Feeling better about life! Thank you xanax, blunts, and beers! Oh! And sexy ass heels that make any girl feel classy and beautifully confident! <3

The good ol days <3

Crying always makes my eyes turn green...

I wish my happiness wasn't dependant on anyone else's actions

Feeling emo as hell Emotions flaw rational thinking! Wish I could make all the pain go away I think that would result in a loss of love as well and I'm not sure if I can handle that right now...Why is it so easy for boys to make girls cry???

Sitting around pretending to watch TV but really just deep in thought about the abnormalties that have consumed my life. Just a few days ago my ignorance was enveloped in a blissful serenity; now the ugly truth eats away at my insecurities. Why did life end up this way??? Fate has no reasons...nor answers?

We may never know how many times not getting what we wanted saved us from disaster...

Ever feel like life is perfect and you have everything you've ever desired??? Seems worth seeking...but perhaps not? The perfect little life isn't quite so sweet once the sugar coating gets sucked the fuck off and an ugly truth exposes its self! All I have to do is accept the flaws of human nature and love my WayBay as much as this little bitty beating heart possibly can <3 This world we happen to exist upon gives us all the best and worst of times...all I can do is live, love and know that this is simply what it feels like to truly be alive!!!!!

I Masturbate


Eyes closed

I see

Your face

I feel

Your touch

I want

To fuck

I scream

Your name

My body

Releases pain

Opened eyes

I came


Affiniti
1-22-2009

An ode to the earth

I am a child of peace
I’ve set my soul free
I run through the grass with my barefoot feet

As the beauty of the light fades away
I dance, I laugh, I play
I am a fluttering fairy daydreaming in a warm field of wild raspberries

There is nothing to bring me down as this earth spins me all around
I spread my wings out wide
My conscience feeling as though I’ve never lied

Clear of all sorrows, death, and tears
Afraid to take no risks for I’ve conquered all my fucking fears
However I can’t help but gaze out upon this world sadly

The one thing I can’t possibly ignore
How we managed to treat something so magically enchanting so badly
I can’t stand it anymore

Try to remember moments from this existence that is your life
Can you feel what makes you know you are truly alive?
The colors, the smells, the breeze

Dancing naked through the shadows of aged old trees
The simple act of loving without jealousy and shame
Passionately caring about every living thing

This life is a giant aura of dreams
Every moment could be perfectly serene
We need to stop all the violence and greed

Realize what’s important and focus on the need
Have you noticed how everyone goes about their day
As if it were supposed to be this way

Everything that happens has happened without much reason
I don’t understand the confusion of God or evolution
When you die it won’t fucking matter

The dirt you lie under will be polluted with litter
It is sad we are to heartless to even try to do better
I am a woman dealing with my demons relatively well

My body is not resilient to pain, sickness, or hell
All I want is this planet to be grand
To walk amongst others across a great land

This place I’m in is far from where it should be
Every decision made creates effects we are unable to see
The lack of simple purity brings tears to my eyes

It makes me want to leap up, get high, and forever fly
To stay up in the smog filled sky till I actually die
Come crashing to the ground and slowly rot away

Littering the universe
No one cares anyway
What more can I say?

Affiniti

6-14-08