My heart hurts,my eyes water,my spirit screams out in aimed fire to so many right now,I am in such a mood of dishonor knowing what has happen,sad one of my closest friends is miles and miles away and now that beautiful spirit who has inspired me,will leave me now,a great friend will part ways with me and I fear it,I've lost a few people on here and sadly another is to soon join that,It seems my best intentions here and everywhere is shot down because I seem to do more damage than good.I hate it,I hate how I do these things damn it, I just wish to right things ya know to be here for those in need,to inspire the lost and hurt,and yet all I do is that very thing hurt it seems,I am no good,Forgive me in the day's light and take these thoughts away,sad I am to know my deeds are hurting others,Maybe I should just leave everyone here and everywhere else alone.........Maybe I should just go away