to go do social events in Northern Nevada,to working on a reservation to start a youth council in the school as well as Red Cross Club to help those who are in need.I've went off to the Disaster and Awarness Convention In California,countless hours in writing,teachinf kids,recruiting others,and speaking the passions of helping others.I didn't have a particular shining life growing up and well I know the feeling when you are alone and I refuse to see others in need,others who need a helping hand and someone to believe in them.I care and love the world for what it is,I know I have a chance to make a difference for people,and everywhere I go I wish to show that it doesn't matter what creed you are,religion,color,or sexual preference you have a voice that must be heard.We can all chance the world if we come together and thus I fight to show that we all have meaning here.So with my art in portraits,to my deep passionate verses I reach out to touch others.I am a determined person who will stop at nothing to do what is needed in my life and knowing that I can succeed at anthing pushes me further.I have lived this way for so long.I am spirited to make a difference and I want to show people the little things in life for they are so well deserved,compassion,care, instead of violence and egos,love and grace instead of pride and arrogance.I live in peace with all around me,I live one with earth for I know I am a good person.I fight for those forgotten by society,the lost and hurt.I use my time and care to tend to so many for I have loving hands to make a difference,a impact.I choose to believe in humanity not damn it.I am skilled in many fields from culinary arts to writing,art,and being a social leader to help others,I love to work in nature and around children and the elderly,I love to learn new thigns and to have my hands in the bowl of what life is.I am simple yet complexed.

I do wish all of you lonely lovers out there to enjoy the day knowing that so many of you are noticed and heard,you all are beautiful as well as great to still believe in your emotions and long to live and be in love.I wish you the best and pray and hope you find that level of compassion,care,and romance you long for.You are beautiful and respected for what you feel and think.Always know your thoughts,your memories,and ideals are always important so let them be heard,you must shout it all out.Live dont hide.Be proud of what you are and also feel

I am truly inspired to see how many kind hearts and thoughtful minds that have come together in the times of Haiti's need.To see how many gifted hands that have risen from the general public to come to the aid of the people in Haiti.Thousands of people comming together in one common goal to ease the suffering of so many.All across the world we all are touching reaching out to pull from the ruins,the destruction,and agony,for our hands to soothe the broken dreams,the lost thoughts,and wounded hearts.It reminds me the humanity that is within so many people.To care,to attempt to understand the needs.We are all children of spirit,and with that I am so honored to say I live in a time where spirit is not gone.To be honest when I heard the new remake of "We Are The World" I weeped knowing that there are many who are alike me caring of life on Earth.I weep letting the sdong touch me knowing it is true so many care,and most of all I am still honored in what I do.

A cat was shot with a bow and arrow in my paper today,it broke my heart to read that someone would harm a child of earth,someone would take the hands of cruelty and wound such a beautiful spirit as a cat.The arrow went in its back and out the other side,it was meant to kill "Tom" a male tabby cat black and white.He survived but his owners as well as the veterinary offices want answers to why somone would be so cruel to do such a horrid act.It made me weep to think of his pain,to feel that hurt that is given.I want to take it away.I read of these thigns in the newspaper,on t.v,and the web of people getting kicks being cruel to animals.It makes me weep it truely does to think someone would rather harm a child of earth for fun than need.I hurt because of it,it's because I having a caring heart,because I love in my heart and live to protect the lives of all that inhabit this earth.I know there is still good in this world,still light in it,look at me for instance,I know I am a good person,though I am scarred,twisted,and different.I know I am good,and I know I make a difference in what I do.

A big secret that only around 3 people know is that I long ache to sacrifice my own life to protect another.Since I was a small child before I allow myself to fall into sleep I think of some situation to where someone is in need,people I know and haven't met yet come to place as victims of that cruelty of mankind,disasters,and war.The sitiations plague my eyes until I close them to actually live it all,the sounds the feelings,the voices,and hurt,I always feel everything.To see myself going into the arms of sorrow,into the voice of death and destruction,feelign m flesh burn,my sweat,my hurt as I go to save someone in need.It may be sick to some to hear thaqt someone wants to be hurt in the act of saving someone.I find it flattering,and honored because to me since I have known the pains of life in many ways,I know the effects it can bring to later life,I refuse that to anyone,It's the only way I can go to sleep at night,and as every night comes to me I go into the same order,to close my eyes and be thrown into a scene of these things,and in the last act of care,I sacrifice my own life and spirit to protect those I have come to rescue.To take the blade,bullet,falling building,I in every ending end up dying to save who ever the victim/victims are.I guess it's a way to remind myself that I still care,and as these events play on I weep,because as it may hurt within,I am happy to do so to save others.It reminds me that I am still human.
I cannot handle the harsh opressions my family holds against me,it's sad to actually say that I am not allowed to be myself as I am in front of them,due to they're harsh words,they're rejection and cruelty,I cannot speak my mind on anything I am passionate about without getting some unkind speech on how I am wrong,and stupid,so instead of dealing with these events I have learned to be quiet around them,they know as slow,limbering around them,goofy,and dumb,sad I have to show that so they will leavem e be,sad that the only ones who know me well is my own nieces,Jade 8,Brooke 6, Lexi 6.Sad that children know who I am and thats why they are close to me.Though I may be adopted and not of they're blood they hold me close to heart.They know Uncle Corey will give them the world,I show them teach them everytime they are here of the beaquty of earth,the small bugs and animals,I tell them of the trees and grasses ,and tel lthem that it is always important to speak what you feel.They are my light in my family.Sad they are the only ones who care enough to know me.They know I am different not like others,they accept me,a shame that I hurt so much at the hands of the ones who say they love me,if it wasn't for my nieces and nephew I wouldn't be here,they made me promise that I would never leave them alone in this world,to promise that I would not commit suicide.I promised them long ago this.Each of them holdm any of my traits I've introduced to them in time.Lexi the artist as I have taught her(one in pink),Brooke the scholar and writer(one in middle),and Jade the fierce and bold she wants to be a activist for protectign animals and children in need(one of the right).My life and happiness.

I have endured enough here in Georgia to say that I cannot do so anymore longer.I have been down for so long and I cannot handle that sorrow,it's pathetic a man like me must always be of light and care,so I am rising from it all,I am leavign this place,without thought,without voice.I love my home state and al lthe beauty it brings but I cannot live amongst my family I haveb een trying to get into school but that will take to much time so I have dicided to leave the state,to venture to another place and learn as well as live again,I will be sacrificing many things though,such as being around my nieces,the woods,creeks,and grasses,the humidity, and blue skies,for a concret jungle,for a lack of nature around the area,buildings,stores,and human arrogance for greed.Sadly I am willign to move to a place to test myself in a new area,touch as it is,I move from the country to a grand city.Boston to be exact,I await to know what I get myself into,these days here in my unaccepting home come to a end. So let's see what happens in the later times of this month,I have to get a I.D and that's pretty much all I need.

Kind of blurry but the best I could do with a broken camera,here is a unfinished picture of a dear friend of mine,Amber aka VonGeek.

I am getting back into doign artwork for now craving to pain badly and also to work with wood carving again,gah I crave it hahaha.Well peace and much love