argh insomnia stinks! i feel asleep very very early. i wasn't supposed to. but i just crashed in my bed, and fell asleep. two hours later i am sickly awake, and this is the time i am supposed to be sleeping. i am dead tired. eyes are sagging. i tried doping myself with hot cocoa. i hope it helps soon. or else i will have to use one of my medicine books. something really boring. like my cns book. that one could really put me to sleep. not that cns is boring, it was just a horrible horrible book.

yawn!

tomorrow (technically it is later today, but who cares): chemestry studying with kallah. i love her name. i want to be named after a flower too! especially a pretty one like her.

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good thing kallah was sick today. so far i have managed to:

sleep
crash in front of the tv
shower (i'm rather proud of that one)
cut my hair
change the kitties litterbox
and check my email...

fuck, i keep shaking, and almost pass out. today will not be a day i achieve greatness. my hair isn't even straight. but what the hell. it is shorter and looks healthier. who was it that decided that hair had to be straight anyways?

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rejected from nocturnal models again. oh well. i just thought it deserved another go at least. i love their profile, and i would die to shoot with one of their photogs. but it wasn't meant to be. hehe. at least they were really fast responding this time.

damn, i am getting really good at handling rejections. i think modelling actually may be a positive thing for my selfesteem. i suppose all the photogs dying to work with me is helping a bit too. lol.

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hmm, where did all my favorites go?